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People Mean it when they Say Truth Hurts

The silver haired man walked into the priestess' hut and the woman left. 'Why is he here? I said I would meet him at the open place.' My blue eyes looked towards his hand where he seemed to be holding something. Petting Haven to calm it down, I looked away and waited for him to say something.

"You like to sleep in I see," he said before walking to be in front of me.

"What concern of it is yours? It's not like I know you," I whispered coldly, not caring about why he would come here.

"As I said before, I was the one who erased your memories so you could live a happier life. If you were to know what I had done to you, then you would hate this place even more," he said solemnly.

At those words, I froze for a second. 'He knows everything.'

"Why would you do that? I hate you for doing that to me! I can't remember anything. I don't remember my own family, or who I would liked, or where I lived! How do you think you would feel if someone would take that away from you?" I yelled at him, wanting to start crying again.

The man dropped what he was holding onto my lap and then looked at me with intent eyes.

"They were yours. You dropped them when you were running from me. If you desire so badly to go home, put them on and fall," he growled rather coldly.

''I knew he hated me. All that time I think I've felt something towards him, but why? If I knew that he hated me, why would I feel anything?' My heart still hurt for seeing Clouse with that demon all over her.

"What am I to you? If you erased my memories because you hurt me, then why would you even bother to show up again?" I asked, closing my eyes so I couldn't see his coldness.

'Why do I even care if he hates me? I mean, there must be someone else around here who I like.'

When he didn't answer at first, I figured that he wasn't going to tell me, but then he moved a little closer to me and I heard footsteps.

"Go west until you reach a small opening. I will wait for you there. These mortals don't wish for my presence, and I do not wish for theirs. If you want an answer, come alone, even without that creature of yours," he said as he placed a hand on my head for a second before walking away.

Haven let out a large growl when the demon left, and then sat in my lap with small shakes.

"Go west until you reach a small opening. I will wait for you there," his voice echoed through my mind.

Shaking my head, I fell onto my back and closed my eyes. 'Meet him at an opening? Well I guess I can always just follow his scent. It probably wouldn't be too hard since he smells so good…' I stopped at the thought and opened my eyes slightly. Lifting a hand to my lips, I touched where he had kissed me the night before. 'Damn I feel so stupid! I hate him, but I feel so close to him, like I had fallen in love with him a while ago.' My heart pounded within my chest at the thought of the silver haired man.

"I don't even know his name," I whispered to myself shamefully.

Haven walked up my chest and looked down at my face.

"Kyu?"

"Yeah, I'm going. Sorry I can't take you with me Haven. I really wish I could," I said with a small smile.

Haven kissed my cheek with a small lick, knowing that I wasn't lying about it. Over the short time that I had known Haven, which wasn't very long, I had figured that I was quite content with having the creature around.

Picking Haven up in one hand, I sat up and looked at the clothes that were on my lap. 'There's one thing missing. I don't know what it is, but I feel like something important is missing from these clothes.' With a sigh, I got to my feet and looked around to make sure no one else was around.

"Mom, I really like this outfit! Can I get it please?"

"Why would you want something so guyish?"

"Because I'm going into high school and I don't want to be like all those other girls who wear skirts with their uniforms!"

With that memory floating through me head, I put on the clothes that the man had given me. They were comfortable, even more so than the ones I had been wearing when I had woken up the previous day.

"Alright then, I don't know when I'll be coming back, but I don't think it will take that long, alright?"

"Kyu!"

With a smile on my face, I took off towards the west where I had been told to meet the man. The people of the village were staring at me. They had heard from the priestess that I was part demon, but they were also staring because of my strange attire. 'What's their problem?' I wondered, stopping for a moment to look at all the people.

"Whatever," I grumbled before running once again.

It wasn't hard trying to find the spot that was described because the silver haired demon's scent was all over and I could smell my way to where he wanted me to be. Jumping into a tree right before the opening, I sat and watched as the silver haired demon sat against a tree trunk with one leg half bent and the other straight. 'I wonder that he's thinking about…' Before I could finish the thought, his golden amber eyes opened and e looked around the area.

"I know you're there half breed, show yourself," he demanded while getting to his feet.

'He knew I was here the whole time.'

"I don't know, I think I'm pretty comfortable up here," I said with a small laugh.

"If you want your answer then you'll come down to me," he said with a taunting tone.

'Damn he's good.' I jumped down from the tree branch and appeared in the opening.

"Then tell me your answer, what am I to you and why did you choose to come back?" I asked with a smirk on my face.

I didn't walk closer to him, I didn't move from where I was standing in case I had found that he really did hate me.

"To me, you are all there is to see," he replied, disappearing from my sight.

As if picking up his movements with my ears, I went to turn around and then felt someone pull me against his chest. 'What is he doing?'

"When you ran into me, I desired to hold you, desired to feel you against me," he said into me ear, wrapping both arms around my front.

My heart started pounding with his closeness and I almost felt my knees give out.

"I don't even know your name, how can you even want me?" I asked, giving myself strength to stand up.

I could feel his warm breath against my neck as he held me to him.

"If you knew my name, your memories would return to you and then you would return to your world," he whispered to me.

"I want to know it, I wish to know it the name of the man I want," I replied, closing my eyes tightly.

For a moment, all things were silent except for the beating of my heart and the sound of his in my ear. The demon's scent surrounded me, and it smelt relaxing to me. I was confused when he suddenly let go of me and jumped backwards slightly. 'What is wrong with him?' Watching, I saw him reach into his sash and pull out a black and red object. 'Those. Those are what are missing!'

"Mom, where's dad? Why won't he come home?"

"He's not coming home Rika, I can't tell you why. Take these so he can remain alive for you. They were his sunglasses…"

"These were also yours," he said, handing the so called 'sunglasses' out to me.

Taking them into my hand, a picture of a man came to mind and I could hear his voice.

"I'm proud of you Rika."

'Father…' I thought as tears started to fall from my eyes.

"My name is Sesshoumaru, and I was the one who erased your memory from you. If you had never met me, you would have had a happy life," he said solemnly, about to turn and walk away.

At the mention of his name, I froze and then a flooding of hell flowed into my mind. It hurt, remembering everything. I remembered the day my father died, how my mom cried and it hurt to see her do so. Then I remembered how much hate I had towards Chase for what he did to my mom. Kai was the last thing I remembered, nothing about where I was or what had happened here, only Kai and going to baseball. There were also the dreams that I had been having, but they didn't seem to matter. 'Why do my arms burn? Why does my heart hurt so badly?' I fell to my knees and placed both of my hands over my ears. After a few minutes, everything was silent, no one was speaking and my arms were still burning. Looking at the person in front of me, I had a confused look on my face.

"I… don't know where I am. Your name, Sesshoumaru, why do I feel that I know it?"

"You do know it, just as I know you. Now leave this place if you wish so badly to go home," Sesshoumaru replied coldly, walking towards to west.

'My heart is pounding because of this guy, but why? What did he ever do for me?' Shaking my head slightly, the memories of Sesshoumaru came flooding back and so did the words that he said to me

"Know that I loved you."

Getting to my feet, I looked at him with unsure eyes. Hate was there but there was something else with it, something stronger. I ran after Sesshoumaru and he didn't seem to notice. Suddenly, I wrapped my arms around him from the back and closed my eyes tightly, not regretting anything I had done.

"You know what you said before? Before you erased everything? I did too, alright? I admit it. I said that I hated it when you touched me, but it made me feel normal because I knew Kai might never do it," I said into his back.

Sesshoumaru stopped walking and I felt his back tense slightly.

"How? How can you forgive everything that I've done?" he asked solemnly.

"Before, when you said that you had loved me, I realized that I was wrong about you," I whispered, almost burying my face into Sesshoumaru's back.

'I know that I sound stupid! I know that all this is stupid, but it's not my fault! I know that Kai would never really make a move, but I don't know if I'll ever see him again and if I do, I don't know how I'd feel about him anymore.' I tightened my hold around his back as I could feel the burning of the markings on my arms become harder to bear.

"Rika, if you do not wish to live a life here, then you should live a life in your world," Sesshoumaru said solemnly.

"I do want to go home, but not without you Sesshoumaru. I… I… Damn it… I love you alright? I admit it, isn't that proof enough?" I growled at myself for being so stupid.

Without warning, Sesshoumaru pulled my arms off him and then I felt him take hold of my neck and back. His lips were pressed to mine and I felt his tongue touch against my bottom lip. 'I don't really know why I changed my mind about him. I do, but it doesn't really make any sense.' I didn't permit Sesshoumaru to do what he wanted and then he pulled away from me. Everything started to become blurry and then I had the feeling that I was falling again. 'What is this? Am I going home?' I didn't feel Sesshoumaru's hands against me anymore and I felt my heart sink. 'I guess this means I'll never get to see Sesshoumaru again.' I blacked out and everything became none existent and silent.


Sesshoumaru stood where he was, alone, feeling anger flowing through him but he kept it under control.

"She went home. She finally accepted me and now she's gone," he growled hatefully.

He wanted to go into a blind rage and destroy everything in his path, but as a lord, he knew how to control his inner demon. He could smell that Haven's scent had disappeared from where it was and that had upset him even more. Something moved in the trees and Sesshoumaru used his whip to kill it since he knew it was nothing more than a normal wolf.

"My lord! My lord where are you? That half breed you were chasing left something strange at the castle! Did you kill her lord Sesshoumaru?" the annoying voice of Jaken came to his ears.

"What did she leave behind Jaken?" Sesshoumaru replied, slightly interested in what could have been left in his castle.

"My lord, these things are so bad with the scent of the once mortal! They wreak of her human flesh!" the imp's voice came again.

"Bring it to me. Maybe then I'll be able to find her again."

The imp ran towards Sesshoumaru as fast as he could and then tripped over a stick which made him fall and throw the object ahead of him. Bending down, Sesshoumaru picked them up by their laces and looked them over.

"Her shoes. This gives me a link to her," he whispered to himself as he looked the shoes over.

Jaken was right. They did smell of human flesh, but they also smelled of feet sweat which made them wreak.

"Half breed, I will find you again."


"Rika? Rika wake up! Come on!" a voice said into my unconsciousness, taking me out of sleep.

"Big sis, wake up! Kai's been calling your name for like an hour!" Haku's voice shouted into my ears.

'Haku? Am I home?' I opened my eyes slightly and saw Haku's face with tears running down it.

"What happened? Why are you crying?" I asked Haku with confusion.

Suddenly I was pulled to a sitting position and someone attacked me with a hug. 'Is that Kai?'

"You disappeared and Kai was worried about you. When he went looking he found you, lying pretty much in the middle of nowhere," my mother's voice said with happiness.

I felt Kai's grip tighten around me and his head was on my shoulder, almost against the curve of my neck. 'I'm at home, on the couch. Kai's hugging me and I'm liking it, but it doesn't feel the same as it should. I missed him, I really did, but now I want to see Sesshoumaru again.' I didn't want to cry, but I felt lighter. Like a sense guilt had been lifted from me.

"I… I'm sorry. I really am! I didn't mean to, but he took them from me, and I had to get them back! I couldn't… I couldn't just leave my dad's memory there!" I cried, tears flowing down my cheeks.

'I can't believe that I'm crying again. Why do I feel like I'm so heavy all the time?'

"I'm sorry," I whispered again.

"Come on Haku, let's leave them alone," my mother said with another smile.

Both Haku and my mother left the kitchen and Kai held me tightly against him.

I looked down at Kai with some confusion.

"You're crying too, are you? That doesn't suit you at all," I laughed slightly.

"I thought I'd lost you, that I'd never be able to see your face again," he whispered.

"But I came back. So come on, smile again. I hate it when you're not happy."

Kai let me go and pushed me slightly with a smile.

"And crying doesn't suit you, miss hides all secrets," he laughed with a smile.

I was happy to see him happy. It made me feel more at home than anything else. 'Now it feels like it should, even though my heart feels rather heavy.' I forced a smile to my face and looked away to hide my own guilt.

"You're right, it doesn't suit me," I replied.

A few moments passed before I could ask anything.

"Kai, can I ask you something?"

"Absolutely anything you wish to know!" h replied happily.

'I wish to know. I'll spend my life wondering if I don't find out right now…'

"Do you… do you like me?" I whispered, afraid of the answer.

The question had surprised Kai and then he laughed to himself for his foolishness.

"I do. That's why I'm always worried about you all the time. You've taken everything too seriously ever since Haku was born and your mom was left with both of you. That's why I always freak out when you do something stupid!" he laughed at me.

I froze at those words, because I had longed to hear those words for so long.

'It hurts, but why?'

"You're my best friend, how could I not like you?" he laughed.

"Right, you're best friend," I laughed nervously.

'That's why it hurts so much. He didn't mean it like I thought he did.'

"Alright, let me get up already. I want to go for a walk," I said quietly, wanting to be left alone with my sorrows.

"I'll go with you then. There's no way that I can let you disappear on me again."

"Don't worry. I have to real reason to want to go back. I don't want to go back, I just… want to be left alone," I whispered as I got to my feet.

'I'm lying to him and myself. I know I'm lying to myself because I want to see Sesshoumaru again.' Looking towards the doorway, I became distant.

"Mom, I'm going for a walk. I'll be back soon! Kai, thank you for looking for me, and I'll see you later," I told him, lowering my voice at the end.

With that, I went to the door, put on my sandals, and went outside. 'I've never been so confused before. I mean, I've always like Kai and then I met Sesshoumaru. I hated him for taking me away from everything, but when he touched the inside of me like that, touched me like I mattered… I felt drawn to him. Do I lust after Sesshoumaru, or do I really want to be with him? I hate this feeling so much!'

"Hey, how have you been?" one guy said into a phone.

"Rika, long time no see. I thought you were missing," a familiar voice said to em with mockery.

"Go to hell Chase or I'll make you!" I growled, clenching my fists hatefully.

'I don't need this ass after me too! I just don't need anyone to be around right now!'

"Touchy as always I see."

"Screw you! Get the hell away from me before I hit you!" I demanded.

Chase didn't move and I snapped. I dropped down, tripped him, and then punched his stomach multiple times until someone took hold of my stomach and lifted me off the unconscious man.

"Do you always do things like this, half breed?"

At first I was going to attack the person holding me off the ground until I realized who it was. 'Sesshoumaru. How'd he get here?'

"Leave me alone. I can't think straight when you're around," I said solemnly.

"Why should I when I came to your world to have you? Now that you've accepted me to mate with you, I will not let you escape me," he replied tauntingly.

'Mate! What!'

"I did not say that I wanted to do that with you. I said that I loved you!"

"As I said before, one cannot love, only desire something. You desire me," he growled even more tauntingly.

"You tricked me into falling in love with you! You…" I started with a shout.

"Did I Rika? You gave into those emotions of yours and convinced yourself that you enjoyed my company, enjoyed my touching."

'No. He's confusing me again! Damn it, why does this have to be so hard?' I started to kick my feet with demand to be put down on my own feet.

"Enough. Or I will take you in front of all these mortals. I will pleasure you until you scream my name and beg for me," Sesshoumaru growled tauntingly again.

"If you do, then I will never forgive you for what you've done," I threatened back.

Sesshoumaru was silent for a moment and realized that he was doing what he was before. 'Why is he acting this way?'

"Take me to where you live and we shall live together in either world. I will live here with you if you so choose. I was wrong. One can love because I love you."

My heart stopped and my face became red.

"I love you too Sesshoumaru. We can live together here, but I will not be the one responsible for what may happen," I replied with a small smile.

'I now know that I do love Sesshoumaru, even if he doesn't really love me back. After all, if the truth from Kai hurts, then Sesshoumaru's truth may not be so bad.'

End of Final Chapter

Hello again. : ) : ) I really hope that you all enjoyed that last chapter. I'm actually kind of sad that this one is over because I spent like all of gr. 9 writing it when I could. Lol. Even though I'm in gr. 10 now. Lol. So yeah, thanks again to all readers and reviewers. I seriously appreciate it. : ) : ) Once again, if you want me to either: post another chapter or write a one shot, just tell me and I'll try to write one. Lol. : ) : ) Bye, bye for now! Please R&R!