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James's P.O.V
She was sitting in front of me with her grin radiating towards me. Her face was remembering how to smile, her voice how to laugh. It was just like it had been before Christmas when that idiot hurt her. When her life used to be about friends, clothes and even the odd gossip in the common room. Now all she ever thought about was him, and what her life would and already had become. But for that moment in her room, she was laughing. She was my serenity again.
'James?'
'Yes?'
'If I asked you something, would you promise to consider it and not shout or call me an idiot like you normally do?
'Well that depends. I mean if you are going to propose well that will have to be a no I am afraid. I am much too young you understand'.
She started to laugh again, but her eyes…..her eyes. They were not laughing; they just looked so empty, almost hollow.
'If I was to ask, for example, for a favour. Perhaps, if I was to go missing for a few days, would you promise not to tell anyone where I have gone?
'Why would I need to do that, where do you want to go. If it is an adventure I can come with, and Charlie as well we can go and explore like my folks used to do. But maybe not with the invisibility cloak because that is just really small and……….'
'James can you just shut up! I want to…..want to…..oh who am I kidding I have no idea what I want. When I saw my mothers face when we walked out of your house at Christmas, it just looked like pale stone. It was as if her soul had just….given up almost. I know my mother still loves Malfoy; I can still see it in her eyes when she wakes up in the morning. But then she sees me, or roles over in bed to see the empty space aching beside her, and she just collapses right in front of me. I do not want that to happen to me. I want to explore anywhere and everywhere. See the worlds most beautiful sunsets whilst holding my husbands hand….see my grandchildren surrounding me on my birthday…..to smile and actually genuinely mean it without thought. I want to be able to love without having my whole life buried in lies and deceit, and of course I want to be able to trust people like I used to be able to do. But most of all, I want what I can never have.'
'What is it? Tell me and I buy it for you, no questions asked I will just steal Charlie's piggy bank again.'
'Oh for Merlin's sake James. I want what is right in front of me. What has been with me through all the good and the bad. What has held me and caught all the tears that cascaded. What is sitting right in front of me now.'
'What do you mean?'
'Well I suppose you could just say…..I am a girl just asking a boy to love her. Like I love him.'
She leaned towards me, and kissed me on the lips. It felt like feathers, and it was over before he had really begun.
'I want you. I want help from my best friend and the person I have loved more than anything.'
I grabbed her hand, and pulled her off the four poster bed.
'What are doing?'
'Just wait and see.'
We both ran whilst holding hands down the slide….well stairs really damn Hogwarts spells……..and reached the large oak doors. We ran out onto the grounds without stopping for breath and I could hear her rasping in time with my own shallow breaths. We finally reached the rock formation by the side of the lake complete with squid tentacles exposed exploring the edge of the lake. I climbed up to the top, and pulled her up after me.
'Why are we here. Why have you brought me here?'
'It's nearly time. Just wait for a few moments and you will see why we are both standing here.'
And then it came over the mountains surrounding our surrogate home. It was truly beautiful. The sky had turned into tones of pink and orange as the occasional bird flew across the horizon. The trees seemed to relax as if sleeping in the new dusk, and her face was mesmerizing. It was highlighted with all of colours of heavens joined with a smile. Her first genuine smile in too long. Her sunset, just like she had wanted. We stood there with our hands still clasped as I turned to kiss her cheek.
'Sorry the husband bit is not quite right, but hey the sunset is close enough.'
'James.'
'Yes?'
'What happens now? What happens with everything. What happens when I see my mother emotional withering away right before my eyes. What happens when I love you….what happens when I do love you.'
'I have no idea Hun. I suppose we will have too wait and see.'
'But what happens when I loose you. When I see you walk away from me like everyone else has done to me?'
I turned around and caught the crystal escaping her orbs on my scared thumb.
'That will never happen. Never happen.'
And there she stood with what seemed a hundred year old eyes imbedded in a teenage sculpture. And all I wanted to do was hold her, but I could not stop what ever was going to happen. I could not predict the future, I could stop the evil and the good and the weak with strong. All I could do is watch or fade, along with the sunset surrounding us fading into the night.
Hope you liked that random little romantic thing there. Just watched dr.who so am in a heart felt state at the moment. Please review and tell me if you would like a sequel…I have several ideas…or if you would like me to continue this story. I wait with vast anticipation for you opinions. Thank you.
