Disclamier: wish I may , Wish I might that I might own kingdom Hearts tonight .. it aint gonna happen

Riku's turn of Events

"Riku, I don't want you in my house GET OUT!" throws Riku out the door and his suitcase after him. The door slams a cold bitter slam making a sound as if to tell him no one even likes you deal with it. Sora could be so heartless sometimes

"Well that's it … I'm homeless" He lie there for a few minutes trying to come to terms with what's happening, and at the same time running his fingers along the ground, The cracks reminding him of his life. Shattered never to be fully restored.

He stood up and walked a little way and sat on the ground

"this is so hopeless" He said with a slight glare at life … then he spots Namine

"Riku what are you doing all alone like this?" She said with a slight bit of sympathy in her voice. Her eyes seemed to dazzle and her lips shimmered

"Sora threw me out the house" he looked up at her like an abandoned puppy lost, Helpless and defenceless against the cold lonely world

"Come on then" She smiled reassuringly and held out her hand "come with me!" she said in a happy tone

"but?"

"Are you scared of me or something" grabs his hand a pulls him up

He felt her warm touch and looked at her like why are you doing this? Suddenly he closed his eyes and saw sand. Sand is smooth to the touch but unstable to walk in and will burn you if you aren't careful.

"I don't understand" He looked at Namine puzzled.

"You don't have to understand" She pulls him along making him walk every step. She turned and smiled at him reassuring him that he was safe now

"Look I told you Miss this is very kind but no" He pushes her hand away and begins to walk. Trying to fight the temptation, but of what though? He had no idea what he was fighting.

"Don't be so formal. It's just Namine you should know that Riku" She dragged him all the way to her mansion .Then she let go of him

"Make yourself at home" She said with a smile across her face

"Fine, I have no where else" he said with a sighish tone to his voice. He grabbed his suitcase and went up the stairs to what shall be his new home for a while.

"Heres your room" Namine said opening a door. But where had she come from? I mean she couldn't have magically appeared … or could she?

"How'd you get here? I mean err thank you" He tried to recover the badly worded sentence

"That's for me to know, and you never to know. Now make yourself at home" She smiled at him and went to down the stairs

"Thank you Namine" He said turning to face the white walls. White, the colour he once knew so well and thrived in it his heart back then never belonged to darkness those days were over. But Riku never wanted to accept that. He lied on the bed looking at the ceiling wondering if he was aloud a second chance… second chance at starting again.

Downstairs Namine was drawing a picture. One which would change Riku's life for worse or for better she had no control over his free will after all.

"I hope this works" She looked down slightly unknowing what she had just done.

"Are you okay Namine?" Riku said with a shy tone in his voice. Normally hard to detect but this time it stood out like black on white.

"Oh … I didn't know you were there and yes Riku, I'm fine" She said trying to cover the sadness hidden in her voice. Her normally wide smile was faded and she blinked at him like just please, please. A normally vibrant girl dimmed to a flicker of a dieing flame something was up and Riku knew it.

"Namine, something's wrong your quiet I can see it in yours eyes. And yours eyes don't lie so please tell me what's wrong." He said slowly walking over to her with comforting eyes.

"Err it's nothing" She tried desperately to hide the notepad behind her back. Hoping praying he doesn't see it.

Riku eventually pauses and doesn't take a step closer he turns around and walks away from her, into the gardens where he could be alone and think.

"Sorry Riku, but this is my deepest secret ... I don't want to force a choice upon you" She looked away with saddened eyes.

Outside Riku sat on the warm grass the summer sun beating down on him but to him it didn't feel warm … it felt hot.

"My eyes should have been green … blue was never my colour I mean green stands envy. Envy … I always competed Sora for Kairi. Green always seemed a deep colour a colour to reflect upon as unknown, I mean so mainly shades some calm some so active" He looked down and for the first time thinking about how to perhaps set things right

" You sure are thinking a lot , Riku you know that's not good for you. You're supposed to think of the future. Not the past and I know your thinking of the past."
She looked at him like … please Riku I want you to get better

He looked down his hair covering his eyes, so she couldn't see the build up of a tear in his eye. He wanted to set things right between him and Sora and try to get over the heartache of loosing the perhaps only light left in his heart to Sora.

"I guess he really was better then me" He looks up at her the tear nearly ready to fall down his face

"Oh Riku" She sat next to him hugging him. Trying to comfort Riku

He at first didn't know how to react and looked at her like, I dunno. He eventually hugged her back and made the fatal mistake to close his eyes. Her embrace felt so warm to him. Took away the heartless feeling if only for awhile.

She expected to feel cold. As if Riku never had a heart, but she didn't she thought to herself about his past and realised that only the thought of never seeing the one he loved was what pushed him to darkness, she felt so sorry for him.

"You okay Namine?" He said, he didn't know how he made her feel. Inside he felt empty and cold so he never knew what others portrayed him as.

"I'm fine" She soon realised that she had held on to long and moved away from him. She got up as if that never happened and walked to the door, but she paused she wanted to look back so badly but she never did.

"I guess I really am cold to the bone … and it must be hard for everyone else to ignore the fact I went to the dark side… I just want to make everything right again. Why is it so hard?" He sat their thoughts of life washing in his head.

Namine sat in here room looking out the window

"I hope he gets better … his past is his disease … if you can stop his past invading his future the maybe there's a chance he can love again" She sighed and looked away from the window

Riku just sat there wondering maybe there's a way to Kairi's heart. But that wasn't fair on Sora really. He looked up at the sky and the sun was beginning to set.

"Beautiful isn't it?" Namine appeared beside him. Almost as though she came from thin air, however she was in a red dress like a dance dress.

"Yes, it is. Why'd you change?" Riku asked not looking at her but staring off into

The distance as though it held a clue, that in the magical weave of colours he may find answers to his questions.

"I dunno. I guess I felt like a change" she sat next to Riku and wondered what he was thinking. And hoping he was sparing a little thought for her …

"If you were a colour what would you be?"

"That's an odd question Riku, why you ask?"

"Cause I think I'm a nearly black shade of green … and I wondered what you are?"

"Oh... I'd be white"

"Because white is purity. And light … the light to do the right things and make those around you … glad to be … a" he doesn't continue … and Namine could see he was shaking … his head down

"Riku … I want to be around you. I know you can't accept your past… but you have to accept your future and if you don't, then you'll always be in darkness" She looks at his face then too the sunset and trys to think about why Riku doesn't want to move on

He gets up and goes indoors as if he doesn't want to face her.

She takes a deep sigh and closes her eyes … then goes indoors.

That evening Riku lied awake on his bed thinking, it seemed to be all he did now. He was thinking about Destiny Islands and his and Sora's friendship.

"I've troubled everyone so much, is it even worth going on my cold lonely march? Why don't I do everyone a favour and hang myself?" He lies there for awhile thinking about it … then decided

"no … I'm not a quitter. I won't do them that pleasure" He seemed suborn upon his choice. This was good news for all; he closed his eyes and fell fast asleep.

Namine awoke the next day in her room; she'd been having dreams and nightmares. She glanced around the room and saw a small note slipped under the door. She put her feet onto the cold floor sending shiver up her spine and walked over to read the note.

"I was being a burden, I couldn't stay anymore I assure you I am safe, and please Namine. Don't try to find me … Riku" She looked at the note in disbelief and a tear slowly ran down her face she hardly noticed it.

Meanwhile Riku was walking along the cold pavements once more. He was like a star that only shone dimly and was one you had to look at hard to see it sparkle. But it was there, stars forever move on they never stay still.

"There goes another Chapter of my life" He said with a slight bit of regret as if he never wanted to move on. As if his life had almost … almost just found it's purpose. But then again he hadn't, for he never let anything wait long enough.

Namine tried to find him; she looked everywhere she thought he would be. But alas no for he had left … twilight town. She looked down as though to give in …

"No … Riku I have to find you"

Riku walked along forever looking to the sky. For every time he looked, he definitely saw some white in it. He guessed it's because he didn't want to go from Namine. He didn't understand the feelings inside him … he still loved Kairi.

"Kairi" He muttered under his breathe … Soon after that he left Christmas town

Namine just arrived at Christmas Town as soon as Riku left …

"Excuse me … how you seen a boy with white downward spiked hair?" She asked frantically, however no one would answer her cry.

This went on for weeks … Namine never reaching Riku, she was always ironically to late… until she did reach him, but it was just too late

"I can't … walk …anym-" He fell to the ground and collapsed. He had gone days without water

"Riku? … RIKU!" she ran over to him and lifted his head.

He gave no reply

"Riku … talk to me Riku"

He opened his eyes slightly at her

"I thought I told you not to come and find me" His voice was dry and whispery

"Well, I couldn't let you slip away. I cared about you Riku and I still do" She looked at him like don't do this … don't you dare die on me now!

Riku looked her like … you cared? He felt his heart lighten and the feeling of being heartless sank. He didn't want to fade away, he wanted to stay there with Namine and didn't want anything to come between that.

"You c-cared?" He looked at her puzzled but not sad

"Yes Riku, I cared. I don't want you to die" Her eyes saddened, in the fear she might loose him

"I –I" A slight tear rolled down his face like … what have I done?

"Come on … we're gonna get you back, and you aren't gonna close your eyes are you!" She looked at him seriously

Riku replied with no answer he was still stunned, as if he were in another world away, because of what Namine said… someone cared about him.

"Riku answer me!" The tears beginning to roll down her face

Riku still replied nothing … and his eyes DID begin to slowly close

"Riku … no! Don't close your eyes! You can't die on me" Her voice faded away as darkness consumed his heart. He found his light … but … it was just too late.

However his final thoughts we're … Namine thank you. And I'm sorry I hurt you, that's why I never admitted I loved you … to save the heartache. At least now I know, I have something to dream off. My very own light

In my dreams I'll see you'll face
And I'll remember you
Though I maybe gone
That doesn't stop me
Namine you showed me my light
And that is why I can say this
A heart tinted by darkness can't speak of things that are white
But, I hope one day you can be with me
I wont think of the past
My so many mistakes
Like you said
I have to think of the future
You are my future
So I hope … one day we can be together.
Even just friends
you make me feel … that I have a heart
a pure heart
a light …