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Author's Note: So it's been a while since I've been able to work on this. Just wanted to let you all know it's not because it's lost my interest it's been more along the lines of the fact that I've been so busy I've barely had time to breathe let alone think. Thanks to everyone who's reading and sorry it's been so long since I've updated. This is another chapter that kinda went in its own direction and it's not all that long but it seemed kinda important but I'll let you all be the judge I hope you like it.

Chapter 22: The Inner Turmoil of Molly Weasley

Mrs. Weasley stood in the kitchen putting the finishing touches on the dinner she'd been preparing for Harry's birthday. It hadn't escaped her knowledge that both Harry and Hermione seemed to be glowing or that on the ring finger of Hermione's left hand was a stunningnew edition. She'd always considered Harry one of her own children and the mother in her was dying to learn all of the details of the proposal. On the other hand the deaths of Mad-Eye and Dumbledore had really taken its toll on her. She was starting to feel helpless, it was a feeling she loathed. As she watched as Ron, Harry, Hermione, and Ginny greeted their guest who'd just arrived she was wondered if she made the right choice when she refused to let Ron, Harry, and Hermione join the Order. She wondered if by letting them, it might have kept them from going off and doing whatever they'd been planning for the last few days. Of course they were all so headstrong and refused to tell anyone exactly what they were doing. She had a feeling that Remus and Tonks possibly knew but if they did they weren't going to give away too much. She could always forbid them to go but they were now all of age and Harry and Hermione really weren't her own children. As for Ron, well you really couldn't force a Weasley to do something. Look at the disastrous relationship they all now had with Percy. He and Arthur weren't even on speaking terms.

She wondered if things would ever be good again. To be honest she couldn't remember when times ever really were completely good. Sure there were the 11 years of peace between the time that Harry as a baby defeated Voldemort until the time that he made it to Hogwarts. That's really when all this business started up again and even in that time things really weren't all that peaceful. There was always a sense of dread in the back of all their minds. Everyone knew that he would be back they just didn't know how or when. With everything that was going on it made her wonder what was going to happen next. The war had barely begun and already the deaths were so numerous. The deaths of people to Molly were very much like family. She couldn't imagine what would happen if she did lose one of her children and every time she looked at Ron, Harry, and Hermione she wondered if this would be the last time she saw them alive. She knew that she shouldn't be thinking like this she had no business thinking like this. When she was alone with her thoughts she couldn't think of anything but 'what if's. She wondered what Fleur and Bill's children would be like if they would ever get to have children. If they did would they grow up and never know their parents. Would Charlie find someone as gentle hearted as he was and Percy would he learn that there was more to life than personal ambition. Would she ever get the chance to reconcile with him. Then there was Fred and George, while she was always the most critical on them they were also the joy in her life as well. Ron and Ginny were the ones she'd never felt she had to worry about. While they were the ones who found themselves in the most danger at times she always knew that they would come out safely. Maybe it was because Harry was always there, he'd came between her family and danger more times than she could count. She just hoped that Ginny realized that Dean Thomas wasn't the right man for her. She was brave and strong she needed someone who wouldn't try to hold her back and tie her down. More than anything she wondered if Harry would actually get to live.