Divas Prison Ch31
Paige headed into her cell slowly, not wanting to startle Becky. The look on her face when Sasha brought up her attempt to kill herself and the pained scream she let out were circling Paige's mind, worrying her so badly that Paige reached the point where she couldn't even imagine the state she would find her girlfriend in. This made it much more of a surprise when Becky rushed her as soon as she saw her, wrapping her arms around Paige's neck tightly. Becky cried into Paige's shoulder, forcing her words through the tears.
"I'm sorry Paige, I'm so so sorry. Please, please don't leave me. I do love you, I do." Becky sounded terrified, a feeling that Paige was now starting to share.
"Becky, calm down baby, you know I love you, but you're scaring me real bad right now. I need you to talk to me ok?" Becky didn't respond, but didn't release her grip either. "Please Bex, let me go, I promise I'm not going anywhere. You can trust me." It still took a few seconds, but Paige felt Becky's arms slide from around her neck as the fell to her sides. Becky was staring at her feet, unsure what to do or say. Paige took both her hands and held them for a second to be reassuring, then led her over to the bunks, and they both took a seat.
"Becky, I'm sorry, but I need to know, is it true? Is what Sasha said true? Did you really..." Paige wasn't able to say the words at this point, she didn't want to ask the question at all but had to know. Becky scrunched up her face, fighting her emotions before slowly nodding. Even though Becky was only confirming what she already knew, Paige felt like she been punched in the stomach.
"I...I don't understand. What happened? Why did you?" The words came out of Paige's mouth almost instinctively, without a lot of thought. Becky let go of Paige's hands, something which hurt Paige a little inside, and used them to support her head as she leaned over forward, looking at the floor, but not answering the questions. "Please talk to me baby, you can trust me. Trust me because you love me like I love you."
Becky raised her head from that, but couldn't look at Paige at this point. She spoke quietly, with a sad tone that Paige hated to hear. "I didn't want you to find out, and not like this. I didn't want you to hate me."
"Why would I hate you? You know how I feel about you."
"Because I deserve it. She's right about me, I am worthless."
Paige wasn't going to let that go. She grabbed Becky's head and moved it so they were face to face. "You listen to me. You are not worthless, you have never been worthless. You're worth ten of any other person I know, and a thousand of Sasha Banks will never come close to you. Do you understand me?" Becky's eyes had gone wide, the determination in Paige's voice startling her a little. She nodded though, for although said in a forceful tone, it was very convincing. Paige kept on the same track as it seemed to be getting through. "So you see why I don't hate you? I just want to understand. I want to help."
Paige released Becky's head, hoping she wouldn't let in fall again, but she was quickly disappointed, yet relieved when she spoke. "Pai, I know you love me, but I thought I'd lost you. I thought you would forget about me. I thought I was never going to see you again."
"But I told you, I'd find a way back to you, didn't I?"
"I know, but it's just that nobody has ever come back from a transfer. I believed you though, really. I hoped you'd be back in the morning, it was all a mistake, or a bad dream. But when I woke up, you really weren't there." The last few words came out as a high pitched squeak as Becky started to crumble, reliving the feeling as she talked about it.
"Oh Bex, I'm sorry. I wish it had all been a bad dream too." Paige moved back over and cradled Becky's head between her head, shoulder and arms. I can't tell you how much I missed you while we were apart." Paige thought for a second before continuing. "There's something you should know too." Becky tilted her head in Paige's embrace, a mixture of interest, fear and a little bit of confusion in her mind. " I saw you in the hospital after, you know, it happened."
Becky didn't know how to take this news. She got a little agitated, while still very upset. "You mean, you knew? All this time you knew?"
"Not for sure baby, not for sure, and I didn't want to force you to talk about it. A guard told me, but she had it in for me the whole time . You saw her, the woman who dragged me out of here." Paige regretted saying that as soon as it left her mouth, bringing up the night she got transferred was never going to be a good idea, so she quickly returned to the previous point. "I'd never have believed that if I didn't hear it from you, but I really did come to the hospital. I convinced them I was sick long enough for me to spend about two minutes at your bedside in case you could hear me talking to you. Could you hear me? Like in a dream maybe?"
"I don't know, you were in my dreams a lot." Paige let out a small laugh and gave Becky a kiss, trying to show her feelings. "I hope I did though. You really did that for me? You could have got in trouble."
Paige just nodded. "I didn't know what else to do. I just went with my instincts, I had to get to you." Paige was being honest, trying to show her feelings to give Becky a reason to be happy, to show her how she's loved. Becky was reacting in the exact opposite way to what she wanted though. Her head fell down, she grabbed big handfuls of her orange hair and pulled it down, covering her face as much as she could. Paige put her hands on Becky's, trying to get her to release but couldn't. "Please baby, don't do this, you're scaring me again."
"You're too good for me." Was the deadpan response. "You did all that for me, you took risks, you found your way back, and what did I do? I cried. You shouldn't love me. I don't deserve you."
"Right, that's it." Paige said. She grabbed Becky's arms and forced her back against the wall the bunks were secured to. The shock of this broke Becky's grip on her hair and Paige now had her pinned to the wall. Before Becky could react Paige kissed her again, hard, holding her hands in place. Becky's head may have been getting pushed into the wall, but the kiss was doing what Paige wanted it to do as Becky pushed back, kissing back. A small battle of strength was going on until they finally broke, leaving them both breathless.
"There's my girl." Paige just about got out. Catching her breath, she continued. "Don't you say I shouldn't love you again. You're all I want." Paige released her grip on Becky's hands but Becky kept a tight hold on one, still looking down but smiling a little, pulling Paige down and her arm around her shoulders so they were lying in a spoon position. Paige moved Becky's hair aside and started placing soft kisses on the back of her neck when they were interrupted.
"Hey, what do you think you're doing! You, get off the bunk, now!" The voice belonged to Guard Langston. Paige, the one the order was given to, stood up and lent on the other wall, looking back at the guards angry expression. "That's more like it, you should know better, unless you are intent on moving out of here again." He didn't wait for an answer before moving on to check on the next cell, calling out that it was nearly time for everyone to be locked down for the night.
As soon as he'd gone, Paige turned back to Becky, who had wrapped herself into a ball, tucking her legs up with her arms around them. "Don't let them get in your head baby, I'm not going anywhere." Becky didn't seem to react at all, just staying in position, staring at the door. Paige thought the guard had spooked her and gave her some time. When the doors were all locked for the night she tried again.
"Feeling better? It's just us now, you don't have to worry." Paige tried to make Becky comfortable and calm but she didn't make much impact at first, getting her just to lay down was difficult, Becky not taking her eyes off the door. Once Paige had laid down, she felt sleep coming almost immediately, not getting much the previous night. Becky didn't respond when she put her arm over, so she removed it. As soon as the lights went out however, Becky sat up in a instant.
"No!" Becky screamed and started to panic again. Paige quickly responded and wrapped her up in her arms again.
"It's ok, I've gotcha Bex." Paige held on tight and Becky had her breathing under control much quicker than before. She held Paige back and the two laid back down, Paige on her back and Becky to her side, resting against her.
"I'm sorry Paige, thanks for being there for me, again." Becky whispered after a while, unsure if Paige had fallen asleep.
"Anytime." Paige looked towards Becky and smiled. "Do you want to talk about it?" The silence that followed wasn't the answer Paige wanted, but then she felt Becky slide her fingers between hers and hold her hand,hard.
"This was always the worst time. Getting locked up every night, I never got used to it. I'm still not, but when you weren't here, it became like it was when I first got arrested. I was lonely, and I was scared. Every noise sounded like it was coming at me. I didn't know what was going to happen to me. It was always so hard to deal with, plus the horrible people who were in here too, before you I mean."
"I know, but you said you were easy going when we met. It doesn't sound like it." Paige said, already sure of the answer, but not the reason.
"I wasn't, I just wanted you to like me. You seemed like a normal person, not some crazy person or gangster. I thought maybe, we could be friends so I tried to play it cool, and I wanted to stop you crying too."
Paige scoffed at that. "Yes, I remember you complaining about that before."
"I still would have wanted to be your friend you know, it just happened faster for us than most."
"Love at first sight, we just didn't know it." Paige said, pulling her tighter, kissing her cheek.
"This isn't fair Paige, I hate this life. I want my life back the way it was. I want to show you off around town, to do what we want, when we want."
"We will do, one day. One day it will be all about us. I promise."
"One day? One day? I'm sick of waiting. Paige, I can't handle it in here anymore, I never could and it's been years. I've tried so hard to appear normal but I can't do it, losing you made it so much worse than it was before."
"You're ok Bex, you're stronger than you think, and you'll never be alone again. I'm going to help you as much as you need me to."
Becky gripped onto Paige's shirt again. "You're so great, but it makes me feel worse. Why couldn't we have met somewhere else? In a bar or something? We could be having a great life together, instead of no life at all."
"At least we're together right. That's something isn't it?" Becky looked at Paige and nodded. "Where did you live when your incident happened?"
Becky was confused. "You know this, Homestead, between the Everglades and Miami."
"Exactly, you know I was in Orlando. It must be 4-5 hours drive between the two. Chances are we would never have met in the real world. Look baby, I hate this place just as much as you, I regret what I did to get locked up every day. But chances are we wouldn't have met if we hadn't met here."
"Don't say that, you know how much I missed you."
"I missed you too, I wish it was different, but it isn't. I just need you to stay strong. We will get there, one day. We'll be out of here, both of us, together, with our lives ahead of us. You've just got to get through it with me, the only way out is through the front door, as free women. We stay together, we have amazing lives, and we never, ever come back. Can you do this for me?"
Becky nodded. "Anything for you, my love."
Paige kissed her gently. "I know you won't feel better overnight, but I'm glad you opened up to me. You know you can talk to me anytime you're feeling down."
"I know, thanks Pai." Becky snuggled up tighter, stroking Paige's leg.
"There's a lot of bad stuff going on out there, Charlotte, Nattie, Lita. We better get some sleep before we have to face all of that again tomorrow. It'll all get better but you're always my number one, never forget that."
"As long as I've got you, I'll be happy, I promise. In fact, let me show you." Becky said, before beginning to nibble on her girlfriends earlobe.
"Baby you've had a tough time, you...ohhh" Paige lost her train of thought as she felt a gentle squeeze on her breast. "You don't have to do this." Becky paid her words no attention, taking her hand from Paige's chest, sliding it down her body, under her pants, and into her underwear. "Oh my god." Paige exclaimed at the feeling. "Forget what I said...please don't stop...kiss me..."
Becky had no problem complying with her requests. For the first time in what felt like forever, there was a reason to be alive.
Meanwhile, before lockdown that day:
"I don't know if you saw, but Paige was really on me about making up with Natalya."
"That's no surprise is it?"
"Not really, she's not going to drop it either."
"If you want to sort things out then do, I've never said you had to choose between Natalya and I."
"I know, and that's just another reason I've stuck with you, she's the one who can't let things go."
"You don't like this fighting do you?"
"Of course not, I didn't invite you join me in my exercise routines because I wanted to cause fighting."
"I told you, I'm ready to make peace with her, Nikki will too if I do."
"Are you doing it just for me?"
"No. It's game over now I'm in here, it's easier not to fight pointless battles."
"Good, I thought you were going soft on me."
"No no, you made it clear, I just found a new way for us to exercise, one we both just really enjoy."
"Stop it, you're making me blush."
"Oh come on, it's just sex, no feelings. That's what we agreed."
"I know, and completely private, you tell nobody, I tell nobody."
"Yes, I've not even told Nicole, and she's my family. But everyone knows about your other friends, Becky and Paige. Would it matter that much if this was public?"
"More than you could ever know."
A/N: That was another challenge to write, I must have deleted and rewritten enough that this would have been 5 times longer if I'd never deleted a word. I hope it paid off and you enjoyed reading the finished chapter.
I know this wasn't action packed, but leaving this out would have been a big joke. Thought I'd leave the little teaser at the end for fun.
Payback tonight. I'd love to see Nattie win the title, but WWE still seem way to high on Ric Flair's daughter (might as well be her name) for them to make the change. Will still be good to see Bret Hart.
With Becky talking now, other issues start to come up in the next chapters, including what happened to Lita. I'm looking forward to writing it.
Did you spot the new cover art? All credit to a fellow writer on here - Armbar Nation. He's written many stories in this genre himself, I'd recommend any and all of them to you. He's a great writer who been a huge help, and a friend, to me since I started this.
As always, thanks for reading.
