((Disclaimer: No I have no rights to any of the characters or the locations. The only thing I wrote was Alex's mom. I wrote this a year ago, way before we actually did meet Alex's mom, way before Alex and Jay broke up. Way before Alex became a lesbian or whatever. So bear with me. Enjoy.))

That night Alex went back to her doctor who gave her some surprising news. Then she fought with her mother. As you might've guessed, that didn't end very well. So, once again Alex went and slept at Ellie's.

The next day when Alex came home, Jay was sitting on the porch again. She didn't protest or even say a word. She simply stepped around him and unlocked the door. He too silently got up, followed Alex inside and closed the door behind him. Alex threw her keys on her dresser and picked up a full plastic bag. She promptly threw the bag at Jay who caught it, slightly surprised.
"What is this?
"It's all the crap you've left here, take it." He looked through the bag quickly.
"Is that the bracelet I gave you?"
"Oh I thought every player got a prize."
"Lexxi it has your name engraved on it."
"Stop calling me that." She responded harshly. She took a deep breath and started shifting around things on the dresser. "Then take it back to whoever you stole it from. I don't want it and I don't want to see it. Besides I'm moving out so it might be a little odd if the only stuff left in here is yours."
"Moving where?"
"To Ellie's when school ends in two weeks. Because it was either there or the great Planned Parenthood Home for teens…in Chicago. So I passed."
"I'll take care of you then…you and …it."
"Nice try Jay." She said laughing sarcastically. "But I am trying to limit my time and proximity to you because I might kill you if you get too close. Secondly Jason Hoggart you cannot take care of me and your son because you can't even take care of yourself. I mean you have a car. Never bothered to go to the clinic and get that STD checked out. Hell even the school nurse—"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa…it's a boy?" He said holding up his hands.
"Yeah, I went back to the doc yesterday. Apparently it's a healthy baby boy. He told me it was a boy and that I am farther along then I thought."
"How far?"
"Almost three months."
"Christ Alex. By the way I was thinking about what you said yesterday. We've been together for way more than just ten months."
"Yeah actually it is more like 14 months but let me refresh your memory. We broke up before and guess what, it was for the same reason. Except that time I believed you. You know what else…it was definitely more than 9 girls because I know 10 girls personally. Including Amy and Christy and Jen. So cut the lies Jay because nobody's buying them anymore okay?"
"Jeez Alex when am I ever going live this down? I said I was sorry."
"Yeah you did. Now wait, did you mean it? Everytime you lied to my face and said you had to get home-where did you really go Jay? Everyone goddamn time you told me loved me you lied!" She let out all the frustration she had been holding.
"NO! I meant it and I am sorry!"
"Right. Now be completely honest with me Jay. Where were you last night?"
"Home."
"Yeah right. You were at the ravine hooking up with some random girl."
"No I wasn't." She kept packing her stuff and putting everything in boxes.
"Whatever. It doesn't even matter. You're the father not the boyfriend. At least not anymore."
He sat on the bed, back against the headboard. He knew he couldn't fight her on this. "So have you thought of a name then?"
"A.J."
"That isn't a name."
"Thank you, smartass. It stands for Alexander Jayson." She came to her bedside table where there was a framed picture of her and Jay. She turned the picture face down and sat on the bed next to him. "What do you think of the name?"
"You really want him to turn out like us?"
"As long as he isn't an asshole and a cheater it won't matter."
"So you're keeping it?"
They sat there in silence. Jay looked expectantly at Alex, waiting for her to answer his question. Alex stared at her hands in her lap, trying to explain things to Jay.
….

An hour later Alex sat alone at a table in the Dot. Her eyes had a far off look and she squinted into the light, thinking hard. Ellie came in and sat down across from her.
"Hi, I'm Ellie. Earth to Alex." She snapped her fingers in Alex's face.
"Sorry Ellie. I'm just-" Just then Jay came over and put a soda on the table. Alex smiled meekly at him.
"Hey, Ellie. See you guys later. Bye, Lexxi." He kissed her cheek lightly then left.
"What was that about?"
"I'm staying with him and we're keeping the baby." She said while fiddling with the straw in the cup of soda.
"And where is he off to?"
"Work."
"He has a job?"
"I guess so. He had it coming."
"Can I ask you something serious?" She nodded. "Why do you…why can't you just. I dunno, why--"
"Why do I stay with him?"
"Well yeah. If he uses you and is so horrible then why put up with it? And now a baby? Alex are you sure you want this?"
"Because sometimes it's like it used to be. But really, I know he uses me but in a way I use him too. In a really sick and twisted way I need to him. Old habits die hard kind of thing." She took a sip of coke.
"You do want to be with him though right?"
"Yeah. Even after everything. The hardest part is that we've been together for so long it's like a daily fight, and now having a baby. I seem really pathetically dependent on a guy. That's so anti-Alex." They laughed together.
Alex and Ellie hung out and talked for a few hours. Then they headed back to Ellie's apartment. Ellie stopped in the doorway, "Damn. I left my cellphone at the Dot. I'm gonna run and get it."
"Hey El, do mind if I just lay down. I'm not feeling so good all of a sudden."
"Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yeah, yeah I just need to sit down."
"Okay I'll be right back."
Alex being the tough girl she is didn't let on how sick she was. She felt like her guts were being sucked out of her body. She laid down on the couch and passed out. She started sweating and breathing heavily.

Ellie got her cellphone and was leaving the restaurant. She was walking out the door just as Jay was walking in. The bumped into each other.
"Sorry Ellie. Where's Alex?"
"She is back at the apartment. She didn't feel well so I think she was gonna lay down. I hope she is okay. We should check on her."
"Yeah, let's take the car."
They got to the apartment within 10 minutes.
But by the time they got there Alex had fallen onto the floor. She was breathing in very shallow breaths and a small pool of blood began to form underneath her.
"Oh my god." Ellie gasped once she saw her.
"What the hell?" Jay ran over and picked up her head. "Alex? Wake up...Damnit Ellie what the hell happened?"
"She was fine when I left her. I'm gonna call an ambulance." She started dialing on her cellphone.
"She's unconscious. Lexxi, c'mon." Her picked her up and put her back on the couch. "Alex, Come on wake up." He stroked her hair out her face.
"They're on their way." Ellie told Jay as he was still trying to wake her.

The ambulance got there and started working on her. Ellie and Jay followed them to the hospital in his car. They wouldn't let anyone in to see her for over an hour. And by that time they contacted Alex's mother. She got there 45 minutes after them and obviously wasn't happy to see Jay there. After an hour they only let in her mother. She was sleeping because of the medication.
They didn't let Jay and Ellie in for another two hours but Alex was still knocked out. They didn't even stay more than 10 minutes before the nurses kicked them out. Around that time Alex woke up and felt really dizzy and sick. Jay started pacing outside the door in the hall. Ellie went home to shower and get some clothes for Alex. Alex's mom left the room for coffee and saw Jay standing there. With dirtiest of dirty looks she went down the hallway to the cafeteria. The doctor closed the door behind him and started talking to Alex about her condition.
"So how do you feel, Alex?" The young doctor asked while sitting down.
"Like a truck hit me. What's wrong with me?"
"You had a very rare illness associated with your pregnancy. It's a form of high blood pressure. That is what made you go unconscious. That coupled with high anxiety made you very sick." She raised her eyebrows at him in true Alex fashion. "So sick that when you got here you had already gone through the miscarriage."
"What?"
"Yes. An operation was done to get you well again but unfortunately, we couldn't do anything. It was already gone. You're not pregnant anymore, Alex."
"But--I--What did I do?"
"Nothing. There was nothing you could've done to prevent this. It is rare but can happen, especially in young, first time pregnancies. Now we'll need to keep you here at least 24 hours. I need to make sure you didn't loose too much blood. So bedrest. I need to go see about your test results. I'll be by to check on you in about an hour. I'll send a nurse in with some food."
Her face hadn't changed since he had started talking. She looked like he had just slapped her-and he may as well have. He saw that she was shocked. "I'm sorry, Alex. I can tell this is hard for you. You'll have to tell your mother, unless you want me to do it. And you'll need to tell the father-who I assume is the young man who has been pacing outside for over an hour. You don't have to do anything now but rest." The doctor left. Her eyes snapped into focus. All she thought was Jay.

Then they finally allowed Jay to come in. He came over and sat in the chair next to the bed. He laced his fingers with hers.
"Hey." His eyes drooped with exhaustion.
"Hi."
"So are you okay?"
"I will be. But there is something I have to tell you."
"Me first. Alex I want you to know that I do love you and would do anything for you. I don't treat you the way you deserve and I really am sorry. The fact that you decided to stay with me for our baby was the greatest thing I have ever felt. I need you to trust me and believe me when I say that this time I really will change. I have to and I want to. For you and the baby. I want us to be good again."
You should've let me go first, Jay." Her voice was choked and there were tears in her eyes, but she didn't let them go. "Getting pregnant was the last thing I wanted to do. But when you promised me that we would be happy again, I cherished it. This is harder than I expected it to be. I love you, Jay."
"I love you too." She still choked back her tears.
"And we have gone through so much together but I don't know if we can get through this one. I'm not pregnant anymore, Jay."
"What? What do you mean?"
"The doctor said I had this rare thing that made me so sick and eventually I lost the baby."
"How can that even happen?"
"I don't know. I'm sorry."
"Don't be sorry it isn't your fault. "
"So what now?"
What do you mean?"
"I mean what do me and you do now? I guess I'll have to stay with my goddamned mother for another year. But what about us Jay? Do we stay together, act like nothing has happened when so much has. Do we break up for lack of reason? What do we do?"
"Are you saying you don't want to be with me?"
"No I am just saying I don't know what I'm saying?"
"I don't know what the hell you're talking about."
"See we're fighting already. God Jay. Things are never going to be the same now. We both know it. Apparently I am the only one of us who will admit it."
"Let's just take it slow. Day by day. I don't want the fucked up, constantly fighting Alex and Jay. I just want us to be us again."
"Okay. Well you'd better get out of here before my mom gets back."
"Why are you going to stay with her?"
"She is my mother."
"She brings home guys that abuse you, she parties. She kicked you out when she found out when you were pregnant. What kind of mother does that? C'mon Alex. Your crap is already at Ellie's. Just wait it out. This way she can't get in the way of us either."
"Speak of the devil." Her Mom walked down the long hallway and into the small hospital room.
"Good you're awake. I heard the news. The doctor said he should have you out of here by morning." She looked at Jay. "I thought you broke things off with him."
"I love Jay and he loves me. That's it."
"Yes well love doesn't work quite as well as birth control. Which the doctor has already prescribed."
"Do you not trust me at all?"
"I don't trust him. And all those raging teenage hormones. Shouldn't you be getting along home Jacob?"
"It's Jay." He said harshly. He kissed Alex quickly and whispered, "Pick you up tomorrow." He turned on his heel and left the hospital.

Alex stared at her hands. She knew a fight with her mother was inevitable. Her mom had always hated Jay, calling him trash and a drug dealer. She was a huge bitch and always criticized Alex even though she was even worse.
"You really thought that boy could support you. He couldn't even buy a belt so his jeans didn't fall past his ass. He is trash, Alex. And not all that good looking either."
"Lets not go there Mom. I love him."
"Oh no, Alex The minute you got pregnant, which I don't want to picture by the way, it went there."
"Don't get me started Mom. You had me just after your eighteenth birthday with a guy who was almost 24. I get to admit that I was conceived in an illegal fling affair. And I thought of all people you would understand and help me when I was pregnant."
"This is so different in so many ways."
"How? Age means nothing the minute the strip turns pink."
"Your father cared about me."
"Then where the hell is he, Mom? Oh yeah! Miles away in Chicago with a big fancy house that probably came with a blonde little wife and kids. Great, I might as well not fucking exist."
"That's because I never told him I was pregnant, Alex!"
"Then that just makes you stupid. You think you can stop me from seeing Jay? Go ahead and try but I love him and that's all you need to know."
"If he loves you so much then why did he fool around with other girls? Answer me that and then we can talk about your father."
Alex really couldn't combat her on that.


((So that's where the story used to be. I'll start updating new stuff soon. I loved Lexicon Of Love. It was such a great episode. One of my favs so far. In case you didn't notice Alex is my favorite character and Alex and Jay are my favorite couple. If you don't like, don't read the fic, cause it can get pretty fluffy sometimes. The more reviews I get, the faster I update. Please review.))