Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade... I own a Beyblade, but not the Beyblade series. Goes off to pout after re-realizing this
Warnings: Shounen-ai
There's something off here, I know it. I'm not sure if I should report whether or not things are going well, because I'm not so sure myself. That day, after Kai kissed me, I never gathered the courage to ask why. Kai didn't exactly go out of his way to talk to me or look at me for the rest of that day either. To this very moment I'm not sure why. I speculated that it might be guilt for having kissed a teammate, and so abruptly too. That option was quickly ruled out though, because, really, when does Kai do something and then feel guilt? He always acts with purpose. This led me to assume it must've been shame, shame for kissing a male, and one who wasn't even worthy of him to boot. I was quickly proven wrong though, because the morning after that awkward night spent in the same room, well, let's say Kai gave me yet another shock.
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I'd been waiting patiently for my turn to shower when I heard the bathroom door finally creak open. My gaze turned from the very time consuming task of staring at the wall to fall upon the form of my captain in nothing but a towel. Oh my... I was torn from my fantasies when all he had to say to me was,
"Shower's free."
Can you believe the nerve of him? 'So he's gonna pretend it never happened huh? I guess I'll just have to try to reconstruct the heart in my chest that he just stomped all over.'
Attempting to appear just as casual as he about the whole damn situation, I gathered my bathing items and strolled passed him. Success was almost within reach when something caught me completely off guard, literally. I'd stumbled over my own feet in my feigned nonchalance, and Kai had to catch me. I really didn't have much time to register what had happened after that until I found myself pressed between a hard wall and a hard body that had, once again, engaged mine in a passionate lip lock.
This kiss lasted longer than yesterday's, and I allowed my hands to come up to rest gently against his still damp chest. In turn, I felt one of his hands grip my waist while his other was tangled in my hair, which I'd unbound for my shower. Unfortunately, just as quickly as it had occurred, it was over. Kai was dressed and out of the room before I could even bring myself to move again. All I could do was groan in confusion and frustration and drag myself into the bathroom for what was now going to be a cold shower.
This happened again many times, usually playing out in different scenarios. Kai had even taken to kissing me before going to bed and after waking in the morning. We seemed to be getting closer and closer. At times we would lay together in comfortable silence while he stroked my hair and I would rest my head on his shoulder. I know that it's hard to image such a thing, but I didn't know why he was acting this way either. During other periods when we were alone together it could get very heated. Sometimes it would turn into a full-blown make-out session, and Kai would test my limits a bit more every time. Not that I minded of course, but I didn't understand these actions either.
Even though we were "together" we weren't actually dating, although I'd kick his ass if he were seeing someone, well, I'd try at least. I don't know, I just know that we never ever spoke directly about the things transpiring between us. I was honestly curious to know what he considerd us to be, but I didn't want to push him and lose such a chance to be with him. This is how things would stay if he wanted them too, and apparently he did, because silence continued to reign.
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It was a while after this whole damn fiasco with Kai and I had started and the Blade Breakers were headed to a Beyblading event. I'm not sure what it was exactly, but thankfully it wasn't a tournament because my mind was elsewhere most of the time these days. The White Tigers were supposed to be attending as well, and I was certainly eager to see my friends and possibly take my mind off 'things'.
When we arrived at our destination, the first thing I did was look for a head of pink hair, and when I found it, it was already heading towards me.
"Rei!" Mariah exclaimed happily as I enfolded her in my arms in a welcoming hug. The rest of her team was soon around me as well with nothing but kind words and "I missed you"'s. God how I'd missed them, they were truly my family.
After a bit of time spent with my old team, I returned to my current one. I found them sitting at our designated table in what was apparently this building's auditorium. First I'd had to drop my things off at the place we were staying, seeing as this was an overnight event. I was a bit late so I had to sneak over and take my seat next to Kai. I sat with my head propped in my hands listening "intently" to the speakers at the front of the room. To my surprise, a hand came to rest gently on my leg under the table and woke me from my half-doze. Okay, so maybe I wasn't paying as much attention as I claimed previously.
Usually Kai wasn't affectionate or even nice really, unless we were completely alone. I just reached under and grasped his hand in return, happy to have physical contact. I was caught unaware by the emotions that overwhelmed me as I thought about how much I cared for him and how unbelievable it was that he was interested. However, when everything was interrupted to eat, I was flooded with disappointment. Tyson had literally flown to the buffet table and of course Max followed, along with Chief. I though I'd be able to walk with Kai, but to my shock and sadness, he seemed to have fled the table as well.
A smile was quickly placed on my face to mask the heartbreak when I realized Mariah was headed toward me once again. She was wearing a mischievous grin that just looked so appropriate with her feline features, but was scary nonetheless. I felt her grasp my arm and steer me away from the feeding frenzy and the throng of people to speak in private.
"So," she started with a smirk, "you and Kai huh?"
I just stood there in stunned silence, but she seemed to have noticed my slight flinch at the mention of us. Especially since she was of course insinuating that we were dating. Oh but I wish...
"What's wrong?" She asked in genuine concern. "And don't you lie to me Rei. I saw the hand thing, and I know you have liked him forever, so what's going on? It doesn't bother me so you don't have to worry about that, and I promise not to blab."
I shook my head and in a bit of a bitter tone explained that we were not, in fact, dating. I told you that she was like family, and family can always read you the best. I also had to explain to her that I didn't know what we were. That concerned look returned to her face and she analyzed the situation.
"So... you're like, friends... with benefits?"
Her statement was puzzling, but it also seemed to fit the situation perfectly. Y'know, except for the fact that you had to constantly reweigh all the pros vs. cons to remember that there were benefits, not just emotional frickin turmoil.
"I love you Rei, and I know you have strong feelings for him, but you really need to talk about things. You need to find out if he's serious or not. This could be disastrous for you. Without some type of structure, there are no rules, and you could get hurt. I don't want to make you worry, but if it's important to you both, then it won't matter in the end. Talk to him, and he's not worth it if he's just going to use you. Please, for your own sake?" I nodded slightly and she hugged me tightly then left me to my thoughts.
"Friends with benefits..." I pondered aloud. I didn't quite like the feel of it, I mean, Kai wouldn't use me... Right?
A.N. I'm so happy to be posting this like 2 days after I posted the second chapter! I told you guys I was finally inspired lol Hope you enjoy this installment and R&R while you're waiting for the next one.
