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Coming of Age
My heart was pounding with fear and from running through the castle. Sesshoumaru held me tightly against him with his chest to my back. 'I'm dead! He's going to kill me, I know it!'
"Why are you afraid? Do you fear that I will harm you like before you came to my castle?" Sesshoumaru asked, slowly lowering his head to my neck.
"Maybe if you weren't so calm about this entire thing I wouldn't have to be! If you would just let me have my glasses then you would never have to put up with me again!" I replied, trying to move uncomfortably in his arms.
'I just need to get out of here! I have my sunglasses so I can just pass out now and fall back home.' I could feel his one arm moving lower, and then his hand touched my side gently.
"Now why would I allow the one I want to disappear once again?"
"I told you already! You don't really want me! Now just let me go home!" I demanded, bending my head backwards in hopes to hit his.
Sesshoumaru nipped the skin at my neck and then his hand grabbed my vest to pull it off my shoulders.
"A human could never know what I desire. Learn that you belong to me as long as you are in my castle," he whispered into my ear, loosening his hold to let the vest fall down my arms.
Grabbing his wrist tightly, I tried to stop him. 'I will not have him use me! There's no way in hell that I'll stand here and let him use me like I'm some whore!'
Sesshoumaru used hid left hand to turn me around so I faced him. His golden eyes were filled with desire as he had done so.
"Just let me go! I didn't do anything wrong! Well, maybe I did but that doesn't mean that you can do whatever you want to me!" I snapped, about to kick him in the shin.
Before I could do anything to try to get away, Sesshoumaru placed a hand on the back of my neck and pressed his lips to mine. I didn't let go of the hand I was still holding on to. There was no way I was going to allow him to eel my body again without my permission. 'Why does this keep happening to me? Why can't I just go home? What did I do wrong to deserve this?' Trying to pull away from him with my feet, I almost fell over and opened my mouth slightly. That was enough for room for Sesshoumaru to slide his tongue into my mouth and for him to touch mine gently. 'I have an idea. Why don't I just let my feet drop so I can fall to the ground? Maybe that would get him to let me go!' Letting my legs give out, I dropped to the ground and quietly cursed. Sesshoumaru was slightly surprised but he sure as hell didn't show it on his face.
"No woman has denied me, yet here you are, a young woman, denying me," he said calmly, kneeling down in front of me and looking into my eyes.
"Why don't you just punish me and get it over with! Hit me or something! Damn it, I'm sure that that would be better than having you touch me like that!" I said weakly.
My walls were slowly breaking. All my life, I had built a wall around myself so I couldn't be hurt like all the other girls.
'Why do I feel this way? What is this feeling? I feel like I'm about to burn up and it hurts. Is it because of what he is doing to me?' I looked at him hatefully and then I tackled him from my position. Sesshoumaru was on his back, pinned with my hands on his shoulders. His huge fluffy thing wasn't in my way, nor was his armor. A growl was coming from me as I stared at him. 'I'm gunna kill him!' I thought, digging my nails into his shoulders.
"Would you prefer for me to hit you? A mate that strikes the one to bear his child would not be an honorable mate," Sesshoumaru said calmly, looking back up at me.
"I will not bear your damn children!" I growled, drawing blood at his shoulders.
The heat coming from me burst and then I released Sesshoumaru's shoulders and jumped backwards, sitting at his feet. I looked at my hands with heavy breathing and then wiped my nails on the grass. 'What the ell was that? Did I just try to kill him?' My heart was pounding hard within my chest as I felt panic sneaking up on me.
"You're coming of age. The demon blood that once flowed through Clouse, now wants to be released into your blood," Sesshoumaru said as he sat up and looked at me.
'Coming of age? So now there's demon blood trying to take over me?'
"What can I do… to make it go away? If I get… rid of you… would it leave me alone?" I asked, breathing between a few words.
'I don't want to become a demon. If becoming a demon means turning out to be like Sesshoumaru then I want nothing to do with it!' I got to my feet and was about to walk into the castle when a hand took a tight hold of the back of my shirt. 'Damn it, my vest is on the ground beside him! How am I supposed to leave if he can take that from me too?'
Sesshoumaru pulled the sunglasses off my head and then took them from me once again.
"Running would not stop it from flowing through your body. Until you can take these from me and successfully get away, I will not permit you to leave," he replied, releasing my shirt and allowing me to move on my own.
"Who ever said I was running? You know what? I'll take your stupid little challenge! Touch me again and I'm allowed to hit you. If I do something against your rules then that annoying little imp toad thing can hit me over the head with that stupid staff of his, deal?" I asked, wanting some sort of safety from him.
Sesshoumaru thought about it for a minute and then picked up my vest.
"I do not make deals with humans like you."
"Alright, then we'll just call them consequences," I said with a cocky smile on my face.
'If I make this deal with him, then maybe I can make it out of here with only a few goose eggs and bruises.'
"You break my rules and I am able to touch you. Otherwise you will be untouched."
'His terms are evil. If I agree to them then I am more likely to end up being his whore, but if I don't, then I could end up being his whore anyway, only sooner. Fine, I'll agree to him.' I winced at the though and then sighed.
"Fine. I really don't like you," I grumbled, taking the vest from him and walking into the castle.
Sesshoumaru followed, knowing that I had no idea where I was supposed to go.
'Damn it. I figured I could get away from him but he's figured out that I have no idea where I am going. This is great, just great.' I walked down a hallway and then felt Sesshoumaru take hold of my wrists. I was about to yell at him and as him what he was doing but he covered my mouth and pulled me against him. My heart was racing with Sesshoumaru's arm around my ribcage and it felt like it stopped when someone's voice broke the silence.
"Lord Sesshoumaru, nice to see you and…" a young lady said with a smile until she saw me in his arms.
She seemed rather depressed to see him holding a human in his arms rather than a young demon woman. 'What is he doing? Who is this woman?'
"Go back on your way Sata. I'm taking this wench back to her chamber where she will remain until I call for her," Sesshoumaru growled kind of softly.
'Is he trying to give me a hint about something?' Looking at him with a cold glare, I saw that he was looking at the Sata girl.
"Oh, so this is your prisoner. A little mortal girl trapped in lord Sesshoumaru's castle," Sata laughed at me.
I felt a blow to my pride. Just because I was a girl, didn't mean that I didn't have any. 'I really want to beat the crap out of her! Damn it, she's here too so who does she think she's talking about anyway?' I started to struggle against Sesshoumaru as I tried to break free and hit the girl in front of me.
"Have fun with her lord Sesshoumaru. Trying to break that human could be difficult, even for you!" Sata laughed as she turned and walked away.
When she was gone, Sesshoumaru released me and I stumbled forward.
"What is she? Some personal suck up or something? She thinks I'm some stupid little whore, your stupid little whore!" I cried out, extremely pissed off at her.
Sesshoumaru smirked slightly, watching my face as I freaked out. He could smell my anger while I was still in his arms.
"I didn't know that you would become angry with her thinking you are mine. The women in this castle would be honored to have me mate with them," he said calmly, waiting for me to get even angrier.
"Yeah, well, why don't you go do that then! Give back my dad's sunglasses and allow me to go home. So screw one of them and have them instead!"
'I don't belong in this place. I don't want to be here either. Mom's probably freaking out without me there and I really miss Kai.' Turning around, I looked at the ground and took a deep breath.
"Just take me to that stupid room and leave me alone. I want to go to sleep."
Without a word, Sesshoumaru started to lead the way down the hall. It wasn't long before we had reached his room and then my own.
"As I said before, do not leave unless you are called or sent for," he said as he opened the door and allowed me to go in.
"Alright. Goodnight," I replied on instinct, forgetting who I was talking to.
I shut the door behind me and then slid to the floor against it. 'Why did I say goodnight to him? I hate his guts! I know that I am a girl and that I should be all over him, but I have my rights to knowing what and who I desire.' I thought as I crossed my arms. Letting my eyes wander around the room, I glanced at different things through the darkness. There was a futon mattress off to the corner of the room, something like a closet door to the right, and a pile of clothes beside the bed. 'If he expects me to wear these clothes, then there's a fat chance of that happening! In fact, there a huge fat chance that I'll do anything he tells me to do. I'm not going to spend the rest of my life listening to some egotistical jerk!'
"First thing tomorrow, I'm going to show that jerk wad just what I'm made of. Nobody pushes this one around and gets away with it!" I whispered to myself.
Getting to my feet unsteadily, I walked over to the futon mattress that was perfectly made and then fell onto my knees. 'I'll be a pain in the ass tomorrow, and then we'll see what he has to say about it.' I thought as I fell face first into the blankets. My face was buried in the blankets with my arms stretched out to my sides. Slowly, with the peaceful sound of crickets, I fell asleep and started to dream again.
"Accept me. You have come of age, Rika. Accept your family's bloodline," a voice came to me like an echo.
"Why? Who are you?" I whispered.
"The demon in your blood wishes to be free. I wish to be set free."
"Demon?" I whispered with some confusion.
"Accept your age and accept me. Do not deny what is meant to happen. Whether you come of age or are dragged into it, I will be in your blood," the voice said with a small laugh into the dark nothingness.
"What if I accept once I am ready? What would happen then?" I wondered, trying to see through the darkness.
"Then tomorrow it shall be."
"Tomorrow?" I whispered, in both the dream and while I was sleeping.
"What do you mean tomorrow? What's going on tomorrow?" a familiar voice shouted happily into my ears.
Waking up, I opened my eyes to see that I was thrown all over the futon mattress. My legs were tangled in the sheets and my arms were spread out with the pillow in my left hand. 'Cankai?'
There she was, right beside me, with a wide smile on her face.
"What?" I whispered with some confusion.
"You said tomorrow. What's going on tomorrow?"
'A dream. It was just a stupid dream!'
"Nothing. It was nothing more than a stupid dream!"
Cankai laughed and then handed me some clothes.
"Well anyway, the lord requested that you wear these and I doubt you will," she laughed.
"He can wear his own clothes, because I'm not."
Again Cankai laughed but then got to her feet to leave. 'Why is she here anyway? All she did was ask me what was going on tomorrow.'
"Figured as much. Anyway, lord Sesshoumaru is still in his chamber and won't be out for a while. If you want the time to do whatever, now would be the time to do it."
"Thanks Cankai. I guess I'll see you later then," I said quietly, watching her leave.
"Thanks for not getting me in trouble yesterday. You know for a human, you're not half bad."
With that said Cankai left the room and did bother to take the clothes with her. 'That dream I had, that sounded like Clouse's voice. Was that her demon blood talking to me?' I felt heat coming to my face and I lifted my hand to my forehead.
"I'm coming now."
'It's coming again. If it stays, will I still be able to go home?' I heard the door open and I used my free hand to pull the covers over my head.
"Wake up human. I wish to tell you the rules of my castle," Sesshoumaru said with a slightly agitated tone.
"I have a name. Can you please try and use it!" I replied, annoyed with his company.
For my comment, the covers were pulled off my head and I had to cover my eyes with my hand to keep the sunlight out of them. 'Why does he always have to come around at times like these? It's really annoying!'
"Rika then. Does my presence annoy you?" Sesshoumaru asked mockingly.
"You know, if mocking is your way of flirting, then you do a really bad job at finding girls. Then again, what the hell am I talking about, I mean, haha, I don't even know how to flirt!" I chuckled slightly, mocking both him and myself.
"Already breaking a rule I see." He said calmly.
'Breaking a rule? Wait… that deal we made last night! I completely forgot about that stupid thing!' I felt him grab my hand that was on my head and pull me up to look at him.
"First rule, do what is asked of you. Without even knowing the rule, you have already broken it."
'Whose fault is that? I'm here against my will and he doesn't tell me anything about his rules.'
"Well sorry Mr. High and Mighty," I replied sarcastically.
Removing my hand from my eyes, I looked at Sesshoumaru curiously. I wanted to see the look on his face to my words. Suddenly, Sesshoumaru took hold of both my wrists and then pulled me against his chest.
"Okay I get the picture! If I do it again you'll touch my body as you wish. I get it alright, so let go!" I cried, trying to struggle against his tight hold.
He was holding me with one arm and I still couldn't fight against him. 'This is retarded! Are demons that much stronger than humans?'
"It was part of the terms. Break my rules and I am able to touch you. Was that not what we agreed to?"
"Does it count if you never tell me the rules? Does it!" I asked with some agitation.
Sesshoumaru knew that I had a point, but he wasn't going to give this chance away. Once he would tell me the rules, he knew that I would try not to break them.
"You have still broken my rules, and you will not go unpunished," he said all too calmly.
'Damn it. How the hell am I gunna get out of this one? Think Rika, think! What do boys hate? If I kick him in the nuts then that would just get him mad at me. Haku hates it when I ignore him, but he's a little brother, and Sesshoumaru doesn't look like he's ten!' I could feel Sesshoumaru's hand tracing down my side.
"Lay back," he whispered into my ears.
"What?... No!"
"Lay back," he demanded.
Hearing the harshness of his voice, I the muscles in my back became less tense and allowed Sesshoumaru to lay me on my back. 'If he eve dares to touch inside of me again, then there's no way in hell that I'll listen to his rules again!' Sesshoumaru was staring down at me with somewhat intrigued eyes. Looking at his eyes, I watched as they traveled to my lips, to my neck, and then my chest.
"What are you staring at?" I asked with harshness.
With my words, his eyes looked back up at me.
"Such a mature body, for an immature child."
'What did he just call me!'
"Did you just call me a child? Interesting, because then you would be screwing a child!" I mocked with anger.
"A child demands for what it wants until it gets what it wants. If you are a proper woman, you would do what was asked of you," Sesshoumaru said as his eyes slowly fell back onto my lips.
"Freedom rights! Women can do whatever the hell they want! Men can't control everything even though they think they can. They demand that we get everything for them while they just sit on the couch and watch television al day with their fat ass!" I said so loudly that it was almost a shout.
Everything seemed silent except my heart and breathing. Nothing was going through my mind at that moment until I decided to add to my outburst.
"And they do this to women all the time. Force them or trick them into screwing around with them…"
Before I could finish, Sesshoumaru cut me off by capturing my mouth with his lips. His hands were on both of my writs near my head. There was a small growl coming from his throat as he had me trapped underneath him. I didn't notice that my mouth was slightly until I felt Sesshoumaru's tongue touch against my own. 'He's kissing me! Perverted jerk that seems like a nice guy until you talk to him!' Trying to push him away with my arms, Sesshoumaru only took a tighter hold of my wrists and started to press his nails to my skin. He pulled away from me and then put his mouth next to my ear.
"Mating with you was not part of our deal. If I were to do such, I would have claimed you and attempted to pup you several times already," Sesshoumaru whispered tauntingly, gently nipping the top of my ear.
I winced slightly and closed my eyes, turning my head away from him. Slowly Sesshoumaru's warm breath traveled to my neck and then his lips gently touched against it. 'Why does he have to be so much stronger than me? Aw man, why didn't I stick to my karate class instead of just baseball?' My heart was pounding and I didn't want to admit that I was afraid of him.
"Are you done yet? Don't you have someone else to get your kicks from?" I asked bravely, daring to take the chance of him doing something more.
When Sesshoumaru started to go lower, I started to panic. He released my hands and then pulled my vest out so it was open.
"Do not attempt to push me away, Rika. If you do then I won't be held responsible for my actions," he said calmly, looking down at my slightly shaking body.
I opened my eyes to see him once again looking over my body. Then his hands started to lift my shirt and he stopped before my chest. 'This guy is a total perv!' Before I could lift my arms from the ground, Sesshoumaru took hold of them and slowly kissed at my flesh.
"Go away. Stop! Just let me go!" I demanded as I tried to squirm out of his hold.
"The heat from before suddenly came back and I lost control of myself. I turned my body and pinned Sesshoumaru underneath me.
"Don't touch me!" I growled, once again digging my claws into his shoulders.
"You accepted me. I'm finally free!" I heard the voice inside my head.
"Half breed, you have come of age. Clouse's demon blood now flows through your veins," he explained, looking at my eyes with some interest.
A small pain went through my arms and fingers as my nails grew into claws. A pulse came from my body and everything froze. 'Go away! This hurts, my nails are killing me and there's a huge pain in my teeth right now!' Then there was another pulse and I fell onto my butt, in between Sesshoumaru's legs. Small whimpers come from me as I covered my ribs with both arms and grabbed my shirt with the need to rip something apart.
Sesshoumaru got onto his knees and looked closely at the pain I was in. He could smell a change and the amount of pain that was now flowing through my body. In some strange way, he was interested in what was happening but he also didn't know if he felt anything towards it. Lifting a hand, he placed it on my forehead with his fingers through my bangs.
"D… don't touch me!" I whispered, trying to refrain from attacking him once again.
"A half breed. A half breed with dirty blood. That's what you're becoming. This makes me wonder, which do you take after, your mother or your father," Sesshoumaru whispered as he looked at my face.
I opened one eye to look at him for a moment and then closed it again.
"I guess that y-you didn't have to go through t-this then, since you're a cocky demon," I mocked, trying to forget about what was happening to me.
"Half breeds don't go through this much pain when they transform between human and their normal selves. You are an interesting child from a different world."
'I can't take this anymore. It hurts too much!'
"Damn it," I cursed quietly.
"Pain can easily be taken away, though I can't take all of it away from you," Sesshoumaru said into my ear, slightly rubbing my forehead with his thumb.
"Fine, whatever just make it stop!"
Once again, his lips were pressed to mine and his tongue was inside my mouth. It touched my fangs gently, allowing the gums to heal with its touch. I could feel Sesshoumaru's hand release my forehead and travel to the back of my head. 'Why does it feel different this time? It almost feels comforting, but… I still don't like this. I don't want him to do this!' His other hand felt my side and then traveled to my chest. When I realized what he was trying to do, I let go of my left side and tried to push him away. Sesshoumaru felt one breast gently and then he started to actually kiss me. The pain in my gums was gone but the pain in my ribs didn't go away. I started to punch his chest to get him to let me go. 'Pervert! Dirty sick pervert!' When he let me go, I fell back and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand.
"Pervert," I cursed at him.
Sesshoumaru stood to his feet and then turned towards the doorway.
"Second rule, do not wander around the castle unattended. Demons would like to kill you for being in their presence. Third rule, no wandering the castle at night. If you listen to these rules, I will have no reason to harm you that way," he explained with his cold voice before walking out of the room.
"That jerk," I grumbled, holding my sides once again.
My heart was pounding from panic and the pain wasn't as bad as it was before. Getting to my feet, I walked to the corner of the room and curled into a ball. I didn't want to be seen by anyone. 'I feel dirty, guilty. How could I just sit there and let him do that to me! I feel like I'm some whore! Is it because Clouse was used like that? Or is it because I'm her worthless reincarnation?' Closing my eyes, I fell back to sleep for a short while. After an hour passed, I woke back up to a banging sound from outside. 'What is that?' There was a window near the door that looked like a closet and it caught my eye. 'The sun's out today. Maybe I should climb out the window and sit out there for a while.' I unsteadily got to my feet and realized that my ribs didn't hurt anymore. I looked at my nails to see that they were longer and sharper than they were before. 'How is that possible? Is it because of the demon in my blood?' The thought interested me in what else may have changed besides my nails. Then my eyes wandered further up my right arm to see that markings had appeared there. They were blue and looked like the strips on Sesshoumaru's face. 'Everywhere that hurt has changed some how. My claws, my arms, and my ribs!' At the thought, I quickly lifted my shirt to see the same kind of strips on both sides of my ribs.
"That's can't be good," I whispered, letting my shirt fall back down.
The banging noise from outside was becoming more annoying, and I wanted to find out what was going on. 'Who is that?' I wondered as I ran towards the window. Gazing outside, I saw Cankai fighting another person with sticks. The other person seemed to be a boy and about my age. 'Why would Cankai be fighting a boy? Isn't it against the laws or something for a woman to do those kinds of things? Not that I'm really complaining.' With a small smile on my face, I opened the window and stuck my head out to feel the cool breeze against my face.
"This place is nice. It'd be better if I wasn't being held here against my will though," I whispered to myself as I rested both of my arms on the windowsill.
There was a knock at my door and it disturbed me from my thoughts.
"Human child, the lord demands your presence. Why he would wish to have a weak human like you in his presence is beyond me!"
I went over to the door and opened it, leaning on the doorway in the process.
"Weak human?" I mocked with a small smirk, showing my fangs.
The toad was in shock and then he gripped his staff tightly, as if afraid of something.
"The half breed has come back to life! She's come back to haunt the lord!" Jaken cried with fear in his voice.
'What?' I laughed at him.
"You look exactly like that dreaded woman! You're eyes have become the same icy blue!" he accused.
'My eyes? I think this gay guy has been in the sun a little too long. Maybe the sun fried what little brains he had.'
"Look. I'm Rika okay! I'm nothing like Clouse! How could you know what she looks like anyway? I don't remember you even being there when Sesshoumaru killed her!"
"So I was hiding in the bushes, big deal!"
'Whatever, I can't take this ignoramus anymore. I'm going outside and avoiding Sesshoumaru for as long as I can.'
I walked out of the room and shut the door behind me, knowing my own luck on getting 'in trouble' for it. When I was about to walk in the direction I had ran before. Jaken almost tripped me with his huge head.
"Where do you think you're going? The lord is expecting you in his chambers!"
"Uh yeah, hello, his room it right there you stupid toad! I've barely been here and I know that," I said with anger towards Sesshoumaru even though he wasn't there.
'I just want to go outside and stay there!'
"Jaken, what seems to be the problem?" Sesshoumaru's voice came from behind Jaken and me.
'Has he been there the whole time?'
"I'm out of here. The smell of that toad was bad enough. At least if I'm outside then there's a fresh breeze," I grumbled, not glancing back.
Without a care about denying the rules about wandering alone, I ran in the direction I had the previous night. 'This is too weird for me. I want to go home and play my video games. Whatever I did to get stuck in this place, I'm really sorry!' A few minutes of running and I had reached the doors to go outside. Before I opened the doors, I could hear Cankai and the boy laughing together as well as sticks banging together. Opening the doors, I saw a close up of the strange boy and was slightly surprised. 'How is that possible?'
"Kai?"
End of Chapter 4
: ) : ) Hello again! I hope you all really liked that chapter. I know this story makes Sesshoumaru look kind of evil, but I don't mean to make it that way. It just falls into the story line. My friend Cassie read pretty much the whole thing because she was stuck at school for a whole day after exams and I kind of went home, but I gave her the book and she really doesn't like Sesshoumaru and today she told me that the story makes Sesshoumaru look evil and that she hates him even more now. : ( : ( Now that hurt this author's feelings. No, I'm just kidding, I laughed at her. Thank you all for putting up with me for not updating as soon as I should. Now that school is over I swear that I'll try to update more often. Please R&R and I'll update soon. : ) : )
