Fallen

Sitting in class I see the teacher staring,

Staring at the ugly mark that covers my face,

I see his questioning look as I struggle to keep my mask in place

The bell for the end of school rings as I hide the limp from the piercing gazes of my classmates

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

I quietly open the door to the place I used to call home

I feel my hopes rise as I see it empty

Only to feel his warm breath on my neck

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

I feel your fist connect with my stomach as you whisper in my ear

Welcome home tenshi

As I fall to the ground you hit harder calling me worthless, pathetic

A weakling unworthy of any notice

These words hurt me more than your fists ever could

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

You leave me broken and bleeding on the floor

But I know that in time these wounds will heal

As I clean up my bloodied body I curse myself for ever falling in love

But I know love is blind

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

I feel something cold and wet brush my uncovered back

A gentle breeze soothing the fire in my damaged body

Raising my head to the open door

I see pure white innocence drifting down from heaven

Lightly purifying the earth with its angelic touch

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

Slowly standing, I take a few steps towards the door

Pushed on by impulse

The urge to cleanse my soul

Of all evil

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

I feel an icy touch spread through my body and know I should go in

But I no longer care

I am everything you made me

An obedient servant

Yet I am nothing, an emotionless shell

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

Stumbling I fall to the ground

My body to weak to support me

A dark shadow looms over me

And I turn to see what it is,

I wish I hadn't

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

Roughly you grab my shoulders, lifting me up

Glaring at me, thought you'd escape did you?

Pleading and begging

You drop me back down

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

Smirking you pull a knife from your pocket

Frozen by fear, I don't try to escape

I watch as you bring the knife down to rest on my left arm

Slowly pushing it deep into my shoulder, dragging it down to my wrist

Slowly so slowly to prolong my torture

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

I prevent myself from crying out

As you mimic the cut on my other arm

I feel my life force leave me in crimson rivers

Death beckons to me

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

Blissful slumber calls to me and I know it's now or never

Staring into your cold dark eyes I tell you without fear

I forgive you, Ashiteru

I see the emotions inside your eyes and uncertainty flash across your face

And I surrender myself to the shadows as I take my last breath

My tormentor

My love

My fallen angel

Crimson stained angel

Tenshi- Japanese for angel

Ashiteru- Japanese for I love you