Spirit Lost

By moi

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'My name isn't Marie or Anna or Marien…it's Rogue…just Rogue.'

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Kitty, Piotr, Jubby, and Flea were sent to put the little ones to bed, along with Pietro.

Everyone else stayed (including Bobby who was her boyfriend and Remy who no one noticed standing in the shadows). All were staring at Rogue who found a new interest in the ground, refusing to look up.

"When Ah was sixteen Ah left home and was on the street till Ah was found out as a mutant." Rogue couldn't tell them everything that would be too dangerous. Maybe later… if there was a later.

"Ah was captured by the Friends of Humanity, an anti-mutant terrorist organization that believes in human superiority. The military base we just freed those kids from is one of the many hell holes that they've set up all around the nation. Some of their operatives brought me to a base just like the one we went to and Ah was tested on for months."

"One day a new Commander was put in charge of that base and everything was a mess for a while. Some files…went missing, and he decided to have lower level mutants share cells. That's where Ah met Marie."

"She had only been there a couple weeks but she was already feeling the effects of it all. Like meh, they tested her both power wise and physically. From what she told meh they made her touch different subjects and infect them with different diseases. Her pure heart couldn't stand it. Marie hated hurting people like that. One day she just started crying and didn't stop." She could feel the pain lifting inside her again.

"Ah was tuffer then she was, so Ah went for some of her physical testing. They neveh noticed." Rogue snorted in disgust. "To those idiots Ah was a southern brunette and the mutant named Marie. Ah never pointed them in any other direction."

"Yet Marie still didn't get any better, she almost seemed to get worse. One day she asked me what my power was and Ah told her about it. That night she begged me to absorb her, take her away from this place, but Ah couldn't and Ah told her off. She never asked again."

"We were there for another week and Ah went for another one of her physical tests fainting half way in, the soldiers threw meh back into our cell. Ah was completely out when she took off my glove and grabbed my bare hand."

"She was half way absorbed before Ah knew anything was wrong. When Ah woke up Ah tried desperately to get her off meh but she wouldn't move." Rogue was experiencing it once again. She could see Marie's determined face as she held on with all her might.

"She had dug her fingernails into the muscle in mah hand untill it bleed. Ah punched her. Ah kicked her. Ah broke her hand. Ah yelled and cursed and beat her silly, but by then she wasn't there anymore. Ah could already feel her memories combining into mine. When Ah finally absorbed her fully Ah passed out and later had to pry her broken fingers off mine."

"A couple weeks later Ah escaped to find Ah looked exactly like her. My body was completely changed and the face Ah saw in the mirror wasn't mine. The only thing that hadn't changed was my bangs and eyes. The rest was foreign to meh. Ah had been wonderin' why it had been so easy the escape. All of FoH thought Marie was dead. So Ah took on Marie's identity, dying my hair and usin' her personality form time to time. It was easier for me to be a dead girl then it was a live escapee of the Friends of Humanity's base."

"The power surge Magneto put meh through stripped the dye from mah bangs later on." Rogue explained still not meeting their eyes. "Ah was on the streets for a while but Ah was used to it. Then Ah met Logan and found a place that Ah could call mah home."

"Though at first Ah wasn't sure Ah could trust y'all so Ah kept Marie's personality up. She was a likable person easily sociable. So Ah would just pull up her personality and let her live. She's still inside of me like a thinking breathing replica of her former self only inside mah head."

"When Ah found out Ah could trust you Ah couldn't just switch Marie off. Yeh'all would get suspicious. You guys are like mah family and Ah wasn't tryin' to hurt yeh." She finally gathered all her courage and looked up into the eyes of those who were listening.

Rogue saw anger, pity, sorrow, shock, disbelief and even understanding. That's when she got to Logan, the man she thought as her father. Seeing the hurt and confusion on his face she looked away. The only other time she had seen him like this was when Jean died.

"Ah'll leave if yeh-." She started but was interrupted the professor.

"Mari-Rogue, I think we should talk in my office. Mr. Cody you may stay here as long as need but I must insist that you're attacks stop. If they do not we may have to detain you and hand you over to the authorities." Xavier stated firmly.

Cody just nodded staring down at the floor lost in thought but Rogue could see the tears threatening to fall from those dark eyes. He must be in shock, she thought as she followed Xavier out of the room.

Well this was it, he was about to officially kick her out. Oh he'd dress it up a bit saying he's worried about his students but what was there was there. It was a good thing she didn't have many personal items that she cared for.

Maybe she'd head back to Mississippi, she knew it the best. Rogue would defiantly miss Logan and Ororo and Jubby and quiet Piotr and his opposite Flea, and cute shy Jamie and sassy Psylocke and even the rebel Ray and of course little Rayne. Maybe she'd even miss Cyclops….maybe. Bobby was kind but Rogue wouldn't exactly miss him, it was more Marie's feelings then her own. Hell maybe she'd even miss Kitty, she hadn't been so bad before she had gotten that stupid little crush on Bobby.

Sitting down in the chair across from him she faced his emotionless face. "Rogue, is it?"

She just nodded.

"Yes I believe that's what you introduced yourself as when you first met us. I can see why now."

"Not to be rude or anything but if you're going to kick meh out then do it. Ah need to get packin' if Ah'm to get out of here before it gets to dark to walk." She stated truthfully.

He raised an eyebrow. "No you really are not like Marie are you?"

There was no disappointment in his voice only a slight amusement. "I'm not going to kick you out Rogue."

She couldn't stop herself. "What! But-"

"I just called you into my office to give people a little time to take this all in. I really want to help you. Rogue, Marie, whatever you wish to call yourself, you are still one of my students and your power is still not under control." He assured her kindly.

"Y-you still want to help meh? After everything Ah said?" She asked suspiciously.

A grim look passed over his face for a couple of seconds. "I believe that that was a very unfortunate accident. I trust you Rogue. I don't believe you did anything wrong and if you did everyone deserves a second chance."

"Maybe you shouldn't beh so trustful." Rogue replied trying to suppress the sorrow and anger that haunted her past.

He gave her a sad smile. "I believe that you have done enough good deeds to earn my trust. Of course there is three conditions. First you must retest with the new mutants so we might see where you're at, because I don't believe you tested at your full capabilities the first time you took it."

She smirked. "Now what would eveh give yeh that idea."

That made him raise an eyebrow. "Second you must not withhold information that would help us, such as the Friends of Humanity. We had no idea such a horrific group existed. If we had we might have been able to stop it."

Rogue nodded.

"My last condition is that you must be yourself when you're here. I will not have you hiding behind that Marie's personality anymore. Be whoever you are Rogue, I believe you have a lot to teach us."

She snorted. Oh you have no idea professor, no idea.

"Alright, Ah will agree to your conditions if you agree to mine. Ah don' want to have to bring up my past unless it's vital to a mission or your cause. Otherwise it's off limits untill Ah say so. Alright?"

"Of course." Xavier agreed. "So we have a deal then?"

Rogue held her hand out and the professor grasped it.

"But you might end up regretting your last condition Professor."

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Sorry it's a lil late. Drama's takin' a llil stroll down my lot, but I did get this typed up for yeh. Hope you enjoyed, bye y'all.

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