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read this; if you hate this, it is your own fault.
Italic writing is thoughts.
A/N: Set early season 7. Reviews welcome, flames expected.
A/N2: This chapter is a narrative from Buffy to you. It is spoken in her mind as she is unable to speak.
In Remembrance Of Who She Was
Chapter One: What She Became
What? You don't think that I could hurt my sister? Didn't think I could have her sit next to me, so close she was touching my skin and let her sob her heart out 'til it broke; and not move to touch her or even look at her? Every day for months I have done exactly that. I don't even look at her.
But it's not my fault, I can't. Not since...Then. In less than one second all that happened and I broke the hearts of everyone who loved, no, still loves me, even though I've changed so much. I'm not who I used to be. Now I'm making Her, my own sister, hurt so badly and I can't even say I'm sorry! I do try! Even after all these months, I try. The words just won't come out. How had I let it come to this? Oh God, Dawn! Dawnie had lost me before and now she was losing me again. This time I had to watch, as this, I, destroyed her.
I do try to tell her how sorry I am. I try 'til my head aches from the effort, but it doesn't work. I guess I'll just have to face it. I can't ever talk to her or touch her again. I just can't move... because... from my toes to the crown of my head...
... I'm paralysed, and They had done this to me. Not even Willow can help me. So my friends have to just watch me lie there, more helpless than a child and think back in remembrance of who I was.
Italic writing is thoughts.
A/N: Set early season 7. Reviews welcome, flames expected.
A/N2: This chapter is a narrative from Buffy to you. It is spoken in her mind as she is unable to speak.
In Remembrance Of Who She Was
Chapter One: What She Became
What? You don't think that I could hurt my sister? Didn't think I could have her sit next to me, so close she was touching my skin and let her sob her heart out 'til it broke; and not move to touch her or even look at her? Every day for months I have done exactly that. I don't even look at her.
But it's not my fault, I can't. Not since...Then. In less than one second all that happened and I broke the hearts of everyone who loved, no, still loves me, even though I've changed so much. I'm not who I used to be. Now I'm making Her, my own sister, hurt so badly and I can't even say I'm sorry! I do try! Even after all these months, I try. The words just won't come out. How had I let it come to this? Oh God, Dawn! Dawnie had lost me before and now she was losing me again. This time I had to watch, as this, I, destroyed her.
I do try to tell her how sorry I am. I try 'til my head aches from the effort, but it doesn't work. I guess I'll just have to face it. I can't ever talk to her or touch her again. I just can't move... because... from my toes to the crown of my head...
... I'm paralysed, and They had done this to me. Not even Willow can help me. So my friends have to just watch me lie there, more helpless than a child and think back in remembrance of who I was.
