Title: The Last 5 Years
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Wish they were mine… alas they are not… Just Borrowing them… Don't Sue. The music in this fic comes from the musicals The Last 5 Years and Songs for a New World; both are by Jason Robert Brown.
Many thanks to my awesome beta Cropper! Yay!
Chapter 3
They had their first official big fight. Harsh words were spoken and doors were slammed. Sara angrily told him that he needed to get over his insecurities and start opening up to her or she was gone. She slammed the door as she left, leaving a broken man behind.
It was the first night that Sara went back to her own apartment to sleep. The next day, she went in to work early to fill out the paperwork for a week off starting immediately. She left it on his desk with a post-it note attached, saying she needed some time to think about "this".
Grissom crumbled up the note in his fist and sighed as he sank down into his chair. He tried calling her a million times, leaving her numerous voicemails. He went over to her apartment before shift, and was surprised to see her car was not in the parking lot. Now he sat at his desk with the crumpled paper in his hand, wondering where he went wrong.
It was a long shift without Sara, and that long shift was turning into long days where Grissom would go home to an empty townhouse. He passed by her apartment before and after every shift trying to find her to talk to her. She refused to answer her cell phone, and Grissom was miserable. His bedroom felt cold and sterile without Sara's smile and warmth. He decided to spend most of his time at the lab, working to keep his mind off of Sara and the mistake he made by letting her go.
On the second day of Sara's "vacation", he overheard Nick telling Greg that Sara called him to let him know that she would be out of town visiting a friend for the next couple of days, but she would return next Monday. Grissom's heart fluttered with joy to hear that she was ok, and she would indeed be back. He knew he had to make it up to her and he had five days to show her his true feelings without the wall he was hiding behind.
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3 Days Later
Grissom was sent home by Catherine after pulling an extremely stressful triple shift. He left the lab reluctantly, knowing that there was really nothing to go home to, but an encroaching migraine eventually led him back to his townhouse for a few hours of rest.
He walked in the door and downed some of his medication and pulled the shades. He plopped onto his couch and closed his eyes. Grissom tried in vain to take a nap, when he realized it was much too quiet. He reached over to his coffee table and picked up the remote to the stereo and flicked it on. He recognized it immediately as one of Sara's CDs. He closed his eyes once again, waiting for sleep to hopefully overtake him.
MAN:
I had a house while you were gone
The
week after you left me
I found a couple acres
Near Severna
Park
I had a house while you were gone
A house with silver
shutters
And a driveway laid in marble
And thousands of rooms
to fill
And miles of space to fly
And I tried to believe
it,
It was better without you
I was safer alone
No,
I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once
more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all to hold you
again
To feel I'm completed
To know there and then
That
all that I needed
Was you to fight the fear
And now you're
here...
As Grissom listened to the lyrics, he could not help as the image of a certain brunette popped into his mind. He was brought out of his musings as he heard a knock at his door. He was thinking about ignoring it, until the knocks became more persistent. Catherine he thought, as he moved off his couch. He slowly walked to the door, and opened it. He was extremely surprised to see Sara on the other side.
WOMAN:
I
took a trip while I was gone
I cashed in all my savings
And
bought an El Dorado
Drove to Tennessee
I took a trip while I
was gone
I drove across the country
And I stopped at lots of
diners
And stared at a million stars
And thought I could
touch the sky
And I tried to believe it,
It was better without
you
I was finally free
"Hi Grissom" she said quietly, avoiding his shocked gaze. "I…" Sara began, but was cut off as Grissom drew her into a passionate kiss.
No,
I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once
more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it 'cause the
mountains I climb
Get higher and higher
I'm running from time
And walking through fire
And dreams just don't come true
But
now there's you...
Grissom finally broke off the kiss and whispered into her hair "I love you so much Sara. I'm so sorry honey. I'll never push you away again".
Sara felt tears well up in her eyes as she replied "I love you too".
MAN:
God knows it's easy to hide,
Easy
to hide from the things that you feel
And harder to blindly trust
What you can't understand
WOMAN:
God knows it's easy
to run,
Easy to run from the people you love
And harder to
stand and fight
For the things you believe
MAN &
WOMAN:
Nothing about us was perfect or clear
But when paradise
calls me
I'd rather be here
There's something between us
That nobody else needs to see
Sara pushed Grissom's body back through the doorway, urging them both back into their home. Grissom led her over to the couch, just content to hold her. After a moment of silence he said(,) "we will talk about this and work through it. I just want hold you. I missed this."
Sara snuggled closer to his chest, pressing a kiss at the base of his throat "I missed this too".
WOMAN:
There were oceans to cross
MAN:
There were mountains to conquer
WOMAN:
And
I stood on the shore
MAN:
And I stood on the cliff
MAN
& WOMAN:
And the second before I jumped
I knew where I
needed to be
Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it all for
you by my side once more
Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it
'cause it's harder to touch
The things that are dearer
I
love you too much
To trust something clearer
I know I fell
too far
But here you are...
They both drifted off to sleep on the couch. Even if their relationship wasn't perfect, both Sara and Grissom knew that they would make it work.
Sorry that this chapter is so late! So much work… and I still have a paper and project due on Monday! One more chapter to go! Please Review!
