I've had a horrible day today. I'm really depressed right now and I really don't think I'm going to make it another hour or so without crying. And the batteries to my CD player are dying. It's just been a tough day and I want to go take my nap.

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Master Kulo was taken away for some reason. I was left with Master Jinn. It was awkward sitting there with him studying me. He was silent though, and I was grateful.

When Master Kulo returned I was meditating. He sat down next to me. Our meals were hardly meals. Stale bread gets old pretty fast. Master Kulo saw me just picking at mine and gave me a worried look. He knew I rarely passed up food, even if it was bad.

Each day passed and we sat in the small cell. The nights were freezing and the days were almost too hot to bear. They didn't give us any blankets and they had taken our cloaks. The days were long and boring, at night I hardly slept because of the cold.

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One day, Master Kulo, Master Jinn and I were all dragged into a big room. Master Kulo was chained and beaten. They forced me to watch every bit of it. Master Jinn didn't seem to mind, but he wasn't raised by this man.

Master Kulo would cry out and I would try to avert my eyes, each time my handler forced me to look again.

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I was thrown into our small cell. I sat on the ground with my knees tucked under my chin. I sat there for what seemed like a long time before Master Jinn was thrown in. He looked at me. "Are you alright?" he asked me.

I nodded. "Fine." They hadn't done anything to me and I wanted to know why. I looked at Master Jinn and I think he saw the tears that filled my eyes, even in the dark. "Why him?"

"I don't know that." Master Jinn sat next to me and put a hand on my shoulder.

"It's because of me, isn't it?" I knew it had to be. I was young so I was the weakest. If they tortured the man that was like a father to me I would spill. I didn't know what they wanted, but they thought I did.

"It's not your fault. It's no one's."

I looked at him and managed a small smile. "Is he going to be alright?"

"He'll be fine, but his back might have some pretty nasty scars of we don't get him treated as soon as possible."

I nodded. Master Kulo was thrown in a few minutes later. He was drained of energy and that worried me. He was normally so strong and had so much wisdom to show me. At that moment he just laid on the ground. He was silent, but his breathing was heavy.

"Obi-Wan," he said.

I knelt beside him. "Yes Master?" I could hardly bare to look at him. I knew it was my fault he was like this.

"I want you to find a way to escape. Tomorrow, they will do this again. I have foreseen it. And I want you to escape before they hurt you."

I shook my head. "No, I won't leave you." Master Jinn seemed surprised. I guess he didn't realize that we DID have a bond; we just didn't show it much.

"Padawan, please."

I shook my head. Master Kulo smiled at me. He always thought I was too headstrong.

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The next morning we were again taken to the room. Master Kulo was beaten, but after a while, the king of the second tribe said he would kill Master Kulo if either Master Jinn or me didn't spill. I wish I knew what they wanted, but I just didn't. They had never told us because I supposed they thought we already knew.

Master Kulo looked at me and smiled sadly. His eyes told me everything he wanted to say to me. He wanted me to go back to the Temple and finish my training. He ordered me to escape as soon as I could. I would have smile at that if I hadn't been trying to keep the tears from falling.

And that was it. They gave us one last chance and then they shot him. Master Kulo stood for a moment in shock and then collapsed. I began struggling, trying to get to him, but they wouldn't let me.

I was thrown back into the cell. I sat in the corner and tried to stop crying, but I couldn't. This man had raised me; he had taught me everything I know.

Master Jinn was thrown in a few minutes later and saw me huddled in the corner. "There was nothing you could have done," he said trying to comfort me.

"I know, but… I… he was like a father to me," I cried. "Yeah, he was a little mean at times, but I was used to it."

"Mean? Did he abuse you?"

I shook my head. "No, he was just tough to please."

"How?" I guess he thought I wanted to talk about Master Kulo. But I didn't really, I wanted to bring him back, but I couldn't.

"He always said there was no room for weakness." I smiled slightly. "Sometimes I wonder why he took me as his apprentice and we stayed together for all these years."

"You two didn't seem to have a very good bond, especially for a team that has been together for so long."

We didn't, but there were times when we were closer than we really are. "Master Kulo didn't tolerate much and… well, he didn't like my attitude about most stuff."

"I noticed." He sat down next to me. "Will you be alright?"

I nodded. "Yeah."

"We'll get out of here."

I didn't want to believe him. Master Kulo had told me to escape and I knew how, but I didn't want to. It just didn't seem the same when Master Kulo wasn't fighting with me. Fighting for freedom.

"He wanted me to go back to the Temple," I said slowly looking at the ground. "What Master would take me?"

"He took you, and many Masters would take you."

I wanted to ask about his Padawan, but I didn't know how to ask. "What happened to your apprentice?" I asked slowly. It didn't come out quite the way I wanted it to.

"He turned to the Dark Side," Master Jinn said quietly.

I wondered why Master Kulo had acted like he did about it. It was obviously a sensitive spot for him.

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Master Jinn was taken away a few days later and he came back alone. He smiled and tossed me my lightsaber, and then Master Kulo's. I stood up quickly and followed him down the hall. "We don't have much time to get out of here," he said quietly.

He led me down the hall into a small tunnel. It led outside and there was two speeders waiting. Master Adi Gallia was there waiting. Her Padawan, Siri Tachi was with her. I got onto the second speeder with Master Jinn.

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I arrived back at the Temple and went to Master Kulo's quarters to pack up my things. I was to move into the student's quarters again.

I finished and went to my new quarters. I unpacked and then collapsed on the couch. I had a lot on my mind and I didn't know where to start. I was lying down, staring at the ceiling when there was a knock at the door. "Come in," I said without thinking.

I looked up to see Master Jinn there. He smiled. "I just wanted to see how you're doing."

"I'm okay, I guess." I had been thinking about Master Kulo a lot, but I was getting used to not having him there, even if I was still grieving for him.

He nodded. "It's about lunch time. I'd like your company if you want to come."

I sat up. "Yeah, I'll go."

We walked together down the hall in silence. I didn't know why he just randomly decided he was going to stop staring at me like he had, but I was glad he did. Maybe he knew I was trying to hide my grief. Or maybe he found that I could handle what we saw on Guhoa. I didn't know.

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I'm STILL depressed. Gosh. Boring chapter, I thought.