S/N: Sorry for such a short chapter. I thought it would be longer. Yeah, so this is shonen-ai so it is consisting of two men together in sexual situations. There is a graphic rape scene so this is your warning. I am warning so people cant say that I haven't

Disclaimer: Don't own FAKE, wish I did though…

Recap: Dee tried to kill himself nearly succeeded too, but had just woken up to be faced with the guilt he has caused to his lovers heart. Ryo demands a reason why. So with the little strength that still remains, he begins his confession.

Chapter 2: Angels with tainted wings.

I'm dying,

I'm praying,

Bleeding,

And screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?

Am I too lost?

-Evanesance, Tourniquet

"He raped me…again."

His eyes widened at the news. It was kinda like watching an angel go SPLAT on the ground when I told him the news. He straightened up and let his hands rest on my lower stomach. I could see the look of confusion on his face, if it was any other occasion, I would have flat out laughed, but under current circumstances, that was way out of line and was the last thing on my mind. Ryo's eyes hardened, his lips pursed, his shoulders straightened, and his attention was only on me. "What?" he breathed, he would have screamed it, but I could tell he thought I was too fragile to hear him yell. "Who?" he questioned in a low voice. "When?" His tone was getting louder. "Why?" His voice was on the verge of yelling now. "Why the fuck didn't you say this before?" Yep, he was yelling. "When the hell were you gonna tell me?" He cried hitting my chest with his fists.

I sat there while he hit my chest, questioning me over and over again until he collapsed against me. I made a mental note to never tell him things that would upset him while I was still in the hospital, 'cause then we wouldn't have an audience or wouldn't have to worry about my vitals. I let him cry there, I didn't want to touch him. He knew I was tainted now. He knew that I was defiled. I was truly scared he wouldn't love me anymore, scared to loose him forever.

When he sat up again, he dismounted me and began to pace. He flopped into a chair and stared at me with his luminous green orbs. He scrunched up in the chair. I knew he was waiting for me to begin to explain what I meant. I gulped and drew my legs up and rested my chin on my white sheet covered knees. It smelled like me. I never liked that smell, it was a dirty scent.

I couldn't look at him, so instead I focused out of the window, on an orange maple leaf hanging desperately to the twig it was connected to. "Ryo, you know how I was adopted?" I quarried with no need for a response but was surprised with, "of course Dee."

I gulped, I felt like I was drowning again as the memory of everything that happened to me pulled me back into the current. I closed my eyes to still the sensation, it didn't work instead I was drawn back into the images of what had happened to me. My eyes snapped open and I took a deep breath, it still hurt a bit, but not nearly as much as the memories did. I steadied my breathing and looked straight into his hollow black gaze. My courage returning with the fire it usually was when I was with him. So I began to tell my love the information he requested of me. My darkest secret, my secret sin.

"It was summer, all warm and sunny. We were on vacation in our summer place in Hawaii. My father had taken me out into the back yard. My mom had gone to the grocery store to pick up junk for dinner." I could hear the bitterness in my voice, but didn't see a point to change my tone, my eyes never left his. "My father, as you know from experience, was and is a bastard, he blamed me for alla his problems and what ever the hell was wrong with his life at the time. He and I were outside; I had just turned 11 a few months before and was living large. 'This is our last year here Dee,' I remember him saying that 'cause of what he did next. Then he grabbed me from behind and forced me to the ground. He was on top of me like a mad man, pinning me to the ground. 'I can't afford this place anymore because of paying your tuition, so in return of your tuition and my loosing this house, I'm gonna take it out of your hide.' Then he pulled down my swim trunks, I cried and hit him, he hit me back and pinned my arms above my head with one hand and then with his other hand, he started… touching me, caressing me more like. Then he grabbed my part and began to yank, then he would run his hand down it then pull up again. He would grunt and he had like this wicked grin on his face, like a wolf who's just got their prey cornered." I paused and took in Ryo's expression, his eyes were wide and his mouth was hanging open. I couldn't smile, so I just kept going. As I talked I was envisioning it in my head.

"He used his free hand to pull down his own trunks. I was screaming and kicking, then he punched me, I stopped I was so flabbergasted by that, blood kinda dribbled out of mouth. I was crying, but I was whimpering and sniffling. He then pushed my legs apart and lowered himself between 'em. I was scared, he started sucking on me he let go of my hands, I was so shocked that I couldn't move, I was completely paralyzed. He kept sucking me off I couldn't even fight anymore. Then he pulled away and just looked at me. Then he panted a bit and wiped his forehead of the sweat. 'Well, at least you have one use,' he grinned and flipped me over, 'you taste good.' Was all the fuck head said before he sucked on his finger and plunged it into me. It hurt so bad, I grabbed the grass and screamed. I heard him laughing. He shoved another finger in and began to pulse them, then another, until I thought his whole hand was in my ass. I was screaming, I was so scared, no one was there to rescue me, no hero flying up when I needed him most, just him."

I looked at Ryo again, he was silently crying with his hand to his mouth, I wanted to hug him, but I wasn't finished yet. "He pulled his hand out, I thought it was over my screams dulled down and I was panting and crying again when he just entered me with his part, he just kept thrusting into me. His dick rammed into me so hard and fast I screamed at the top of my lungs, he stuffed his fingers into my mouth to silence me, I was sobbing and carrying on. He kept grinding into me until his hand fell out of my mouth and I dug my elbows the ground. He kept thrusting his marry way. After a while I gave up screaming and just cried again. All hope was lost. I felt something get shot into me. I cringed. I knew that I had just been raped, raped by my father. I would never be pure again. When that was finished he left me there, I collapsed onto the ground. 'That should let you know that you will always wind up paying in the end Dee.' He began to walk away; my elbows and knees were bloody from the encounter, when he yelled to me. 'If you tell anyone about how I am making you pay your debt, I'll kill that friend of yours, I swear I will Dee.' The he walked away, I was crying so hard, I rolled over, I couldn't move much. I just grabbed my trunks, pulled them on and cried. I cried for my ass, I cried cause I got raped, I cried 'cause I really thought it all was my fault. I swore I wouldn't tell anyone 'cause I knew he would kill." I hadn't realized that I had been crying until I felt a tear on my hand. I shook my head to clear it of the images. I didn't look at Ryo. I couldn't.

"It happened at least once a year until I was eighteen. On my eighteenth birthday, was when everything was lost. He found out that I was bisexual and thought what better way to give your son a present then by rapping him with your buddies." I took a deep breath and let it out slowly, I was gonna cry, but he had to know, I let the tears fall as I told Ryo about yet another graphic tale of my being rapped. "I went out side after my party, it actually was an enjoyable one 'cause he hadn't been there the whole day. I was walking under the trees in our back yard when the same arms that had grasped me just the night before, had their grip on me again, he dragged me off to the garage and turned on the light. 'Dad?' I cried out, he stepped out from behind the tool box and he walked up to me a smirk rested on his lips. Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, two of my father's co-workers came out from behind the tool box and they were all grinning. 'I brought you a present' he was so grotesque. I can't really describe how sickening it was. But they each took turns. Grinding me into the ground, silent tears ever present. Then they wrapped it up by one being in my mouth, another in my ass, and my father sucking me off. 'Happy Birthday' was all the sick fuck said to me afterwards, his friends left laughing and satisfied. I was lying on the floor, crying. Then I pulled up my pants and ran into the bathroom. That was I guess a week and four days ago. You were the friend they threatened to kill. I had had enough; I was tired of waking up and feeling dirty. I was sick of knowing about what was happening to me and being too weak to do anything about it, and I was disgusted with my self for having you because you are so pure and I…" I paused and looked at him, shock still written all over his face, the tears had stopped, but his eyes got impossibly larger. I looked away, "I'm not. I so gross I can't stand me so I went to the bathroom with every intention of killing my self. I think that the only reason why I am alive is because I heard you call my name."

I laughed a bit through my tears, "How weird. Who would have ever thought that you were a guardian angel on top of being the sexiest thing in creation?" I stopped laughing when I caught a glance of him. I was shocked that I was laughing at a time like that, but I was mostly laughing at my stupidity. He looked deeply saddened. Getting up from his chair, he slowly and cautiously walked up to me. He grabbed my wrist and kissed it gently. I couldn't believe it. He grabbed the other and did the same. He straddled me again, carefully so as to not hurt me and wrapped his arms daintily around my neck. He bent down and pressed a watery kiss to my lips. It got more intense when his tongue opened up my mouth and he began to run his tongue over every part of my wet cave. Our tongues danced together, he pulled away, but leaving only a fraction of space between us. "I love you no matter what. I don't care that you think that you are impure. I think you are flawless." He pressed a soft kiss to my lips, he parted only to murmur. "I swear I'll kill him."

S/N: yeah so I am writing Ryo to be a bit tougher than normal, but I would threaten to kill someone too if they were raping my lover. Leaving at a cliff hanger! Please review! I love reviews, they encourage me to keep writing!