Divas Prison Ch17
When the lights came on the next day, both Paige and Becky woke up in almost the exact same manner. Both of them were feeling tired as they hadn't been able to get much sleep and figured their bodies just passed out on them. They both stretched themselves out and both made a small groaning sound as they did. As soon as they heard each other they both went silent as they remembered what happened last night.
The two smiled as the final minute ticked over. "Happy New Year! They both cheered (quietly) at the same time, shared a quick New Years kiss and hugged. When Paige went to break the hug, Becky kept her hand around Paige's cheek, brought them back together and kissed her again. This time the kiss was longer and much deeper. Paige was startled, she hadn't expected it at all, she didn't understand it, but she didn't want to stop it either. She put her hands around Becky's waist and kissed her back. The kiss only lasted a number of seconds before they broke apart. When they did they both realised for the first time what they had done. Neither of them knew what to say. They just looked at each other with the same shocked and surprised expression. The silence seemed to last an eternity. Neither woman had any idea what to do or what to say, and of course, there was nowhere either of them could go. Paige was nearer to the bunks and sat down, finally breaking the eye contact that had been constant since the kiss. Before she could say anything, Becky got into her bunk as well. No words were exchanged the whole night. Each of them thought the other one had gone to sleep, but if there wasn't a bed in the way, they would have been looking at each other the whole time. It probably wasn't a bad thing, as no one knew what to say at that point, and had no idea what they were going to say in the morning. They weren't going to be able to avoid talking about it for long.
Neither of them knew what to say or what to think, yet both their minds were racing. They both knew time was short, somebody was going to have to move first and then things would come out. If neither of them came out for breakfast, they would have guards checking up on them and worse still, their friends would come looking for them. They would immediately sense the atmosphere and things would get a lot more complicated.
When the buzzer went off and door locks released, A long day for them both began.
Beckys day:
Becky was just waiting for the doors to unlock, as soon as they did, she jumped off her bunk and left the cell without looking back. She got in line for food, not that there really was a line since she moved so fast. She looked back to see no sign of Paige. She had hoped that Paige would have followed after her, clearly she didn't want to talk to her, or she would have followed, or called her back in, right?
"Becky? You ok?" Emma snapped Becky from her thoughts to hand her her tray. "Don't take offence, but you look terrible, are you alright?" "Yeah, fine, thanks." Becky just managed to mumble out as she moved along and back to a table. As she sat down she realised two things, one was Paige had joined the line, all but right at the back. The other was that she wasn't even slightly hungry. In fact she was feeling sick. As she tried to eat, not wanting to draw attention to herself some level of appetite returned but she still ate slowly, constantly looking up to see where Paige had got to in the line.
"Happy New Year Bec" Charlotte said as she sat down and started to eat her own food. Becky tried to give her a smile as her mouth had food into it but it can't have been very convincing as Charlottes expression changed to confusion. "What's wrong?" Becky just shook her head. "What is it? Talk to us." She said us because Natalya had just cleared the line and was on her way to the table with a concerned look on her face as well.
Hi, Becky, are you alright, Emma said you didn't seem all there in line and she was worried." Becky just nodded her head this time. "She's not said anything to me either." Charlotte said. "Maybe we can ask Paige when she gets here, rather than keep asking her." Becky was panicking inside, what was Paige going to say when she sat down? How was everyone going to react? She looked up and saw that Paige was on her way over to the tables. She hadn't made any attempt to look over at her. Becky could feel her heart racing as Paige reached the tables, and sat down at an empty table across the other side of the room to them. Becky put her head in her hands as the other two looked at Paige at her table, confused why she wasn't sitting with them. They then looked back at Becky. "I've really messed things up." She said, not daring to look up. "I'm sure it's not as bad as you think." Charlotte put her hand on Beckys shoulder but she quickly jerked it away from her touch. "Come on, tell us what happened. Did you guys have a fight?"
"No it wasn't a fight. I wish it was. A fight can be put right."
"Then what's happened, it must have been something?" Becky took a deep breath.
"I...I...I kissed her." Becky wrapped her arms over her head, waiting for whatever reaction was coming. She didn't expect the first one. "You kissed Paige? OH YES! YES! I knew it! Natalya pumped her fist. That brought Becky back out from her hiding place. "Wait, what? You knew it! You knew what? Why so happy?"
"I knew there was something between you two, I just knew it. Emma said I was mad, we even bet on it, and now I've won!"
"Well I'm so glad my turmoil has brought so so much happiness, but there isn't anything between us, I think I've lost her as a friend too." Becky was a bit angry with the bet, but that wasn't that important to her right now. Natalya looked at her. "Why do you think that? Did she get mad at you for doing it?"
"Well no, she kissed me back but..." Becky stopped as both the other two had squealed a little bit. "Oh my god, this is amazing! So what happened next?" Charlotte asked, almost bouncing in her seat. "Well that's the problem, she pulled away. I waited for her to say something but she didn't, she just got onto her bunk. I felt myself getting upset so I got into mine. I just laid there hoping she'd say something but she never did, I think she went to sleep but I couldn't. I tried to carry on as normal this morning but she didn't come out till late and now she doesn't even want to sit with me. I hate myself right now, why did I have to do that?"
"That's actually a really good question, though not all in the way you said it. Why did you kiss her?" Natalya asked, with a knowing look. "It was midnight, we had a kiss and a hug and I wanted another one, it got kinda, out of hand I guess?"
"Right, so you wanted another one, why?" Natalya was pushing, trying to get her to be honest. "I don't know, it just felt right. In that moment." Becky added the last part in a rush, helping Natalya realise something. "Bex, don't be offended by this, but have you ever, you know, been with another woman before?"
Becky went bright red. "No, never, that was the first time I kissed a girl."
"And I liked iiiit" Charlotte sang. She stopped in her tracks when she saw the looks she was getting. "No? Don't like the song? Ok. But seriously, did you like it?"
"Hi Em, how you doing?" Becky took the opportunity to change the subject to anything else, just to get a break from the bombardment she'd been facing. Emma sat down with them. "Hi, so is Paige ok? Why is she sitting on her own?" 'Well so much for that plan' Becky thought and looked away. "Actually, can you go talk to her? You're not due back in the kitchens are you?" Emma shook her head. "Nope, lunch will be out in a minute , I'm off till tomorrow."
"Great, Natalya said, "I've been feeling guilty about not going over."
"Ok I'll go, but can you give me some idea what's up?"
"Well I think she should tell you, but I'll just say you need to pay up."
"Why do I need to pay you anything, I...no way!" Emma remembered the bet she'd made with her cellmate. She got a look from Natalya that told her what she needed and hurried over to Paige.
"So come on Becky, tell us, what was the kiss like?" Charlotte asked again. Becky groaned, there really wasn't going to be any relief from this. "Ok ok, it was nice. I mean, I haven't been kissed by anyone in years. I didn't think it would happen at all till I got out."
"So you did like it, you can't tell me off for singing that again now."
"Yes, yes I did, I liked it, I really liked it. Are you happy now?" Becky snapped at Charlotte this time. "I'm sorry, I don't mean to get mad at you, it's just saying that makes it all that much harder to deal with."
Lunch was called a little while later and they had Becky run them through everything that happened last night again and again in as much detail as they could get her to go into. Becky talked about everything with her usual happiness but the memory she had of Paige pulling away then not looking at her was harder and harder to talk about but it was the biggest thing they focused on while they ate all the way up to yard time.
"Can we change focus for a little while, please? Let's go get some air." Becky was emotionally drained and it was obvious to the others. They kept their eye on Becky as they left. Paige and Emma were outside at the same time not too far away. Becky went towards Paige but Charlotte and Natalya pulled her back. "Not now sweetie, your minds all over the place, you don't want to say something you don't mean or something you'll regret right?" Becky looked back at Paige, who looked back, she had a very sad expression on her face. It took all of her strength to walk away with them. She felt Charlotte was right, if she upset Paige more now, that could ruin things for good. They laid off the questions for a little while while they were outside which was a relief. Charlotte did some yoga exercises, the others thought about joining her but weren't familiar with them so let her continue this time.
When they got back inside, Becky knew she'd be the focus again and she was right. The day was getting on, dinner came and went and soon they were going to be locked up for the night. "What am I going to do? I'm going to have to face her soon. There's literally no escaping it."
"Well you need to be honest, with yourself, then with us, then with her." Natalya said. Think about everything since you've met her, everything from the last 24hrs or so. How do you really feel about her?"
"Well she was a scared noob when I met her, crying at the slam of the door as so many have, me included. I talked her through the first night just to get some sleep, feeling like I had to but it was actually really easy to do, like we had known each other for ever. We connected better than anyone I've shared a cell with before her. And she was a first timer too so I wanted to help her. Then my help got her beaten half to death by Sasha." Becky stopped talking there, thinking about how bad Paige looked after the attacks. "I heard about that." Charlotte said, not having been inside with them when it happened. "But I heard it was Paige that beat her up."
"It was in the end, luckily." Natalya thought back and remembered something she'd been told about Becky before the fight. She smiled to herself. This was perfect. "Yeah, she wouldn't be our friend if she lost. How did you feel about her deal?"
"You know damn well how I felt, it was stupid, it was reckless, even now it makes me mad, why would you even bring it up?!"
"I'm not sure if Charlotte knew about it. Did you?" Charlotte got what she was trying to accomplish. "No, I just asked about Sasha and Paige when they got in trouble for because of me. There was a fight and a lot of people lost money when Paige won. Did you lose money too Becky?"
"No I didn't lose money! I almost lost Paige! I almost lost her to Sasha forever. I don't want to talk about that anymore, or ever again." Becky was getting distressed.
"Stay cool Bex, work with me, how would you have felt if you had lost her to Sasha?"
Becky was talking fast, losing a bit of control. "I said I don't want to talk about it. I don't know what I would have done, we got really close in such a short time. I couldn't have lost her, she's my best friend and I love her."
That was a word neither of them expected to hear from her, but not one that upset them. They sat silent and shocked but smiling from ear to ear. "What?"
"Becky, don't you realise what you said? Becky thought for a second, then covered her mouth and gasped. "Oh my god, I really said that didn't I?"
Charlotte moved over and grabbed her arm. "Yes you did, and don't try and take it back. You were ranting and rambling so much there's no way you didn't mean it."
"I'm not going to, it's true. I just didn't realise it until now. Oh wow." Becky was off in her own world. Until Charlotte broke it. "So, you gonna go tell her or what?"
This sent Becky into a fluster again "Can I? Should I? What if she freaks out? What if she hates me for it? I don't think I can! But I want to! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god!" She probably would have continued if the other two hadn't grabbed her, diverted her attention and calmed her down. "It's ok, slow yourself down before you go crazy. Breathe in, and out." Eventually Becky was back to regular speed. "Ok, I'm ok. Thanks, I owe you one."
"You owe me more than one, you made me break my resolution, on the first day of the year!"
"I did?"
"Yeah, I said I'd stop being such a mother figure to you all, that's clearly not going to happen is it."
"Sorry Nat, I'll make it up to you. I promise. If it helps, I broke mine to keep everything the same as well, about ten seconds in, that's got to be some kind of record, right?" Natalya laughed. "That's pretty impressive. Don't worry about payback, Just make sure you sort things out with Paige ok, however you decide to do it" The buzzer sounded. "And you better decide soon, you're out of time. You'll be ok right?" Becky nodded. She got a reassuring pat on the arm from both Natalya and Charlotte, turned towards her cell just in time to see Paige go inside. She walked to the door, took another breath and headed in.
Paiges day:
Seeing Becky fly out the door so quickly upset Paige to all levels. She had wanted to talk to her all night, even considering waking her up but thought it best to wait till morning. Now it was too late. She clearly didn't want to talk about it and couldn't wait to get away from her as quickly as she could. Did Becky really hate her that much? Paige sat in the cell alone, head in hands for a little while before deciding she couldn't just sit there, heading out to join the breakfast line. By this point the line was long so she had to wait. She couldn't see Becky in line, eventually spotting her at a table, her hair being a clear giveaway. Just looking at her made Paige feel a pain that wasn't really there so she had to look away, trying instead to focus on finding some kind of appetite.
"Hey Paige, is Becky alright? She seemed on another planet and no one knows why." Paige knew why, but just shrugged her shoulders and moved on. As she approached the tables she saw Becky was sitting with her back to her, but Charlotte and Natalya were sat with Becky, but looking over at her. Had she told them? Did they hate her too for what she'd done? She decided she didn't want to upset Becky anymore than she already had so she sat by herself. She'd barely sat down when she heard a cheer. She looked around, recognising the voice, seeing Natalya with a fist in the air. Paige wondered what had her so happy. 'Is she happy I've sat over here?' was the first thought to enter her mind. She tried to ignore it as she picked at her food but now even more went through her mind. If Becky really was that mad, would she lose all of her friends? Natalya and Emma would be with her, they've been friends long before Paige arrived. Charlotte was newer, but once she knew, which may have already happened, she couldn't expect her not to be just as appalled. She sat there, lost in her own mind, until she felt something on her shoulder that made her jump.
"Sorry, didn't mean to scare you, you ok?"
"Emma, I'm surprised to see you over here, do they know you're talking to me?"
"Yeah, Nattie asked me to come see you, she wanted to make sure you're ok."
"She did? Why?"
"She didn't give me any details, but, did something happen between you and Becky?" Emma sat down as she said all this. Paige looked at her, feeling grateful that she had a chance to talk about it. "I've really messed things up."
"No you haven't, it's never as bad as you think."
"Becky gave me a quick kiss at midnight, I kissed her back, but more than you know, a friend kiss. She pulled away from me and we haven't spoken since."
"You did, you two kissed? Wow, I really did lose my bet."
Paige looked annoyed "What bet?"
"Nattie said that you too were, as you said, more than friends. I thought you were just close. You know what betting can be like round here, don't be mad."
"I'm not mad, but I'm not sure how close we're going to be now."
"Are you sure it's really ruined? Come on, it's lunchtime, walk me through it." Emma and Paige got their food. "So after you kissed her what happened?" Well she broke the kiss pretty quickly. That was bad enough. I couldn't believe what I'd done, I'd let myself do that. I sat down and she got into bed really quickly. I wanted to talk, to apologise but I decided to wait till morning, plus I think she went to sleep. Then, she didn't give me the chance. She couldn't get away from me fast enough."
"So if you haven't talked, you can't know how she feels about it, can you?"
She doesn't want to talk to me, she made that clear."
Emma raised her eyebrows. "You didn't answer the question."
"Ok, no I don't know how she feels for sure no but since she's not all over me right now, that's a bit of a clue for you.
"Is that what you want her to be, all over you?"
Silence.
"That's a yes."
Paige nodded, not sure what to say, looking for Emma's reaction. "No wonder it's got you so upset. So what are you going to do?"
"I don't know, I'm not sure if I can keep things bottled up any longer."
"Well I think that's out the window now, you're going to have to do something."
Paige turned and looked at Becky, still sat with her back to them. "I want to tell her but I know I'll get shot down, then it'll get way too awkward, we won't be able to be around each other and I lose my best friend. No offence."
"None taken, I don't know anyone get as close as you two have in a matter of months. I just didn't realise it was so strong in that way."
"Maybe it would just be better to keep things as they are, say I got carried away, say I'm sorry and hope she can forgive and forget?"
Emma looked at Paige with a more serious expression. "Now I don't mean offence, but that's the stupidest thing you've said. Neither of you are going to forget it happened. You need to be honest with her, she's your friend and she'll forgive you, even if it takes time for her to get her head around it. You'll feel worse if you don't, it'll get to you and it'll come out at the wrong time, again."
"You're right, but how? When?"
"No time like the present."
Paige's eyes widened. "I can't, not right now, she's still mad."
"She's not mad, when I was with her for a little while earlier, she just looked confused and a little upset. Only you two can get this sorted."
"So you want me to go over right now and tell her I'm in love with her, just like that? Would that work?" Paige sounded hopeful, looking for validation, which didn't come."
"I don't know, maybe, maybe not. I'd do it privately, outside maybe, we get yard time in a bit." Paige though about it for a minute. "Ok, I'll try and get Becky alone outside and try and explain everything. If she needs space I'll give her as much as I can for as long as I can. I hope she doesn't need a lot, the wait would kill me,"
Emma just tried to reassure Paige that everything would be OK and keeping her calm, hoping they'd be able to sort it out. She didn't like this crack in the group that was going on today. When the doors to the yard were opened, Paige moved quickly. She wanted to beat Becky out so she could catch her as she came outside. She was as nervous as she'd been since she came to prison at that moment. When she spotted Becky coming through the doors, she moved towards her but before she could get close, Natalya and Charlotte purposely moved Becky away from her. She was able to catch her eye for a moment but she felt heartbroken at that moment, she had to look away before she burst into tears. She went to the other side of the yard and sat down on her own against a wall. She was far enough away that she could look at the three of them for short times without being spotted. Charlotte was doing some exercises, but the other two just watched. It was cold out but Paige didn't care, she took in as much fresh air as she could, trying to get used to the solitude. Emma came out a little later, giving Paige some time after seeing what happened. She didn't go after the others because it would have been difficult to talk about it in front of Becky, who needed to hear things from Paige first, whatever she chose to tell her. She sat down a few feet from Paige, letting her speak first. She didn't say anything and right then, that was ok too. They stayed that way until they were ordered inside again. The two returned to their table as well.
"Thanks for letting me be out there. I needed that." Paige's voice was quiet, and she spoke slowly, Emma took her hand. "It's ok, I saw what happened and thought you'd need time."
"I might need a lot more time. I think they all hate me. Nat and Charlotte wouldn't let her talk to me. I don't know what to do."
Emma gave her a half hug for a moment "Don't worry about the other two, I'll talk to Nattie later on and find out why, it can't be as bad as you think it is right now." You need to think about Becky, you will still be around her later and there won't be anyone who can stop that."
"I know, I've been thinking of ways to avoid that, the hospital, the lock. Would you mind if I punched you in the face right now?" Paige tried to laugh but it wasn't all that convincing. "I'd rather you didn't, for both of us. And no, I'm not going to punch you either."
Maybe I can get moved out of here? Another block, another prison. That way you can move on and she can forget me."
Emma gave Paige a smack round the top of her head. "Harder" Paige said.
"Girl, you have got to be out of your mind. You aren't getting away from us. We're all in here together, that's what we've said, till our release date, then we'll stay together outside. That's what you said on Christmas, that you never want rid of us, and I'm holding you to it."
"What if she really does want rid of me?"
"Won't happen, she'll get over it if she's mad, so will the other two. I'll make Nat see sense, if I even need to. You just worry about yourself, and if you really care about her, which I know you do, worry about Becky. If you really think she hates you and won't want to speak to you again, which I still think is crazy, then go for broke, what have you got to lose by telling her. You were going to before right."
"I don't know, I'd rather salvage a friendship than lose her completely."
"Well you've got to do something, you're not going to get moved tonight even if you wanted to and it was over my dead body."
"I know, I'll just try the obvious, I'll say I'm sorry, and if she wants me to go, I'll try and go."
"No, you'll fix things between you two, however you do it."
Paige thanked Emma for caring enough to not want her to go, and assured her she'd try and fix things. It's what she wanted to, but wasn't confident. When they were sent back to cells,for the evening Emma gave Paige a quick hand squeeze and headed in her own direction. Paige went to her cell and sat to wait for Becky, obviously not having to wait long.
When Natalya and Emma saw each day their back in their own cell, the first thing they did was compare stories. When they realised what had happened, they burst into a fit of laughter.
As Becky walked in, the two locked eyes on each other, but nobody said anything at first. Both looked extremely unhappy. Paige was playing with her hands and Becky was trying to keep her breathing steady. But they didn't take eyes of each other. Eventually Paige broke the silence.
"Bex, I'm so sorry, really I am. I know you must hate me, but I'll do anything to make it up to you."
Becky looked confused and annoyed. "You're sorry? Why? It's all my fault, I should have said so already. I shouldn't have let those two stop me talking to you outside."
"They were just looking out for you. I think maybe they're right too. I'm going to put in for a transfer. You won't have to worry about me anymore, I won't be able to mess things up again."
Becky felt panicked again, she couldn't lose her. She felt stupid, Tears filled her eyes and she grabbed Paige in a hug. "No, you can't do that, you can't leave me. I know I shouldn't have kissed you like that, but I couldn't help it. I...I'm... Becky couldn't get the words out. It was now Paiges turn to look confused, she broke the hug. "Wait, you kissed me? No, I kissed you. It's all my fault. What are you talking about?"
"No, I kissed you, I couldn't stop myself. Because...ah, the hell with it...I'm in love with you." Becky turned away, not able to watch her cell mates reaction. Paige was stunned, but happier than she'd been in a long time. She just needed to be sure. "Are you serious? Becky, if you mean what you just said, say it again." Becky stayed silent just long enough for Paige to feel a tiny sting of disappointment before she said it again, barely above a whisper. "I love you Paige"
Paige was overjoyed." Becky, please turn around" She didn't, the tears were falling faster. "Turn around" Becky still wouldn't move, trying to dry her eyes. Paige had had enough. She grabbed Beckys arm and turned her so they were face to face. Before she could say anything else, Paige took her face in both hands and kissed her, hard. Becky was shocked, but not about to pass this up. She wrapped her arms around Paiges neck and kissed her back with just as much enthusiasm. When they broke apart this time, neither felt the other wanted to. They laid their foreheads against the other. "Say it again" Paige asked. "I love you." Becky said, looking down, still feeling sheepish. Paige put a finger under her chin and brought her head back up so they were eye to eye again. "Becky, I love you too." Becky grinned, not being able to believe it. Tears started to fall again but this time she didn't feel so stupid. "You do?" Paige nodded and was then attacked by the biggest strongest hug she'd had from Becky, and that was saying something. Paige wouldn't change that moment for anything and she held Becky just as tight. She moved her head so she was nuzzled in Beckys neck, planting small kisses on her neck until Becky let out a small moan. They broke the hug and just looked at each other with big smiles before their lips met again. Becky ran her hands up Paige's back, unable to hide her feelings. Paige responded by grabbing her ass, making Becky gasp. This turned their kiss into a full make out session that moved to a bunk. It went on until they were interrupted by the lights going out. They pulled apart and tried to get comfortable on the bunk, which was difficult as it wasn't that wide. Paige laid on her back, pushed up against the wall, she had her arm around Becky who laid her head on Paige's shoulder with her arm over the top of her, lying sideways.
"I can't believe this has happened." Paige said. "I thought you hated me for kissing you last night."
"Hated you? I thought you hated me for kissing you." The two talked through the day they'd each had. "We're stupid aren't we? I mean really stupid. If we had just talked like adults we could have saved ourselves a day of misery."
"Well at least it's ended well" Becky said, stoking Paiges cheek. "But you've exhausted me, time to go to bed." Becky rolled off of Paige, going to stand up, but Paige grabbed her hand. As Becky looked back round, Paige made puppy dog eyes at her. "You mean, you're going to leave me?" Becky couldn't do it. There was no way for her to say no to those eyes and the cute way she said that. She got back on the bunk in the same position she was before, ready to sleep. Before she did though, she kissed Paige tenderly on the forehead and whispered one word in her ear. That was all either of them needed.
"Never."
A/N: Thanks for reading, hope you liked the change of style for this chapter. Sorry it took a little longer to get out, I just found that I kept writing and writing so hopefully the longer chapter makes up for it.
Becky finally gets a title shot on Smackdown tonight. I haven't seen spoilers but I doubt she'll get the title, I hope she does of course. Also, Paige really needs to appear with a big 'I told you so' sign after what Charlotte did Monday.
My thanks to all who review/follow/favourite. Special thanks to those who have reviewed this last week or so. Your support truly means a lot to me.
