For Good or Bad, The Memories Remain.

Chapter 15

Disclaimer- I don't still own Buffy and crew, I just use them in my writing, just for fun, never for profit "Cause that's wrong!"

Spoilers- mid 4th season then everything takes a left turn off the charted path

Rating- May get to R eventually

She needed to decide. She needed to choose. Who did she think she was kidding, she knew she had to go to Giles......and Sasha. Why was Sasha here, why now? Sasha should have at least kept Giles from doing anything stupid right away. The past few days were taking its toll on the tiny blond. She couldn't think straight. A war was raging in her mind. The part of her that gave in, took the easy road kept telling her to vanish, it would take quite a while for them to find her. But for that to be successful, she would have to kill Willow because she knew all Buffy's tricks, hiding places and secrets. She couldn't be that person again. She couldn't let herself get that low ever again. It didn't take that much. Just a little here and there, and before you knew it, you had to be oh so careful because Wolfram and Hart would try to foreclose on your soul. It never quite got that bad but she saw how it could. It was all so simple when she was a little girl; find evil, slay evil. That was many years ago.

She would talk to Giles, gather her resources then get Willow. Willow was the important one now. She had arrived at his door. "It's time."

They had walked back from the park in silence. Giles was deeply shaken to the core of his being. It took a while for some of the last 24 hours to catch up and iron themselves out. He sat on the couch sipping whiskey, staring at the bookshelf while Sasha seemed to be working hard at mostly nothing. Finally she pulled several tomes off the shelf. He saw that they were his own working journals on the Immortal Slayer legends.

"What are you doing with those?"

"I need to make sure you won't have enough to track me after I leave. Besides you have ultimate proof that I exist. I'm right here, so you won't need these anymore."

"When are you leaving?"

"Soon, probably in the morning"

"Are you going to tell me about how you know Buffy first?" Bingo! He finally got a reaction. "You obviously know her. You launched out of here like a bloody rocket two seconds after you saw her picture! Not to mention the Comment from Buffy! What aren't you telling me Sasha!"

"I can't tell you." Barely above a whisper. "I can't tell you"

"You damn well better tell me! I just witnessed the death of two of my dearest friends! Willow in body and Buffy in mind! You WILL tell me what's going ON!"

"Buffy will tell you, I'm sure she'll come soon and tell you. That will have to do, Rupert. I can't tell you! "Tears spring to her eyes as she stares intently at her hands, a look of despair on her face.

"Why! Why can't you tell me?" Giles screams at her, making her jump.

She whispers something. Giles can't hear it.

"What was that?! I can't hear you!"

The faintest squeak "she'll kill me"

"What?"

"SHE'LL Kill ME! Alright, if I talk, she will kill me. You heard her. You haven't seen her like I have! She will see it as defiance or betrayal or just another reason, as if I hadn't given her a few already! She....Will....Kill....Me. I cannot tell you. That will be up to her. I'm sorry."

She turned away from him. He wasn't sure if the trembling was fear, tears or rage, but he was sure she was on the emotional edge.

"You're a 250 year old Immortal Slayer and you're scared of Buffy? What in the hell is going on?"

She looked over at the front door. "She will tell you" as she turned and left for the kitchen.

To Be Continued

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