disclaimer: i do not own twilight or any of its characters and i do not own any of the songs that i will be using in this fic.
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"Edward" I called out into the darkness. "Edward" I called his name out louder this time. It was only answered by more silence. I tried to get up from where I was sitting but I couldn't move. My legs felt like they were glues to the ground. I tried everything I could to get myself up but nothing worked. I began to cry and I called out Edward's name a few more times before I gave up. I closed my eyes.
"Bella" I heard a familiar voice call out. I quickly opened my eyes to see Edward running towards me. I smiled but still could not get up.
"Edward. Edward I can't get up" I said asa he haulted in front of me. I expected him to help me up but he just stood there. Staring at something behind me. I turned around to see a girl standing about twenty yards away from me. She looked beautiful. Her hair was golden blonde and fell just below her lower back. Her face was perfectly angular and she was thin but not too thin. She could almost pass for Rosalie's twin if their facial features were the same.
I looked back at Edward to see him still staring at the girl, only this time he was staring at her with awe and a sense of lust.
"Jane" was all he said. It pained me to see him staring at another girl like that. I closed my eyes and brought my face to my knees. I clenched my fists and brought them up to my ears and I began to scream Edward's name.
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"Bella! Bella, wake up" I slowly opened my eyes to see Edward hovering over me. His eyes full of concern. He was sitting on the edge of my bed and he was holding my hand.
"Edward" I said softly. If he didnt have inhuman hearing he wouldn't have been able to hear it.
"I'm here Bella. I've always been here. I'll never leave you" he said. I could tell he was worried about me. The look on his face said it all.
"Edward, can we go to your house. I don't really want to be here" I said. He nodded and scooped me up into his arms and before I knew it we were in his car.
"What were you dreaming about" he asked as we pulled out of my driveway. I didn't answer for a bit. I watched everything pass by quickly. I needed time to remember.
"Well it started out in this dark area..." I explained everything. I didn't skip any detail.He seemed unbothered by it all. Like it was just a bad dream. But when I began to describe the girl his hands tightly gripped the stearing wheel and his eyebrows furrowed.
"Did you happen to catch her name" he asked. I looked up at the ceiling and retraced my dream.
"Um. Ya. I think her name was Jane" he froze. The car stopped and it seemed like everything stopped along with it. His expression changed to that of one of total hate and yet there was a hint of desire in it.
"Do you know he..." Edward reved up the car and sped off causing me to crash back into the seat. I watched the speed-o-meter raise higher and higher. He pulled to the front of his house just before I was going to pass out.
When we got inside the house he charged straight up to his room. When I finally arrived he was pacing back and forth.
"Edward, what's wrong" I asked he looked at me and was about to answer when Esme called for him. He gave me a look that told me to stay where I was and he left. I obeyed but I began to walk around. As I neared his couch I tripped. When I got myself up I saw that I had tripped over a loose floorboard. I propped it open and pulled out a box that was hidden underneath it. I took of the lid and reached inside. I pulled out a folded piece of paper. I unfolded it and noticed it was dated a week before Edward and I started dating. I began to read it and realized it was a song.
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
No!
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.
Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.
Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So he did know this Jane girl. Well at least I think it's the same girl. I looked into the box and found another song that was dated a week after me and Edward started dating.
An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.
And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
...I can't hate you anymore.
You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore
Just as I finished reading it I looked up to see Edward standing in the doorway. His eyes focused on the paper I was holding. He was at my side quickly and he ripped the paper from my hands. He quickly tore it up and looked at me harshly.
"Edward, I ----" I tried to explain but his eyes were so harsh that I knew I couldn't really say anything.
"Get out" I couldn't believe it. He was telling me to leave.
"But"
"Get out"
"Edward"
"Get Out" he was yelling now. Tears began to form in my eyes as I ran past him. I passed by Alice, Jasper, and Emmet on my way throught the hall. They quickly ran to Edward's room and I could hear them yelling from the stairwell.
Tears began to escape my eyes as I made it out the door. My vision became blurry from all the water in my eyes. I looked for my truck and realized we had taken Edward's car. I began to walk but I collapsed. I laid on the ground and just wished someone would run me over.
"Bella" I heard someone call from the porch. I wiped the tears from my eyes and saw Alice and Jasper standing on the porch. Alice quickly ran over to me and cradled me in her arms.
"I'm so sorry Bella" she said as she stroked my hair. Jasper came over and put his hand on my shoulder.
"I'm really sorry too" he said. I suddenly felt a wave of calm overcome me and I stopped crying. But I couldn't escape the emptiness I felt in the place where my heart used to be.
"He's such a jerk Bella. You are to good for him" Alice said. For some reason I got mad at her for saying that.
"Don't say that. He was always to good for me. He obviously still loves this Jane person and she obviously deserves him more than me" Alice and Jasper looked at eachother and then back at me.
"How'd you find out about Jane" Jasper asked obviously worried.
"In a dream. I thought it was just a dream at first but then I found those songs that Edward wrote" Jasper and Alice exchanged worried looks and then Jasper scooped me up into his arms.
"Bella, we need talk about this. But not out here. It's going to start raining" Alice said pointing up at the sky. Jasper carried me inside and set me down on the couch.
"Where's Edward" I asked.
"He went out for a run. He won't be back for a while" Alice answered. I couldn't shake feeling that something wasn't right.
"Bella, Edward really does love you like he said he does. But--" I hated but's.
"but he loved someone else before. Not as much as he does you but close. Her name was Jane. She was a vampire and perfect in every way. We all thought that Edward and her were going to get married but then something happened. She left him because she didn't feel that it was right and that it wasn't really true love. She said she'd come back for him and that she she would want them to be able to pick up where they left off. Then he met you and fell in love again and he was so happy. But a week later she contacted him and asked him if he still loved her. He said no and she hasn't spoken to him since. Her last words to him were I'm going to take you from her. When you mentioned the dream we knew it was her because she can alter peoples dreams and send them messages. Edward still loves you Bella. He just doesn't want you to get hurt" It was hard to believe her but I knew I had to. Why would she lie to me?
"And then she got in contact with Kail and told him to ruin your guys's relationship at all costs. It almost worked but her plan failed when you guys got through the Kail thing. Kail left to go back to Alaska so she could give him his next task. Things are going to get alot worse Bella. That's why Edward told you to leave. He wants to protect you" I believed Jasper but it was just so hard. Why couldn't Edward just let me face this with him. We could fight them side by side. It was times like these that I hated being human.
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