Chapter 5
Ben P.O.V.
MAL!
I ran to her bedroom door and opened the door brutally. Her glass wall was covered making the room practically pitch black not including the small strands of the moons light coming through. I found Mal fisting her blanket, thrashing around in her bed with sobs and whimpers leaving her lips every so often followed by pleas and cries. She moved her head, left and right as she continued to have the nightmare and tears began to fall.
I stood there with my hands trembling and eyes not wanting to believe what I was seeing.
It hurt.
It fucking hurt!
I held her door frame trying not to break down. The clenching in my heart seemed to be the only thing I could feel. I tried to take steps towards her, but every step got harder and harder. I felt all the weight that I carried come down, the guilt, the regret, the sorrow, and the anger, everything came crashing down as I watched her trash around, I couldn't breathe! The pain didn't seem to go away, and at this point, I wasn't sure if it was mine or Mal's. I stood next to Mal with a hand over her head, hesitating. I swallowed hard. And took a deep breath closing my eyes.
Should I pull her into my lap?
Should I rock her?
Should I caress her?
Will she even let me touch her?
How can I make it all go away?
I moved to kneel next to her and shook her gently as I called out her name. She didn't open her eyes right away but when she did, she brutally opened her eyes and took a deep breath, fisting the sheets harder than she had before, her eyes had this wild look in her green eyes, mixed alert and relief along with fear. She looked around the room scared and alert before her eyes landed on mine. Her eyes widen before she started to shake, her eyes began to fill with tears just ready to be let go as she moved farther from me. As if I was going to hurt her.
I stood up, she flinched.
I sat on the bed, the tears fell.
I reached my hand to caress her, she shut her eyes tight letting out a whimper.
I rested both my hands on her cheeks and just feeling her shake I felt a lump in my throat
"Mal" I whispered her name, "Open your beautiful eyes... it's okay you're safe." her heavy breathing slowed a bit more, "You're not in the Isle anymore. He can't hurt you" she stopped shaking, "do you remember what I told you? I told you that you are safe here and that no one would hurt you" she relaxed her eyes but the tears kept falling "Not even me." that was the last straw before she crumpled, taking advantage of this, I pulled her into my lap. Leaning against me, she let it all out. She cried into my chest, fisted my dress shirt, screamed into my chest, punched me in the chest, she let it all out. I blinked back tears as I kissed her purple hair and rubbed her back. I inhaled her scent, savoring having her close to me, I missed this so much.
"You're safe." I rocked her back and forth while saying comforting words to her. Once her sniffling began to die down, I picked her up I pulled her blanket and laid her on her bed before trying to pull my arm from behind her shoulders and laying the blanket on top of her. I caressed her cheeks and moved her hair from her face before whispering the words 'you're safe' again. Turning to leave, I didn't make it far before she pulled on my finger. I looked back at her, she was staring at me with red puffy eyes blinking back her sleepiness, she looked so heartbroken, so hurt, so scared but she didn't say anything she just kept looking at me with those big green eyes.
"Do you want me to say with you?" She looked at me for a minute before nodding her head hesitantly I gave her a smile before turning on her lights on her headboard that inside each stem and rose design and pulling her chaise chair next to her bed and grabbing a blanket, I all through this process I made sure to look at Mal to see if she was okay with everything. I wanted so badly to snuggle with her to have her right next to me but I knew I had to take things slow, Mal is still Mal but she needs time. She needs to know that she can trust me and it's not something I can control, she just needs time. And tonight just proved that. The lights turned on I think helped her keep some thoughts away, she turned to look at me before burrowing into the blankets and turning her back towards me. I looked around the room before picking up a book and sitting down on the chaise, soon enough tiny snores were coming from a ball in the bed. Turning my attention to Mal I gave her a small kiss on the forehead and muttered two words,
"You're safe"
Surprisingly when I woke up, I found it was the best yet worst sleep I had ever had. When the light of the sun hit me, I had woken up my arm that has been stretched to touch Mal, had gone numb and my neck had been sore from sleeping with my neck leaned against my left shoulder but it was fine because the first thing I saw was the messy hair of my beautiful purple dragon and had made me feel better than I had in a while, her presence here just here made me feel like it was a breath of fresh air.
Getting up was harder than I thought because while they were sleeping Mal managed to pull my wrist to reach her and had practically curled herself around my arm as she held it close to her. Mal had even managed to move from the center of the bed where I had put her near the edge close to falling onto the chaise chair I had been sitting on. I smiled softly at my sleeping princess before getting up and pulling my arm from her grasp. As she slept, she made a face before pulling the covers closer to her and turning the other way thankfully on the left so she moved closer to the bed and not the chaise. I bent over and kissed Mal's hair before walking away and stretched my aching muscles, before making a move to leave the room and change. Once at the door, I made sure to twist the knob carefully and looked back at Mal before going to my room to change wanting to change and get dressed before Mal woke up.
thank you for reading!
this chapter is for Actizia for pointing out that I should update since I didn't last Saturday.
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I will also point out that and ugh this going to be hard for me if I EVER miss another week I promise I will update twice.
or at least try to cuz school is getting closer to me.
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Also, I might update twice for Descendants: the real movie!
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Question who is waiting for DESCENDANTS 3!
who wants a different P.O.V.?
Mal?
Evie?
Audrey?
