Side Note: I am sorry it has been so long, I have been sick a lot lately... So yeah, I have gotten a few reviews, most of them are vague saying things like "umm…interesting." Well I wrote in the brief little summary to bring readers in that stated this is a graphic story. I would like to thank those who are reading and reviewing though, unfortunately this is a different computer so I don't have the names of those who responded, but I would like to thank all eight of you! So thank you very much.

Disclaimer: This story is not for the faint of heart, nor is it for those who are touchy on the issues of shonen-ai (yaoi), sex, rape, murder, and suicide, all of these are themes of this story, so those who are against any of the following, please do not read this story, but those who enjoy pitiful attempts of would be authors, read and enjoy.Oh and I don't own FAKE or Evanescence unless I would be obscenely rich… oh well.

Chapter 3: Secrets Revealed

My wounds cry for the grave,

My soul cries for deliverance,

Will you be on the other side?

Or will you forget me?

Evanescence, Tourniquet

"I love you no matter what. I don't care that you think that you are impure. I think you are flawless." He pressed a soft kiss to my lips, he parted only to murmur. "I swear I'll kill him."

It had been three weeks since Ryo and I had that moment in the hospital. I keep waking up in cold sweats remembering the intensity of his voice, the thought of him killing anyone scared me, but what truly terrified me was the prospect of him killing in my name. This time was just the same, I was quivering and muttering "no", as always Ryo was holding me and shushing me into silence. "It's ok love, he can't hurt you now, you're not dealing with him anymore, you'll never have to deal with him again." I told him that I was dreaming about being raped again, but I was actually dreaming of him killing my "father" and my mom, it truly was terrifying. He pulled me back down onto the bed and kissed me until my sobs faded. I had to reassure my self that he wouldn't kill, but the way he said it, I just had a bad feeling.

The next time I woke up, it was to the sensation of being kissed all the way down my stomach, I smiled and arched so that my stomach would be pressed into those warm kisses. Ryo chuckled at my action. "Eager are we?" He muttered as he leaned over and nipped at me. I could feel his happy bulge pressing against my own. "Yes, we are." I whispered. We really started to get into it when a really uninvited intruder knocked at a horribly inconvenient time. Ryo grumbled and got off the top of me, he pulled a blanket over us, I relaxed into the pillow, and he snarled, "You can come in."

Well, the intruder was none other then Jemmy Jamison, a.k.a J.J. I groaned and tried to bury my head in the pillow, with hope that I would be smothered. "What do you want?" I cried in exasperation.

"I just came to check on you Dee, everyone at school has been worried and," he was about to step closer when he was greeted with a growl from Ryo, I could hear him stop in his tracks. "And the craziest roomers have been flying around." Unearthing from the protection of my pillows I looked at him, making sure that I was covered, but it was futile, my erection was very apparent. "What rumors J.J.?" I asked sitting up, Ryo wrapped an arm around me and pulled me closer. I had the feeling that he knew what was going to be said and that I wouldn't like it… he was right.

"Well just that your dads been raping you for like ever, and that you tried to kill your self." My jaw fell. J.J.'s eyes widened when he saw this and his mouth went agape as well. "Oh-mah-god! It's… it's true then… you really were…" his voice trailed off and he just stared at me. I felt horrible, disgust, worthless, and dirty… My eyes glazed over as I was beginning to drown in the ocean of darkness that consumed me when I tried …

I didn't know how long it had been or where I was, all I heard was people yelling. "J.J. use some common sense, you of all people should have known to keep your mouth shut, didn't you see me doing the cutting throat sign? You know that one that usually means silence?"

"Well Ryo, I was just informing him of what was going on, you didn't say that he tried to kill himself, you didn't tell me anything but 'he felt rather ill', rather ill my ass!" J.J. yelled right back.

I could hear Ryo pacing; he did it a lot when he got angry, from time to time he would also muttered 'usa' for reasons that I could never even fathom. "Look," he scowled, "I didn't tell for the very reason that has just transpired. Don't you understand that his psyche is in a very delicate state?" Wow did Ryo sound pissed.

I heard J.J. huff then start to pace as well. "Yeah, well at least I told him the truth, unlike you. I mean you of all people have no right to reprehend me! I mean you're-" He was cut off.

"Don't you dare go there J.J." He warned his voice was quaking with rage.

"You're the one who is only with him because you were hired to kill his father!" My eyes shot open.

"I told you to never speak of this!" he bellowed.

"And you also told me you would tell him. The way he is right now, I don't think you'll ever get the opportunity, if he found out, his whole word would fall apart, and it would be your entire fault! He would try to kill himself again, this time I think he would succeed!" J.J. roared. "At least I care about him, you! You are nothing, but a fake! A murderer to boot!"

This truth was swimming through my skull. Not Ryo, not him, please not him. I know that my "father" was a very important person, but I never thought he would get a hit man tagged onto him. I never thought that Ryo… Everything was fake; the love that I felt was for a man who didn't exist, the love I received was not love at, just a gate way to my "father"… All that had kept me alive was fake, all that I kept existing for wasn't real… It was a horrible reality… the fact that I, that I had sex with this man, this stranger; it was almost as if I was getting raped all over again. My eyes widened and I could breath, I was drowning again. The kissed, the hugs, the tears, the sex, the joy, it was all fake. I was gasping for air when I saw him run towards me, I screamed and fell off the bed, the memories were consuming me: how we meet, our first date, the first time we fucked. I was being carried away from my life. I was surrounded by warmth, a hellish heat that was consuming me. I fell into the deep again, this time I didn't want to resurface.

Side Note: Yep, so this is the end of this chapter. I think it is getting interesting; I tried not to make it so graphic and go into the juicy details of how they had sex, no matter how fun it would be! Please review. Reviews are needed for future chapters to unfold.