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Jack sat fidgeting in the waiting room. For once he didn't feel the urge to help the hordes of people in the never ending queue that surrounded him. All he could think about was her. The way she had looked at him. The tortured look in her green eyes that had pierced through his soul, wrapping him in guilt.

My Fault.

He put his head in his hands, as he prayed to a God he really didn't believe in that this was just some sick dream, a nightmare that he would wake up from any second. But as the clock relentlessly ticked on, time passing slower than Jack had ever imagined, this seemed less and less likely.

It's real Jack. Deal with it.

"Jack?" Jacks head snapped up as after what seemed like an eternity, a nurse stepped out of the examining room. He shakily got to his feet, and wove his way through the crowds towards her.

"How is she? What…" The look on the nurses face cut Jack off. It wasn't good news. She beckoned him into a side office.

"Jack…" The nurse turned to face him. " There's no easy way of telling you this…"

"Just tell me. Quickly." He shut his eyes, knowing what she was going to say before she said it.

Rip off that Band Aid Jack Shepard.

"She was…" The nurse said it abruptly. "Jack, she was raped."

The Truth.

Raped. The word rang out through the silence, shattering it like glass. The reality. The cruel truth that he had to wake up to. The life-shattering event that had just brought Kate back to him.

Jack didn't trust his voice. What had some stupid bastard done to Kate? How could someone have done that to Kate? Why?

You could have stopped this.

That cruel voice in his head that had continually put him down across his life, the voice that had taken the place of his fathers insults when he died, that voice was right. If he had gone after her, if he had stopped her leaving, if he had for once in his life taken one goddamn chance, this would never have happened.

It's your fault.

Jack had done this to every woman in his life. Sarah, Juliet, Gabriella, and now Kate. He had vowed to fix them, and instead, had torn their lives apart. Sarah, he had driven her away, he had failed to save Gabriella's father, Juliet had died trying to save them as the Others executed their prisoners. He had promised to save them all. Promises he had broken.

But she needs you.

"Jack?" The nurse looked at him. When he made no move to look at her, she spoke again.

"How do you know her? Who is she Jack?"

Who was Kate? She had never been his girlfriend. His friend? He was kidding himself. She had always been more than that.

"She – she…" Jack turned to face her.

"She's everything to me."


Hey! Firstly, sorry about the very long wait for this chapter (it isn't even very good). Real life got in the way again ( I'm taking my SATS this year, my homework load has more than doubled!). Many thanks to Lilianabeth for pushing me to upload.

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Next Chapter: Long awaited Jate fluff! I swear!

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PS : What is this I hear about a Skate kiss in the Season3 promo? Someone tell me this isn't true!