Who else is incredibly miffed that Lauren didn't get an Emmy nomination AGAIN…..god they have some nerve!

there was a problem with the other chapter! for sum reason it kind repeated the first chapter and put it in italics so i apologise if ne1 got confused! R+R please!

Sookie had tried to convince her to stay. Saying that Luke would stay with her if she had told him about the baby but all of her reasoning fell on deaf ears, she had made up her mind and there was no changing it. She couldn't stay in Stars Hollow knowing that there was no reason to. She just wanted a fresh start away from everything that had happened. She knew she was running away again and that it wouldn't end well for her but she really didn't see what choice she had. She really thought that she was doing what was best for her and her baby, something that felt all too familiar to her.

She didn't know how she had managed to keep her leaving town between her and Sookie. She had managed to pack all of her things and move most of it to her new apartment in New York with out anyone even noticing. Sookie still wasn't sold on the idea of her running away and not telling Luke, not only that but she had promised not to tell him or Rory where Lorelai was and that she was pregnant. She thought she might have been more upset about leaving her home and the place she grew up but she almost let out a sigh of relief when she passed the sign for "Now Leaving Starts Hollow!" she couldn't help but feel a sense of calm. All of the things that had happened over the last seven weeks behind her and she could start a new life.

Three Years Later

It had been three years to the day since she had tried to kill herself. She couldn't even imagine what she would have been like if she had lost her baby girl. Thinking about how selfish she was, not considering what everyone she left behind would be like if she was gone. It was six in the morning and she only had a few more minutes until her little girl woke up and she would have to forget her train of thought and switch to full mommy mode. She hadn't been back to Stars Hollow since she had left but still kept in contact with Sookie. She would make the trip to come and visit and was happy that Lorelai was ok. She had gone to see a therapist with out any persuasion and was almost ashamed to admit that it helped. She had always assumed that therapists were self absorbed snobs who were really over paid, but she was wrong. Once her daughter was born she had never felt more ready, but she couldn't help but feel empty that she wasn't with Luke. After everything that had happened she still loved him. Even though their daughter was almost a carbon copy of Lorelai she could still see elements of Luke in her. Every now and then she would catch herself staring at her feeling more than guilty for keeping her to herself.

She was still lying in bed enjoying the rest of her Saturday morning when the door to her room swung open. For a second she could see Rory as a two year old after a bad dream. She still hadn't spoken to her older daughter but Sookie had given her updates as to what Rory was doing. She had gone back to Yale and graduated and was now working at a newspaper in Hartford. Sookie had begged and pleaded Lorelai to talk to Rory again but it was no use. She still felt abandoned by her daughter, although she had got her life together she was still hurt that she had left and didn't care enough to listen to her opinion.

"Hey baby girl, you feeling better?" Lorelai asked looking down at her two years old. She had gone to bed the night before with a bad stomach and Lorelai was more than surprised that she had gotten a full nights sleep.

"Yes" Lorie Elizabeth Gilmore answered as she climbed onto her mother's bed. Her dark brown, wavy hair was still a mess and the teddy she was holding close to her chest was almost too big for her to hold. Lorelai couldn't help but think that she was like Rory at that age. She was always small for her age until she hit her teens and Lorelai had no doubt that Libby would be no exception.

Lorelai had tried to get Libby back to sleep but it was no use, even with her eyes closed she could feel her little girls piercing blue eyes trace over her face as she lay there. She was almost asleep when she felt something touch her wrist. She always wore a watch and a selection of bracelets to cover her scar but took them off to go to bed. Her eyes flung open and she instantly withdrew her arm quickly hugging it to her chest. It was one of the things she feared most, that someone would see it and ask how she got it. Her eyes softened as soon as she realized what it was. Libby was kneeling on the pillow beside her head looking down at her. Her small hand was still in the same position and Lorelai knew she had been stroking her wrist, it wasn't the first time she had done it and it amazed Lorelai that she could almost see a hint of sorrow behind her intense sapphire eyes. Looking away out of almost guilt, Lorelai climbed out of bed and moved toward the kitchen knowing Libby would follow.

She had gotten a job at a hotel less than a block from her apartment. She was still involved with the inn back in Stars Hollow but obviously not as much as she used to. Lorelai always looked forward to the weekends; it was her time with Libby. They went shopping, to the park watched films, at times she missed Rory and couldn't say she hadn't pictured them altogether on family outings. Lorelai was already on her second cup of coffee when Libby walked in the kitchen after her cartoons had finished on television.

"So kiddo what do you want to do today?" Lorelai asked as she picked her daughter up placing her on her lap.

"TOY SHOP" Libby almost squealed as she bounced up and down happily on Lorelai's lap. Smiling down at her daughter Lorelai agreed knowing that she had a long tiring day ahead of her. After being washed, feed and dressed the Gilmore girls left the apartment stopping at the coffee shop on the corner on the way to Toys 'R' Us. If I'm going to be surrounded by a bunch of kids all day I'm going to need all the coffee I can get. The shop Lorelai usually went to was conveniently located on the same street at her work place. It reminded her a lot of Weston's. It was usually quiet and of course being the coffee addict that she was, all of the staff knew her.

Lorelai had done her best to forget about the significance of the day and concentrated on the excited two year old running ahead of her. She had changed a lot since she had moved. Although her fashion sense was still very similar to what she used to wear her hair was a lot longer and almost down to her elbow. Although to someone who knew her three years ago she was still very much recognizable. Pushing the door open enough for her and Libby to fit thought she dodged Libby who had stopped walking in front of her. She walked straight into the chest of a leather clad looking man sending his coffee flying over his Metalica t-shirt. "OH my God im so sorry my daughter was in the way." She was so preoccupied trying to clean up the mess she didn't notice that the stranger had stood up and was now frozen to the spot. "Lorelai?" She hadn't heard that voice in almost four years but it was all too recognizable. Reluctantly standing up she turned around to see a very familiar face standing in front of her. "Jess?"