A/N: Sorry for the lack of updating. I had every intention on updating this before but I realized all of the spoilers I had were listed on the DLS site which was down for a few days so I couldn't access them. But whatever, I have the update and that's all that really matters. Also, this is in both Tommy and Jude's POV but I couldn't break the page or put a symbol in to show you where it switches. The page break thing is broken or something. But you'll be able to figure it out.

Again, I am currently without a beta so please disregard my spelling errors. I just wanted to thank all of you who have commented. I greatly appreciate it.

8:03

After looking at the disgraceful time on my alarm clock I rolled back over in my bed. I couldn't believe that it was only eight o'clock at night and I was already in bed. If this were a week ago, me and her would be watching a movie in the living room of our apartment. But no, I had to go and screw up the best thing that had ever happend to me. And look where it got me, in a little studio apartment in the, how did Kwest word it, oh, 'ghetto' of Toronto. I never thought there really was a 'ghetto' in Toronto but now I'm living in it.

It's not like I can't afford a nice apartment because I can. But why spend all that money on a nice place when it's just you whose going to be able to enjoy it?

Pathetic. That's what I am; I am a pathetic excuse for a man. Men are supposed to be able to provide for their better halfs and be the comfort for their women when they are in need. But no, in this case, I have become the woman. I am the one who freaked out when things became to rough with my own family. Instead, Jude became the man of the relationship and stuck it out. She was my shoulder to cry on if I ever wanted to use it; she was my comfort. I rolled back over and looked at my alarm once again.

8:04

That's it? It's only been one minute? Something is seriously wrong with this picture. Oh, I know what it is. Jude. Jude is the one that's missing from this picture. If she were beside me right now, I can guarantee you that I wouldn't be looking at the clock every thirty seconds. No. Instead, I'd be lying here with Jude in my arms while I whisper sweet nothings into her ear. I'd be pushing a strand of her wavy blonde hair behind her ear and kissing the spot on her face that it revealed. But no, the reality of the situation is I'm here all alone in a big empty bed with nothing but the sheet occupying the space next to me.

But now that I'm lying here all alone, I realize the extent of what I actually feel for her. It's just too bad this realization came too late. If only I were the bigger person in the situation; if only I stood up to him and told him to go and leave me alone, then this wouldn't be happening right now. I wouldn't be alone and restless and Jude wouldn't be on the other side of the city.

I finally grew to restless to even try to sleep so I sat up in my bed. I debated on whether or not to look at the clock again. Screw it.

8:06

Sweet! A new record. It's been TWO minutes this time. I rubbed my face with my hands to try and wake myself up some. There was no way I was going to get some sleep unless I actually talked to Jude. And I mean really talk to her like a civalized human being. So, I did the one thing that actually came to mind. I threw on an old t-shirt and my slippers before grabbing my keys and leaving the apartment all together.

8:05

This is completely insane. I've been trying to get some sort of sleep for a little over a half an hour and nothing. I am completely restless with a thousand things on my mind. Too bad nobody can help me.

The more I think about what happend today at work the more I grow aggravated with the situation. I mean, Tommy and I have always been able to talk to each other about anything and everything. So why the sudden change? I love Tommy, I always will. I just don't understand why he's acting like this. Even Kwest is fed up. He told me earlier today that Tommy was giving him an attitude earlier this morning at work and that sounded odd to me. Kwest and Tommy had been friends for almost fifteen years and the pair never fought, unless it was over a girl or a basketball game. But that's what guys do. They make petty fights with each other and its over before you know it. I just wish mine and Tommy's disagreement could be like that.

8:07

I give up on sleep. I throw my covers off and climb out of my empty bed before trudging my way into the kitchen. I open the fridge and nothing I find seems to interest me. So I go for option number two, the freezer. There has to be some Ben & Jerry's in there somewhere. I open it up and find nothing. Then it dawns on me; I ate the last of B & J the other night after Tommy broke up with me.

As I searched around the freezer I found one lonely popsicle in the back of the freezer. Lord knows how long its been in there but I don't even care. No Ben & Jerry's so this fruity little treat will have to do.

I unwrapped the popsicle and started towards the living room. If sleeping is out of the question, then it looks like it's time for The Golden Girls. That Sophia is one hell of a character. I plopped myself down on the couch and listen intently as Sophia reflects on her life in Sicily however many years ago; I didn't catch the year. A laugh escapes my mouth and I was struck. I don't remember the last time I've actually had a genuine emotion in my body. All of the recent ones have been morbid and boring. But this one was funny and exciting. I like that Sophia.

Suddenly, there is a knock at the door. Who the hell would be coming for a visit at eight-fifteen at night? Holy crap I sound like an old lady. Like I should be passed out before the street lights come on. I shake my head trying to make the images of my future disappear and I stand up from my couch.

Once I made it to the door, I didn't even bother to look through the peep hole, I just swung that thing open. Oh shit, I don't believe he's actually standing in front of me. Now would be the comedic time for me to slap myself on the forehead for making such a stupid move. There I was actually starting to enjoy my lonliness but then he had to show up. But that's when it hit me, I was going to have to face the thoughts that have been encircling my mind for the past fourty-five minutes...