This one's for Irish-Chick13 who wanted more "words" lol. Also I would like to take this time in the story to point out that I do not own any of theses characters (unfortunately) and I just want to thank everyone who's ever left me a review on this story or Cotton Candy, my other story (and yes that was mentioned so that if you haven't read it yet for you to go over and do so………. lol!) Wow that kinda sounded posh (well, the first part at least) So… thanks again and enjoy this chapter……………..
Rory was fuming. Hard tremors were raking down her body as she clenched her fists in fury. Feeling a sharp stinging sensation, she opened her palms and saw the half moons her nails had imprinted into her skin. Standing there, she stared at the marks as they filled with blood, her eyes glazing over as she lifted one of her hands to her lips and felt the slight stinging sensation of the cut she had there. The feeling of her lips still tingling and the half moons on her palm combined with the after effects that she was still experiencing from Finn's fingers and she felt herself calming down.
Dazedly, she thought back to what had happened in the restaurant and the reason that had been pissed off. She hadn't been angry at Finn for what he had done. If she was truly honest with herself, she knew that the fact that they could have been caught at any time was a major turn on for her. So no, she wasn't angry at Finn. She was angry at herself. It had taken every ounce of her self control to not to kiss Finn senseless right there in front of their families, heck, she wanted to fuck him senseless, screw the consequences. She was angry at not been able to control this aspect of her life, but then again, this was lust and no one could control their bodies reaction to another, no matter how hard they tried.Smirking she leant against a railing about a five minutes walk from the restaurant and waited for Finn to appear.
Finn was scared shitless. His hands were actually trembling in fear as he paced outside the restaurants door, occasionally rubbing parts of his body as they hummed in pain from his less than elegant exit. Different scenarios fleeted through Finn's head of how Rory was going to……… receive him, each one just as quickly dismissed. Taking a large gulp, he began to pace back and forth, before finally deciding to take the plunge and face Rory, only problem was trying to find her. Had she gone back to the hotel……… had she gone for a walk……… where had she gone!
Praying that Rory wasn't that cruel, (sadistic as hell maybe, but never cruel) and taken a cab back to the hotel, he began to walk away from the restaurant. About five minutes after he had started walking he caught a flash of red out of the corner of his eye. Turning his head, he saw Rory leaning a railing with a little smile on her face, her eyes cast in a dreamy look as if she wasn't really all here on earth, but soaring through the planes of another realm.
Cautiously, he walked up to her. As she continued to stare of into space, Finn couldn't help but feel a little miffed that she hadn't noticed his presence. Before he could say anything, her eyes snapped and he found himself drowning in her ocean blue eyes.
"Why are you angry love? I mean I was sure you enjoyed it. Scrap that, I know you enjoyed it. I mean you came so hard I thought you were going to………" Catching sight of Rory's cheeks flaming red, he quickly trailed off his thought and waited. Finally she answered him, but he wasn't sure if she was talking to him or herself.
"I'm not angry at you, not really. It's just……… well……… what I mean is………." Huffing Rory stomped her foot up in the air as she struggled to find her words. "Ok I'm just going to say what I'm thinking and you can't interrupt me ok." Finn felt like pointing out that he hadn't interrupted her before, she'd done the stalling all on her own, but felt that she wouldn't want to be reminded of that fact and tactfully kept quiet.
Taking a deep breath she began, "Ok. So what I'm trying to say is that I'm not angry at you for what you did. As much as I hate to admit it, you were right (Finn raised an eyebrow at this) I did enjoy what happened in there, if only a little too much. But that's not why I was angry, see, all my life I've had people manipulating everything I do. There's my mum and how she kept me away from boys and steered me in the direction of going to Harvard, just to piss my grandparents off and while I love her, she still tries to influence every aspect of my life, I mean When I really think about it, the only reason I was so set on getting into Harvard was so that she would be happy, I didn't really think about what would make me happy. There was Dean when he tried to keep me away from Jess. There was Jess when he made me feel clumsy and inexperienced at times, there's my grandma who manipulated me into being a debutante and how she's always showing off to all her friends in the DAR so I can't really live my life and do anything a normal 18 year old would be able to do, there's the whole of Starshollow and how they all want me to be the town princess, who can't let me make a single mistake without it been broadcasted around the town within 0.2 seconds. Heck, the only person I know that hasn't tried to manipulate me for their own purposes is Luke (seeing Finn's look of confusion and a little jealousy, she elaborated) Luke's my surrogate dad. He's always been there for me through thick and thin, no matte what and he always has a cup of coffee ready for me when I come back from school, but considering that he owns a dinner, even though it has a hard ware sign out front, it' s not really that hard to have coffee everyday for me, but then again, he could just refuse to give me coffee, even though he has threatened to do it many times before, but he never has and that's the main think I guess. So now do you understand Why I was angry? I was finally starting to gain control of my life; by going to Yale I'll be making my own decisions, learning from my own mistakes and not everyone else's and then you made me lose so easily. And that scared me. But then I thought about it and realised that lust and love aren't things you can control, it's like asking the rain not to fall 'coz you've got a wedding to attend to. It's just something you have no control over and I've accepted that."
Smiling, she glanced at Finn to find out his reaction to her words, but ended up laughing as she caught sight of his expression. His eyes were as round as saucers and his mouth was hanging open in shock.
Finn couldn't help but stare at Rory as he heard her ramble. He was actually going over the speech in his head to pin point the times she took a breath, but was unable to find one. What really amazed him though was the fact that she was still standing there, a bit flushed sure, but perfectly healthy, not a tinge of blue in sight.
Clapping he said, "Bloody hell love that was one hell of a speech. Wait………(Finn ran over her speech again) did you say lust and love? You love me?"
