Part 11
"You know what, you're stood in my kitchen, slugging down my coffee leaning against my counter so you answer my god damn questions. You get me?"
I looked over my coffee mug to Bobby who was sat on the counter opposite me. Coffee in his hand, with a towel draped over his shoulders without his shirt. I'd turned up just as he's been getting out the shower – and he did what he did best – Bobby pulled me into his apartment and acted as the best friend acts. And I had to admit, that's just what I needed. His voice softened, more caring - "Sar, you need to talk to someone – and I know you aren't opening up fully to that blond of yours, I also know that Rich hasn't gotten to this subject yet – so you been the lucky woman you are getting to talk to me."
"And here was I thinking you were going to take up my offer to go and drink" I mumbled loosely, I'm no good talking, he knows that. "…and what makes you think that I don't talk to Catherine"
"Because I know you Sar…there is no one, no one you've been with that truly knows how fucked up your life is."
"It's different this time" I tell him.
"What… are you fucking kidding me? SO she knows that your Dads dead, that your moms locked up and that your going to be seeing you ex?" I looked to the floor, and with each fucking thing he said I felt my heart tighten. "I didn't think so" he offered. "Come on talk to me… you don't want to go back there"
"You know what, I'm scared" I admit to it. "You know what I went through…what she did to me. She broke my fucking heart…but, I'm over it now, I have Cath, I love her"
"Come on, she killed you… I mean, Danny, she was your girl"
"She stopped been my girl the moment she fucked John… she's his woman, and I'm not staying away from my brothers wedding because of her" I growled, my anger taking me over. He looks at me sceptically "Look… so Catherine doesn't know everything but… I'm dealing with this"
"No you're avoiding it"
"Bob, I'm not…avoiding anything"
"The hell your not" he shouted, "Your telling me that going to Frisco isn't going to royally fuck you up?"
I just looked at him. Truth was, I wasn't sure.
"I asked her to come with me!" I blurted out breaking into the silence.
"You what?"
"Catherine, …I asked her to come with me" I tell him as I push my one free hand deep into the pocket of my jeans.
"Wow!" He smiles a little, "She must be real special"
I nod my head, "I'm in love"
"What?"
"You hared me, heart racing, breath taking kind of love."
He smirked, and I knew why.
"your serious right?"
I nodded my head.
"So what did she say?"
"She told me that she'll come with me –she's coming to Frisco and … she has no idea what she's going to be walking into" I sigh. She doesn't –
"If you're a serious about her as you say, she needs to know Sara…needs to know everything before you take her back there."
"I know"
"You can't take her into what is your hell with out a little warning Sara…"
"I know Bobby, God damn it I know" I bark. Then take a deep breath, "I know"
There is a silence between us before he breaks it, "When are we all heading back up there?" he asks.
"End of next week" I tell him.
"Well – tell her ASAP – you get me?"
"Yeah…yeah I get you…"
"I tell you what…how about I get Rich out of yours and you and Catherine can have a night in…"
"Doesn't work like that Bob…"
"Work like what?" he asked a little confused, "You said that she was off work tonight"
"She is, don't mean she's not with her husband though" Even saying husband hurts me and he sees that.
He shakes his head, "Man, are you really going to keep this up?"
"I've got no other option – I'll never let her go and she'll never end it with him so … this is how it is"
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"Hey you" I was back home now, reaching over to what was my bed room door I walked in the phone held by my shoulder to my ear. I sifted my way through the mess that was my room until Rich had moved in. I rolled my eyes and collapsed on my bed, lay looking up.
"Hey Hun…"
"You okay to talk?" I wanted to make sure I wasn't interrupting some Husband Wife moment.
"Yeah… all alone babe" She explains, I smile a little, it makes me happy to think he's not with her.
"Good…well, just wondering if you were free to come over here tonight… I kind of… I need to talk to you"
"Tonight?"
"Yeah…you're off work right?"
"Yeah I am… but…"
"I get it" I tell her, I may sound like I'm understanding but I'm not, inside I'm pissed.
"No…it's not that…" She stops, "It sounds like it's important … are you okay?"
"Yeah…just not an over the phone kind of convo…" I explain.
"I'll be there" She tells me, "May be a little late but I'll be there"
I nod my head, "All I ask. Look, I better go… see you tonight"
"Okay babe… you sure you're okay?" She sounds a little worried.
"I'm fine…I promise…"
"Okay…bye Hun…love you"
"Love you to"
The phone went dead, and for a few moments I still lay there wondering how this was all going to go – how would she take what I was going to say. What would I say? I still didn't know if I was ready for this… but it had to happen… I couldn't let her walk blind into the whole thing.
After a few moments I stood up, I pushed my hand threw my hair and I moved to my side cabinet to take out a few pain killers, my head pounding. With Rich's snoring and the long shifts at the club I'd done the last few days I wasn't getting much sleep. I swallowed them both then left walking towards the living area in my apartment.
"Hey how's the lover?"
"Back off" I mumbled at Rich as I took a seat on the sofa next to him.
"Well someone's over sensitive huh?" He asked.
"Yeah…well she's telling her girl about her past…" Bobby explained, "So you and me are hitting the town"
"No you're not…he's still sick…"
"Come on…I'm not sick" he protested.
"Your not drinking"
"Fine…how about we hit the casino then" Bobby offered.
"As long as you don't drink" I was fine with it.
"So… you want me to stay over at Bobby's tonight and give you two some space?"
"Do you mind?" I ask…
"No… you need some time…" he explains. I nod my head.
"Thanks"
"No problem…"
