Roxas had still not returned when Axel went to bed. He sighed deeply, wishing to be anywhere else than in the castle. It just felt cold and empty that night, making him shiver despite the warmth of the room. He had almost fallen asleep when he heard the door open and close. A smile came to his face as he realized that there was only one person who would dare enter his room without knocking.

"Roxas?" he asked without opening his eyes.

"Yeah," The smaller nobody said softly.

"Come on over here." Axel muttered, patting the bed next to him. He wanted to see Roxas, wanted to talk to him, but he was too tired to get out of bed. He was actually surprised when he felt the bed dip down on one side as Roxas climbed in. His shock lessened though as Roxas slipped under the covers, laying as close to Roxas as he could, even though the bed was large enough that three people could sleep in it and not touch. If they had not been nobodies, Axel would have looked at this situation much differently, but he assured himself that, since neither of them could love, it was completely innocent.

"I heard that you just about killed Marluxia today." Roxas said softly, laying his head next to Axel's. "What happened?"

"The guy exaggerates too much, you know that. I threw something at him." Axel mumbled, not mentioning that it had been a sharp pair of shears and had been aimed directly where Marluxia's heart should have been.

"Demyx told me." Roxas corrected.

"He's a liar, don't trust a word of the filth that spills from his mouth." Axel yawned, starting to get too tired to carry on a conversation. He wanted to sleep, but at the same time he wanted to stay awake to be with Roxas, a dilemma he had never been faced with before.

"Hey, Axel," Roxas said after a long pause, "What are we?"

"Nobodies, creatures without hearts or emotions, you know that." Axel said simply, not understanding the question.

"No, not like that. Just the two of us." Roxas shifted, leaning on one elbow and looking down at Axel.

"I don't know." He answered truthfully, "Every time I try to think about it…"

"You just end up realizing that it is impossible, right?" Roxas finished his sentence, "Nobodies cant get emotionally attached to anyone, we don't have emotions."

"But if we cant feel, then why does it feel so good to be close to you?" Axel wondered aloud, reaching his hand up and touching Roxas's cheek. The younger nobody leaned into Axel's touch, moving closer to the nobody's face. They both knew that they were about to take a big step, a step that neither of them were prepared for.

"I should probably go to bed," Roxas said at the last moment, preventing anything from happening. Axel wasn't sure if he should be disappointed or relieved. He had wanted to kiss Roxas so bad, even though he knew that it was wrong on so many different levels. They were incapable of feeling, pretending that they were in love could only lead to pain for both of them, particularly if anyone else found out about it.

"Good night," Axel said to the closed door, knowing that by then Roxas was long gone. Tomorrow he would do something about this. He would get to the bottom of what was going on, even if it meant asking Xemnas for help. That nobody knew more about them than anyone else, he would be able to tell Axel what was wrong and how to fix it.

The next day, Axel found himself standing in Xemnas's office, waiting for him to show up. The superior didn't even know to expect him, but Axel couldn't wait any longer. He needed answers to questions that he was afraid to ask. He was feeling things that he knew that he should not have been able to feel.

"Axel, what are you doing here?" Xemnas asked, his eyes full of suspicion. It was common knowledge that Axel hated being in Xemnas's office, it usually only happened because he had gotten in trouble. No one would ever expect him to go there voluntarily.

"I want to ask you a few questions," Axel admitted, kicking at the black rug that covered some of the white tile floor, renewing his hatred for the two colors.

"About what?" The superior asked, moving over to his desk and sitting down, motioning for Axel to sit as well. The younger nobody refused, preferring to stand incase he lost his nerve and had to make a bolt for the door.

"Well, about hearts and Nobodies," Axel murmured so quietly that Xemnas was not even sure that he had heard him correctly, "And what things we can feel."

"This is about Roxas, correct?" Xemnas asked, pretending to know exactly what was going on.

"When I'm around him, I'm alright. When I'm not around him, even when he is still in the castle, I cant stop thinking about him. Without him I don't feel complete." Axel plopped down in the chair that he had avoided before, the thin layer of cushion wrapped around him as though it were giving him a hug.

"Axel, you are not complete to begin with. You don't have a heart."

"I know, but it doesn't feel like that when I am around him!" Axel shouted, standing up out of the chair and pacing small circles around the room, "I just want to know what is wrong with me? Why can I feel things? Answer me damn it!"

Axel slammed his hands down on the desk, almost succeeding in making Xemnas jump. While the superior was distracted by the sudden invasion of his personal space, Axel stole a glance on what was on his desk. One file caught his attention. It had his and Roxas' name on the top and was thick with papers.

"Perhaps you do not feel these things, you just imagine that you feel them," Xemnas stood up, forcing Axel away. With a sweep of his hand he hid the file under another, not realizing that Axel had already seen it. "The only other ridiculous solution is that you are growing a heart!"

"This is nothing but a waste of time! I'm out of here!" Axel shouted, trying to block out the sound of Xemnas's laugh. He wanted to know what was in the file, but he knew that he wasn't going to be allowed to just leaf through it at his will.

Without thinking, he headed towards Memory Tower, another one of Roxas's favorite haunts. He would tell him about the file. Roxas had always been better at planning things, maybe he could come up with a way to get it off of Xemnas's desk long enough for them to read it.

"Axel," Roxas said as soon as Axel walked in. He got close, but stayed a little bit farther away than normal, "I feel strange."

"Strange like what?" Axel stopped dead in his tracks, remembering his conversation just a few minutes before.

"Like I don't want to be away from you. If I had a heart, I think I would be in…"

"Don't say that Roxas!" Axel cut him off suddenly, knowing what he was about to say, "We don't have hearts, talking about them just makes it worse."

"So then, everything last night was what?" Roxas asked, trying to look Axel in the eye but the taller nobody refused to look down far enough.

"It wasn't anything, nothing even happened last night." He insisted, knowing that it was both a lie and the truth at the same time. He had to lie though, the full truth wasn't something that he could understand or accept. "I'm sorry Roxas."

"No you aren't, you cant be, remember?" The smaller nobody growled, pushing past Axel and storming out of the room, slamming the door behind him. Axel just looked at the door for a moment, trying to figure out everything that happened.

"Damn it! I'm so fucking stupid!" Axel yelled at the top of his lungs, allowing himself to collapse on the ground.

"Not saying that I don't agree," Demyx said, coming from another part of the tower, "But what happened?"

Axel looked up at Demyx. His eyes were filled with anger, a dangerous kind of anger that Demyx had never seen before. He tried to back away, but Axel was too quick. He was standing toe to toe with him before he even realized that Axel had moved.

"Nothing that a little violence wont fix," he smiled, arm wiping out and grabbing the front part of Demyx's coat, pulling him forward, not letting him run away.

Well, that is it for this chapter. I'll tell you right now, this is going to be a short story, only 5 chapters long, and there WILL be a sequel which takes place after KH2. It will be called "Yet so Far" and will focus around Axel's feelings toward Roxas eventhough Roxas is part of Sora now. It will also contain some Riku/Sora. So anyway, keep reading this, even though it will be rather sort, and hopefull the sequel will come out less than a week after I finish chapter 5 of this story.