September 28, 2006
Dear Diary,
I haven't written in a while….I'm supposed to be moving in two days but I ran away. To Cloes house, I know that's weird but she's the only one I can count on to not judge me even though she is a drama queen…I'm still in love with Josh and he's taking me to Jessie's party tomorrow night. I don't know if he likes me though…It's like we're just friends and he likes Jessie, I wish he didn't though…New topic okay? Dylan tries so hard just to be friends and make me "normal" again. Like the other day he told me I was going to go shopping with him and he took me to thrills with frills and tried to get me to buy a golden yellow mini skirt with a halter that said What's up (that was pink) I told him to f off then he called me a b and yelled at me… No I'm just playing with ya! Dylan's way to nice to do that! I kind of miss my old life…I really want to be "normal" again but Josh…Why does Jessie always have to get her way? UGHH! I wrote a song today…. (This song is actually from BarlowGirl Thanks!)
It was a common story,
yeah who cares that I changed?
Why are people freaking out?
Maybe I gave in more than I should, maybe I sold out
But the
truth was I was really getting nowhere until I woke up and found
That morals can't take you up to the top your standards pull you
down
Chorus:
Was it worth it what I gave away
For five minutes of fame
Minutes over no one knows my name
I
always said the thing that meant the most to me was my very integrity
Who would have thought I'd ever trade it all for popularity
'Cause the truth is though I've made it to the top I'm anything
but satisfied
I gave up the only thing that mattered for this
empty life
This time I'm saying no
This world will know
what I believe in
I've lost enough to know
That life's too
short to waste it
Or my minute of fame
So that's my song I made up, I hope it's good enough to make into a poem because Josh is taking me to a coffee place to do spoken word! See YA! Jade
