"Bella" I heard Edward's voice call out through the darkness.
"Bell" I began to lose him.
"Be"
"B"
Pretty soon I couldn't hear or feel anything. I was lost in the dark abyss. My conciussness left me so I began to dream.
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I was sitting in mine and Edward's meadow. It was a clear, starry night. The water was pratically glowing in the light of the full moon. The only thing that was missing was Edward.
I heard a voice from behind me say my name but I couldn't turn around to look. It was if I was imbolized. Pretty soon I felt a cold hand on my shoulder and the person walked around in front of me. It was Kail.
"He doesn't really love you Bella. He still loves her. He always has and always will. You were just the rebound girl" he started to smile and then the scenery changed and I was in the Cullen's living room. I was standing now but I still couldn't move. This time Edward was here. But he was sitting on the couch with Jane.
"Edward" I tried to scream but the words couldn't escape my mouth.
"Jane, I still love you with every fiber of my being. I don't really love that human. She's just some girl I was going to be with for a while and then dump her. She means nothing to me" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I tried to scream but the words were still unable to escape the barrier that was my mouth. I did the only thing I could do... I cried. I cried until there were no more tears left to shed. I collapsed to the floor and began beating my fists against the ground.
I guess I was visible now because they both looked at me. Jane was full of anger and hate. Edward was full of disgust and sorrow. I quickly got up and ran for the kitchen. I wasn't really thinking. I just ran to one of the drawers and pulled out a knife. By then Edward was in the kitchen with me. Jane was still on the couch.
"Bella" he began to say. I just put my hand up and then raised the knife.
"Do I really mean nothing to you?" I asked. He was about to speak but I cut him off "If I mean nothing to you then what I'm about to do won't matter to you. You'll just go back to that vampire whore. I thought you loved me Edward Anthony Cullen. I thought you did. But since you have no heart then I guess you can't love" and with that I plunged the knife deep into my flesh and into my heart.
I felt the blood escape the wound. It wasn't long before I lost all feeling in my body. Edward was kneeling next to me, trying to take the knife from me but I wouldn't let him.
"Please Bella. I don't want you to die" he said with a pleading look in his eyes.
"Fuck off you stupid vampire. You really are a monster. You caused a girl to take her own life. Way to go jack ass" my vision darkened and the last thing I saw before I was totally out of it was the hurt expression on Edward's face.
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"NO" I screamed. I looked around me and Edward was hovering over me while holding an ice pack to my forehead.
"Are you ok" Edward asked. He look a little startled.
"I'm fine. It was just a nightmare. Did you find out who won the talent show" I didn't want to think about the dream anymore.
"No not yet. It's still going on. You were only out for like fifteen minutes" he started to laugh and I blushed which made him laugh more. Then his cell phone rang and he talked to who ever was on the other line for a couple minutes.
"It's a tie between us and you guys. We're going to have to battle it out again tomorrow after school" he said with that crooked smile that I loved so much.
"Oh joy. More singing" we both laughed. I was going to have to brace myself for another one of Jane's attacks.
"Don't worry Bella. I won't let her hurt you this time" I could tell he sensed that I was worried.
"It's ok Edward. I'm not scared. She doesn't scare me at all" I took his hands in mine and gave him a reassuring glance. His smile was sheepish but a smile none the less.
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The next day at school was crazy. It all started at lunch.
I sat down at my usual spot next to Edward in the cafeteria. Jane was sitting at the end of the table across from Alice. I had thought that everything was going to be ok, but I was wrong.
Edward wrapped his arm around my waist and all of a sudden I was consumed by hate and rage. I looked over at Jane who's eyes were focused on me and then I looked back at Edward who's eyes held so much love that it hurt to look. Half of me wanted to embrace him and then the other part of me wanted to hit him. I decided to do neither. Instead, I screamed.
"Are you ok Bella" Edward asked. My sudden outburst had startled him and everyone else in the cafeteria. I just looked at Edward with such hate and rage that it scared me. I stood up and stared harshly at Edward. I knew that I wasn't the one doing this.
"NO EDWARD, I'M NOT OK. I'LL NEVER BE OK UNTIL I CAN GET AS FAR AWAY FROM YOU AS POSSIBLE. I HATE YOU. YOU'RE A SICK MONSTER AND YOU DON'T DESERVE ME. I DESERVE SOMEONE SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU. SOMEONE WHO WILL GIVE ME EVERYTHING I WANT. NOT SOMEONE WHO WILL GIVE ME EVEYTHING I WANT EXCEPT SOME THINGS" oh god. no. don't let this be real. I can't be yelling at Edward in front of the whole cafeteria. My eyes widened and I began to cry but the more I cried the angrier I seemed to get at Edward. He reached for me but I slapped his hand away.
"DON'T TOUCH ME. I HATE YOU. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME" the tears were coming even harder now. Edward looked harshly at Jane who broke her stare and suddenly the hate and rage stop and they were replaced by grief and sorrow. I collapsed and Edward quickly caught me.
"I'm so sorry Edward. I'm so sorry" I said as I shook my head. I couldn't comprehend what had happened. I was still in shock. So was everyone else in the cafeteria.
"It's ok Bella. I love you. I know you didn't do it" Jane had not looked back over at me. Edward quickly got me out of the cafeteria.
"Edward" I said when we reached a bench in the quad.
"Yes Bella" he said as he set me down. He looked at me with such love in his eyes that it hurt to look at him. It hurt to know that he never showed me anything but love and I went and yelled at him in front of the cafeteria. I quickly dropped my head
"Bella" he said as he lifted my head back up to look at him. He pressed his lips to mine and I just sat their. I then lightly pushed him away.
"Edward, I can't. I can't kiss you knowing that I just did that to you. It hurts to know that you love me so much and I just treated you like that" I turned my head away. I couldn't even bear to look at him.
"Bella, it wasn't you that was doing that. It was Jane. That's the other side to her power. You didn't do any of it" he turned my head back towards him and then he kissed me. At first it was guarded but then he did something totally unexpected. He parted his lips and his tongue touched my lips as if asking permission to enter. I parted my lips in response and our tongues explored each others moutsh and would tease each other when they'd pass each other. Edward pulled away after a few minutes.
"Edward" I said in a confused haze. So many things were buzzing through my head at the moment.
"I've waited to do that for so long" he said with a slight smile.
"Well i'm glad you decided to do it now" I said with a wink. I looked over to the cafeteria and saw Alice and Rosalie walking towards us.
"Bella, C'mon. We need to go reherse" Alice called out. I looked at Edward and he nodded. I quickly got up and ran towards them and we went to their house.
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We decided to do a song called LaLa by Ashlee Simpson. We practiced it for a while. Alice and Rosalie had me holding a fake michrophone and jumping around. It was fun and very tiring.
"Bella, there's a suprise outfit for you in Edward's room that we picked out for you. Go try it on and then come down here so we can see" Alice said. I nodded and ran upstairs. I got to Edward's room and could hear Alice and Rosalie still playing.
I looked at the outfit that was lying on the bed and gasped. The outfit consisted of a tiny tank that looked like it wouldn't fall below my belly button and it had a cute rip in the collar that made it look like a v-neck, a skirt that was ripped at the bottom and was really short, fishnet stockings, stiletto heels, and fishnet gloves. I quickly gathered it up and put it on.
I walked over to a mirror and looked at myself. I didn't look like me at all. I looked like I just stepped out of a rock music video. In other words, I looked hot.
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"Wow Bella, you look amazing" I heard an all-to-familiar voice say from behind me. I turned around and was face to face with Kail.
"What are you doing here" I asked as I backed away from him. I nearly knocked over the mirror.
"I wanted to see my beautiful Bella one more time before Jane finishes you off" he said as he stuck his arm out and stroked my cheek. I tried to turn my head but he wouldn't let me so I bit him----hard. This seemed to do something to him because he pushed himslef against me and brushed his lips against my neck.
"Kail--" his smell was so overpowering. He smelled almost exactly like Edward.
"Bella, do you want to be a vampire" he asked, not taking his lips from my neck. I wanted to say yes but I didn't want him of all people to change me. I shook my head and he smiled.
"Ok then. I just want to do one thing then" and with that he threw me on Edward's coach and was on top of me in an instant. He kissed my neck, cheek, forehead, nose, and then my lips. He was forceful and didn't let me get away. I was stuck and I was afraid.
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