30 Kisses Theme 08 - Our Own World

Yuugao felt her spirit break when she stood on that roof, watching the dead body of her lover be bagged and carried away. She had experienced loss before, of course. Her genin team instructor had died on one of their early missions gone awry. Her mother, a medic-nin, had been killed in the Stone War when she was just a child. And more recently, her father had fallen while defending the Leaf from Cloud. But, while she knew those people, loved those people, she had never known them like she knew this man in front of her.

There are ways that shinobi do not make good parents. They are afraid to get too close to their children, for who knows when they might be killed. And the children in return try and forge bonds with their peers before their parents, for it is their peers they will fight alongside and entrust their lives.

You do not kiss your parents like you kiss your lover. You do not live in the same world as your peers as with your lover. You do not love your friends like you love your lover. You do not mourn your teachers like you mourn your lover.

And standing on that roof watching his body, Yuugao thinks of how cruel it seems that she was the first to see him. But at the same time, she thinks it would have been even crueler not to have been.