Thanks for all of the reviews so far. And for those of you who read my other fic im gonna do a part 2 for ch6 but my net has bin down so I posted it as fast as I cud while I had it lol! Keep reviewing (an for those of u who were worried no Lorelai wasn't raped…..i may like unhappy stories but im not that nasty)

thanks to Humz for the FAST beta work

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It was Jess, she didn't know what he was doing there or how he knew she was in town but she did know that she was damn glad to see him. If she was going to get through this weekend in one piece she needed all of the support she could get. She might have had Sookie and Libby but knowing that Jess knew about her past and what she had been through it made her feel safe to be around him.

Neither of them said a word all Lorelai did was close the two steps that were separating them and threw her arms around him in an appreciative hug. He knew as well as she did that his presence was welcome. "I have no idea what you doing here but thank you."

The moment was soon cut short as the all too familiar yell for 'mommy' was heard from upstairs. As Lorelai climbed the stairs she remembered what it was like for her and Rory in that house. How young she had been when they moved in, how scared Rory had been their first night in a strange place it seems their more alike than I thought. Lorelai was right, it seemed Libby had woken up and found herself in a strange place without her mother.

It wasn't long before Libby had calmed down enough for Lorelai to take her down stairs to say 'Hello' to their guest. "Hey Libby did you have a bad dream?" Jess and Libby hadn't known each other that long but they had already seemed to click. It was another feeling that Lorelai didn't like so much, the thought that she was keeping Libby from her family. A small smile crept across Lorelais as she thought of how much that could all change within the next few days. He looked on contently as Jess interacted with his cousin although she doesn't know that yet. It wasn't long before Lorelai drifted off to sleep sitting in the corner of the room. The last thing she saw was Jess reading Libby's favourite book to get her too sleep.

By the time she woke up it was almost four. A slight moment of panic hit her as she realised that the party was in less than twenty minutes. She figured that there was no need dressing up for a fourth birthday party and settled for just changing her top for something more comfortable. There was another moment of panic when she noticed that Libby and Jess were nowhere to be found. She walked towards the kitchen noticing that Rory's old bedroom door was open, the picture before her was enough to melt her heart. Libby was lying snuggled against an also sleeping Jess. It didn't even bother her that the book he had been reading to her was his copy of 'The Slaughterhouse-Five'

It wasn't long before the pair were awoken by a giggling Lorelais who made them very aware that they were going to be late if they didn't hurry up. Libby had practical ran all the way to Sookies which made it incredibly comical for Lorelai as Libby had no clue where she was going. As they rounded the corner they began to grasp just how big this party was going to be.

All of Stars Hollow had turned out and brought half of Connecticut with them. There were banners, streamers and balloons everywhere, what looked like miles of tables that wrapped around the whole street all of which were covered with Sookies amazing food. In the middle of the party was a pile of present which look like it was almost being guarded by a grown man dressed as Tigger. Lorelai couldn't suppress the giggle that was rising in her throat. Sookie had definitely gone all out this time.

Her attention was soon turned back to her two year old who was hopelessly trying to drag her towards something. "Face Paint! Mommy"

"Hun I don't think…." Her thought was cut short as Libby directed her in the direction of a small table that clearly said 'FACE PAINTING' above it.

Once Libby had been successfully turned into a Ladybug (via face paint) it didn't take very long for the rest of the activities to kick in. Lorelai made the executive decision to leave Libby to her fun and go and find her own.

She hadn't been left alone for five minutes and the continuous bombardment of questions was beginning to give her a headache. Luckily Babette had kept her promise and no one seemed to ask her any questions about Libby which Lorelai was incredibly happy about. She had managed to find a corner to hide away in until she saw someone she wasn't expecting.

"Rory?" she hadn't changed at all, she had kept her long hair and judging by her outfit her job was going considerably well.

At the sound of her name Rory had frozen. To someone watching she looked as though she wasn't breathing, Rory wasn't sure she was breathing either. Almost as if she didn't have control of her own body she swung around to face the one person she thought she would never see again. "Mom?"

They stood frozen, staring at each other for minutes. Thoughts and realisations passing silently between each other. What Rory said next was a result of not thinking before she spoke something that rarely happened to her, looking back now she would have chose something different to say to her mothers who she hadn't seen for three years.

"What are you doing here?" judging by the way Rory had asked the question she wasn't exactly happy to see her mom, she knew it and so did Lorelai a fact which almost broke her heart.

"What do you mean what am I doing here….Sookie invited me" Rory refused to look into Lorelais eyes, she knew that the pain was evident to the both of them

"It's been three years, why chose to show up now" Rory definitely wasn't pulling any punches and the will not to cry was fading fast.

"I….I don't know" she couldn't tell her yet, any way how was she suppose to word it, it's not like she hadn't thought about how she would tell Rory its just that it never sounded right.

"Do you know anything? Do you know what you did when you left? How painful it was?"

"Don't talk to me about pain; I know damn well what happened when I left." Well that was a lie. If she only knew what pain I went through

"You walked out mom. Things got a little too hard for you and you left. Am I that easy to forget?" she was in shock how could Rory ask that.

The tears that were staining Lorelais face had been falling freely for the whole gut wrenching conversation but she hadn't noticed. Her whole body had gone numb and she couldn't move. She wanted to runaway, scream, defend herself but she couldn't. Luckily someone did for her.

"Hey don't talk to your mom like that. You have no right." Rory was so shocked to see jess Jess that the ability to talk flew straight out of the window.

"You don't know what she has been through did you know she had a……." "Jess!" Lorelai knew he was about to say baby and knew Rory had to know but not like this. Jess turned his head to see a crushed Lorelai conveying all he needed to know through one look. He nodded his head knowing he turned his back to Rory and began ushering Lorelai in the direction of home.

"She had what….a moment of clarity when she realised she didn't love her daughter."

They both froze, jess couldn't believe Rory had just said and figured Lorelai was in the same position he was in, as she was holding her breath in pure shock. "When you know what your mom has been through in the last three years….then you can say that, but at the moment….you have never looked dumber than you do at the moment." With that Jess almost dragged Lorelai away from the party.