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Saph's PoV

Fate was either trying to kill me or I was just bad at staying out of dangerous situations. The last expedition had killed everyone in our group except Levi and I, now it was just the two of us stuck in a field. Levi's horse was dead, and mine had run off somewhere.

"Why did I chase after you!" I snarled throwing my hands in the air as we walked through the meadow. "If only I had decided to stick with everyone else, I wouldn't be stuck here with you."

Levi continued to ignore me.

It was a terrible tragedy that out of every single person in the Survey Corps, I had to end up stuck with him. We had been doing another supply run since the last one had gone so well. It wasn't even an overnight trip. The Survey Corps had started off early in the morning so we could return near the evening in time for dinner. All had been going fine until Levi had taken off to fight a small abnormal that had been off some distance aways. Without even considering my actions, I took off after him. Weaving through the trees at a sprint, Mike and the rest must have lost us as we made our way deeper into the underbrush. Levi had, of course, brilliantly executed his kill before another stepped into the small clearing we were in. The thing stepped on his horse and I had to jump off of my own to avoid getting snatched up to be eaten. Though it may have only taken Levi a minute to kill the Titan, my horse had ran off. No matter how much I whistled, she wasn't coming back to me. Our hope was that by walking back towards the walls, we would be seen by our fellow military members.

I was going to die out here if I wasn't careful, and it was all because of Levi's little stunt. That pent up murderous rage he felt whenever he saw one of those monsters was certainly different than the fear almost every other member felt. Guess it was hard to be scared of something that seemed so easy to kill. Not only was he not afraid of them, Levi intentionally went after that Titan.

"Did you know that no matter how many Titans you kill, Farlan and Isabel aren't going to come back?"

That made him stop. Edging away, I prepared for if he decided to try and strike me.

"I wonder whose fault that is?"

Shrugging my shoulders, I tried to remain nonchalant. "I informed you in the beginning that I wasn't going to risk my life for any of you guys. Don't just blame me because you weren't there."

"That's a shitty excuse if I ever heard one."

Clicking my tongue, I shook my head. "It's not an excuse, it's a reason."

A dry laugh escaped Levi's lips, "We live in a messed up world if you get to live and they don't."

"Can't die yet, there's stuff I have to do."

"You mean all those nights you were sneaking out?"

Beginning to walk once again, I gave a small grin. "Maybe I'm just enjoying my newfound freedom?"

"You're not stupid enough to risk it getting taken away because of wanting to take a stroll in the moonlight."

I let out a long high pitched whistle for my horse as I thought about my response. There was nothing I could threaten him with. Levi had already lost everything, but he was still living with the goal of eradicating Titans in mind. Nothing useful was up my sleeve for how to deal with this. I hadn't prepared for a situation where Levi might discover my late night escapes.

"Are you going to tell?"

"Does it seem like I give a damn what you do with your life?"

Tilting my head to the side, I considered the question. "No, but you do blame me for Farlan and Isabel's death. It could be for your own personal feelings that you reveal my outings to Erwin. Then again, you could be using it for leverage."

"Not everyone is like you."

The warning sign of a snarl made my lip curl and nose wrinkle. "I may not be a good person, but you aren't any better than me!" I snapped.

Too caught up in my rising anger, I forgot to be on my guard. All it took was a blow to my chin before I was sent to the ground. My head swam as I scrambled up, but Levi had a hold of the collar of my shirt before I could escape.

"They were better than you. They shouldn't have died because of my mistake and your selfishness."

"Don't act like they were perfect! We all came from the Underground. Farlan was a coward and Isabel was a naive fool and you know it!"

Spittle flew, hitting my swollen cheek. "They would have died for you!"

"And I tried to save them. You can say whatever you want, but I killed a Titan trying to protect Isabel. I even tried to stop you from going into battle where if it was anyone else, they would have been eaten too. Not my fault that I didn't know you were humanity's strongest soldier, who doesn't have to fear death while killing Titans. Regret the choice you made back then. I'm not going to regret surviving though."

"I could have saved Farlan if you hadn't intervened."

"I intervened because I need to go on and I thought they would have wanted that for you too."

Levi pulled his hand back to punch me again, but he hesitated. "What's the point of surviving when you have nothing to live for?"

"I wouldn't know."

Levi eyes were cold as he let go to only watch me collapse. "Then I'll live to destroy whatever keeps you going."

I was going to respond but a something caught my attention. Vibrations began to tremble against my fingertips. "Levi, a Titan is coming."

His head instantly perked up. "Where?"

The blades of grass tickled my ear as I rested my side of the head against the dirt. "There are three, I think. They are coming out of the forest we just exited."

After dusting myself off, I readied my blades. Without a horse, are two options was to either try and run or wait for them to approach us. Two gigantic Titans came stomping out of the woods with their arms flailing wildly. A splitting grin that revealed gums and white teeth were on both.

They were approaching us rapidly, and all I wanted to do was run. Levi could leave me all alone to get murdered. His anger towards me could burn brighter than his hatred for the Titans. My nerves began to tighten into little bundles that started to make my limbs ache. I didn't know how much gas I had left. Sweat drops began to trickle down between my shoulder blades, descending down my spine. This could be the moment I died. I couldn't take it anymore, my feet began to throw me forward as I sprinted towards the monsters who wanted to eat me.

"Don't be stupid!" Levi shouted behind me.

I began to hum as I sent out a hook to the the one on the lefts shoulder. The top of my mouth might have tickled, but the consistent sound soothed me. It was better than screaming at least. I was sent into a wide arc where I landed on the opposite side shoulder blade. A blast of steam hit the side of my face which sent curls of my hair into my mouth. Leiv must have killed the other one, at least I didn't have to now worry about being grabbed from behind. Momentarily distracted by the thought, I took a wrong step. My teeth clanked against each other as I slid down its skin. Scrambling for purchase, I dug my nails hard into its back.

This was how Isabel's life ended. Dangling helplessly from the wires as she screamed for her Big Brother to come and help her. My head began to pound with the explicit image forever seared into it. Slipping a finger into my boot, I dug out my old knife with one hand with the other still hanging on.

Quickly, I dug the blade into it's flesh and began to climb upwards. Using only the strength of my arms, I scaled towards the nape of the Titan's neck. If riding on top of one of these monsters hadn't been scary enough, it began to reach it hands backwards. All it would take for another stumble of mine for me to fall into the grip of death.

Standing back up on its shoulder, I sent a long swipe through it's spinal cord with my sword. As the Titan was brought to its knees, I tried to shoot away from the descending body, but my gear wasn't working. Apparently, I didn't have any more gas after fighting off all the Titans and escaping. Falling straight to the ground at such a high distance was going to injure me. Arms waving wildly, I was trying to curl up into a ball to lessen the impact.

Something hit me in the air, making all air whoosh out of my lungs. Clutching desperately, I closed my eyes as tight as I could. I held my breathe as we descended.

Almost as soon as we landed, I was tossed to the ground. Shaking heavily with fright, I was to concentrated on breathing that I didn't try to see who was standing impatiently in front of me.

"Are you going to just lie there like an idiot or are we going to get moving again?" Levi gruffly asked, his voice deep with no signs of panic at all.

My legs trembled as I stood up weakly. "Why did you save me?" I panted out.

"If you die then what would be the point of destroying what keeps you going?"

"You want to see me suffer?"

Levi turned away from me. I could hear the sound of hooves in the distance. The Survey Corps must have seen the steam from the two fallen Titans.

Chasing after him, I tried to take a hold of his jacket but he kept shaking me off. "Thank you."

"You realized that the only reason I saved you was because I wanted to see you suffer and you thank me?"

Glancing to the oncoming herd of horses, I shook my head. "You're a better person than I originally thought."

"What have I ever said that makes you think that?"

I snorted as I began to wave my arms in the air to get their attention. "You barely speak and when you do, it's usually to threaten me."

Nothing was said as we watched the members approach us. Maybe Levi didn't even care what had changed my mind? I certainly wasn't going to say anything. While he was the only member I remained true to myself with, it didn't mean I enjoyed conversation with him.

Erwin's blonde head could be seen a swiveling in our direction. I could see him pointing and shouting commands. The rest of our squad, with Mike in the lead, began to come our way. My horse in tow.

"Then what?" Levi asked in his usual monotone voice.

"I would have let you drop. No reason to risk my life for someone who hates me."

Whatever Levi was going to respond with was lost in the sounds of us getting yelled at. No. Not by our squad leader, but by his second in command. A woman named Ruby who seemed to have been named after her straight red hair. Her scowling matched with the cold, hard, glare made me shift uneasily. The only person I feared more was Erwin.

"I know you have this little revenge mission you're on, Levi, but orders are more important."

While the guy didn't say anything, his scowl didn't lessen at her lecturing.

"And you, Saph. I don't care if your little friend," she was referring to Levi right? The little part was at least correct, "you have to stay in formation."

"We are out here to kill Titans or are just supposed to shit ourselves and run away every single time we encounter one?" Levi asked with as much snark as the bastard could muster.

The older woman seemed aghast at the way he was speaking to her. Mike only sat on his horse, but I could tell that he just wanted to head back to eat already.

Erwin came up to the four of us. "Listen to authority or leave. The Survey Corps wouldn't be able to function if everyone just did what they wanted to out here."

"Yes, sir," I mumbled, avoiding eye contact at all cost. These people did have a point. It would be smarter to follow their lead than try to head off on our own. I couldn't trust them, but they were the veterans for a reason. Something was keeping them alive that wasn't just pure luck. Nobody in our world could survive just on that.

Just because I decided that it was the wise choice, didn't mean Levi was going to start following authority all of a sudden. If he wasn't so damn strong, it might have been a better idea to throw him out of the military altogether.

"Get on your horses. We're going back," Ruby sighed as she handed Levi a new one and me, my own.

With the wall in sight, it wouldn't take to long to return. Patting my horse on the neck, I kept an eye out for anything that could be of danger to us.

"I don't hate you."

"Hmmm?" I whipped my head to look at Levi. Nobody else was around us, but I was surprised that he was the one who had spoken.

"You're willing to sacrifice anything to reach your goal. That was a part of why Isabel and Farlan got killed."

"Sorry I wasn't willing to die for your friends."

"You considered them friends too. Anyone who is willing to sacrifice those they care about to achieve their end isn't someone I want to be around."

I swallowed hard. "You're not the only one who will have to live with the regrets that came with that day."

Levi kept his mouth shut. His brow was furrowed creating deep sets of lines all across his forehead.

"I'm sorry." Gnashing my teeth, I kept my eyes trained on the moving ground beneath the horse. "It doesn't make up for what happened, but you seem to think that I don't care that they died. I may not have known either of them as long as you had. That doesn't mean I wasn't hurt when I saw them get eaten right in front of my eyes. You might not have been able to fight, but I was the one who fought and still failed."

I was finally deemed worthy of a glance. The hard line of his mouth curled slightly at the corner. "You are at least not as shitty as you were when you first started training."

I huffed at him while frowning, but I couldn't help but let out a snort barely contained laughter.

Do not worry, this is a romance. I didn't put it in the wrong genre. It's just a very slow romance. I also wanted to give a shout out to every person who has reviewed thus far. You may not think it means a lot, but I save them because they can get me out of a writer's block in a snap. Everyone is great, and I really love all yall. Sorry for the mushiness. Check out my profile to get updates on when the next chapter will probably be out