Things can only get better

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu….

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Everything is wrong… How could this happen? Again! I can't seem to do anything right! Why? I asked myself.

I sit alone in my garden crying and thinking about everything. I hurt him, like I always seem to do, when I try to show him how much I love him. It hurts to think about it, but I must.

The day was sunny, not at all rainy like today. I sat on the grass in the park waiting for him, and he showed just like always looking for me. His beautiful red orbs staring at me. His beautiful jet-black hair in which I want to run my fingers though blows in the wind.

"Fox?" He asked, a little confused.

I just smiled and patted the ground next to me. He just glared.

"Come Hiei." I said.

"Fox…" He said.

I pouted, because I knew he was going to leave. He hated to be put in these positions, but he didn't leave. He sat down next to me and stared at me.

"What Fox?" he asked.

I smiled, I was going to finally tell him, and everything would be fine. I hoped. I opened my mouth but before I could speak he said, "It better not be something stupid!"

I shut my mouth, to him love was stupid. I couldn't tell him. I knew keeping it a secret would kill me, but I didn't want say anything he thought was stupid.

"I'm sorry Hiei. It was nothing." I whispered and smiled weakly at him.

He couldn't tell the difference in the smile of course, no one can, except for my Mother.

How she can I'll never know.

Hiei nods and stands up. He helps me up and says, "Let's go, Yusuke is waiting."

I think, "That stupid sprit detective! Hiei seems to care more for him than me!"

Then I sigh. "I can't blame him. Yusuke is good looking…" I follow Hiei.

Later I could hear Hiei and Yusuke talking. It isn't it thing special and don't even remember what they said, but I remember what Yusuke did.

I'm so stupid to even think what I thought! Yusuke hugged Hiei playfully, waiting to be thrown across the room, but Hiei didn't throw him.

I was so mad! "I'm the one who loves Hiei!" I yelled at Yusuke. "Let go of my Firebaby!"

Yusuke did let go, but only out of shock. He started at me and then to Hiei asked, "Are you two…?"

I just realized what I said what I said, and my face felt warm. I looked at Hiei, locking eyes with him.

"No, the Fox is just stupid." Hiei said.

I felt the tears and I turned and ran as fast as I could. I was so stupid!

And now Hiei hated me!

Now here I sit in the rain, in my garden. Surrounded by wild life and plants, a fitting place for my death.

I wiped away my tears and rain. I grabbed some leaves and made them into a blade. I placed it against my wrist and cut. I cut both my wrists and laid back against a rose bush. The thorns cut my arms and back, ripping into my clothing.

I didn't care… blood as red the roses poured out, covering the grass, painting it

red.

I was going to die! I would never have to love or see Hiei again…

"KKUUURRRAAAMMMAAAA!"

I didn't hear anything after that, I didn't even recognize the voice before I fell into darkness…I was dead…

Hiei stared down at Kurama, lying in the grass, both wrists cut, blood everywhere.

He was in shock…"Why…?" he asked himself. How could he do this…this…Kurama!

The Fox was always happy! He always had a smile.

Hiei bent down and picked Kurama up, he had to get the Fox to Yukinia!

He took off to Ginki's temple, and as soon as he got there, Yuknia appeared in the doorway.

"Yukinia…save him." Hiei pleaded. He needed to talk the Fox and Kurama would not die until Hiei said he was sorry! Yuknia bent down and healed Kurama's wrists. Afterwards, she said, "Hiei-chan, he won't wake up anytime soon… he lost a lot of blood…I hope he recovers…for your sake, Hiei-chan."

Hiei stared at her. "My sake?" He asked.

"Yes, Hiei-chan, you love Kurama." She said.

Hiei stared at her and down at Kurama.

"Was she right?" he asked himself. He didn't know.

"I must rest…" Yuknia said, walking into the temple. "Put Kurama into a guest room and I'll call his Mom so she won't worry." Yuknia disappeared into her room.

He picked Kurama again and found a room. He put the Fox down and climbed in next to him. He held the fox tight to his chest and thought about what Yuknia said to him.

Soon he drifted to sleep holding his Fox…yes, Kurama was his Fox. Kurama had always been his, he was just stupid not to notice, and now looked what had happened to his Fox!

Hiei rested his head on Kurama's. "I'm sorry Fox…"

My eyes open and I sit up. I was at the temple. I looked around at the dark room and down at my hands my wrists were wrapped in bandages.

"Kurama…?" Hiei's voice said.

I looked up and my eyes locked with his. I gave him a confused look.

"Fox, I'm sorry." Hiei said.

"What? Why is he sorry?" I ask myself, but then it came back. The night, the rain, the blood. I wanted to die again. I did something I never did in front of anyone, not even my Mother. I cried.

Soon everyone appeared in the doorway. They all had strange looks on their faces.

"Go away…" I whispered though tears. I thought no one heard me, but I was wrong. Hiei did. He made everyone leave, and then turned to me. "I won't go away, Kurama."

My name…I hated when he said my name.

"Hiei, please…" I begged, I wanted to try it again… "I want to die this time…"

"NO Kurama! I will not let you die…" Hiei said as he walked towards the bed. "Why'd you do it? Why?" he asked.

I flinched when a 'click' sound was made and looked at the ground. A black pearl lay on the floor.

"Hiei…?" I asked.

"Fox, why did you do it? Why? You were always happy! Your life was right! You have people who love and care about you! Why? Why would someone like you try to kill themselves?" Hiei asked.

"I don't care! I never wanted that!" I said, he didn't understand.

"Why not? You had everything I ever wanted and more!" Hiei cried.

"But…it wasn't you…" My mind said.

I wasn't sure if Hiei heard my mind or not. I hoped he did…

Hiei just stared. I couldn't handle the staring. I felt like I was being judged. I reached out and pulled a leaf of a houseplant in my room. Before I could do anything, Hiei grabbed my wrist.

"Hiei let go! I want to die!" I told him.

He stared at me and shook his head. "Stupid Fox…" he whispered, and to my surprise he crushed his mouth to mine.

His tongue slipped into my mouth and went around mine. I felt myself go lightheaded.

When we pulled away he said, "I love you Kurama…"

I stared at him, "Really?" I asked.

"Yes. Fox, I love you." He said.

I was crying again, just more this time. "I'm glad, I love you so much!" I told him.

He reached out wiped away my tears. "Stop crying Fox…please." He whispered.

I smiled. "Kiss me Hiei…" I asked.

Hiei smiled and sat down on the bed. He leaned forward and kissed me, laying me back on the bed. I felt his arms wrap around me and I cuddled up to him.

We laid like that together, until we fell asleep again… That day we became lovers and we still are, forever.

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