Chapter 28

Authors Note: Sorry about the long wait I have been like super busy but here's the new chapter I hope you like. Read and Review!

They drove into a familiar driveway it was Ryan's old house. They all got out of the car and knocked on the door. Marissa was really nervous because she hadn't seen Trey since the night she shot him. She hadn't even noticed that he was at the hospital because she was so worried about Parker. With some intense therapy Marissa forgave Trey for what he did to her and for almost killing Ryan. She hoped that he forgave her for shooting him but she only did what she had to. She had to save Ryan no matter what it cost her because he had always saved her. Ryan sensed that she felt uneasy and he took her hand.
Ryan: (whispering) Everything's going to be okay.
Marissa looked up at him and realized why she loved him so much. He was always there to tell her things were going to be okay. He was always the one reassuring her. She really didn't want to be there but she had to be there for Ryan. He needed her now more than ever and she couldn't abandon him in his time of need. Just then the door swung open and Trey smiled.
Trey: Hey guys.
Kirsten hugged him Sandy shook his hand and they both apoligized about his mother. After they went inside, Ryan and Marissa came in.
Trey: Hey Marissa.
Marissa: Hey Trey. How are you?
Trey: You know not so good.
Marissa: I was really sorry to hear about your mom.
Trey: Thanks. How have you been?
Marissa: I've been okay.
Trey: How is Parker doing?
Marissa: He's okay. He's over it.
Trey: That's good I'm glad it was just that and nothing more serious.
Marissa: Yeah me too.

They walked into the house and Trey closed the door behind them. It was 5:00 so they didn't have to leave for awhile. They all sat down and there was an awkward silence for about five minutes. Everyone was just staring off into space.
Ryan: What time do we need to leave?
Trey: At like 5:30.
Ryan: So.
Kirsten: So Trey what are you doing these days?
Trey: I've been working construction.
Kirsten: That's good. Do you like it?
Trey: It's a job. I don't exactley like it but it's better than anything else that I've done.
Sandy: Any girlfriend in your life.
Trey looked at Ryan and then lied.
Trey: No, not really.
Sandy: That's too bad you'll find someone.
Trey: Yeah, I'm not really looking for one you know.
Awkward silence..
Trey: So where's Seth?
Ryan: He had to stay home and watch the kids. He'll be at the funeral tommorrow.
Trey: Well I guess it's about time to go. We will probably need to get their early to greet everyone.
Ryan: Yeah okay.

They all stood up and walked out to the cars. Trey got into his own car and they followed him to the funeral home. They pulled up to a nice funeral home well, nice for Chino. They walked in and the lady greeted them and showed them the waiting room. They sat there about thirty minutes before people started to arrive. When people started to arrive Ryan didn't know most of them. Ryan felt really out of place like someone who goes to a funeral because someone dragged them along and everybody stares at them and wonders who they are and what they are doing there. Since he hadn't been around for a long time he didn't know most of the people who came. He only saw about four or five of his family members since she had pretty much alienated most of her family, he didn't expect many more. Ryan noticed that Kirsten, Sandy, and Marissa felt out of place too so that made him feel a little better. Trey was off talking to the people and it was just them sitting on a couch by theirselves.
Sandy: Hey kid you okay?
Ryan: Yeah, it's just weird. I don't know any of these people and they are all staring at us. Even my family doesn't know who I am.
Sandy: Why don't you go into the room.
Ryan: Uhm yeah.
Marissa: You want me to go with you?
Ryan: No, I think I just need to be alone with her.
Marissa: Okay. Well, I'll be here if you need me.
Marissa gave him a reassuring smile.
Ryan: Thanks.

Ryan walked in to the room and there were people in there.
Ryan: Hey can I have a few minutes alone?
People: Yeah no problem.
Ryan: Thanks.
They walked out and closed the door behind them. Ryan walked to the casket the walk seemed to take forever. He felt tears coming out of his eyes with every step he took. He finally reached the casket and the tears just got worse. At first it didn't seem real, but seeing her laying in that casket made it all too real. He grabbed her hand and looked into her eyes. Her hand wasn't like he remembered it, it was cold and rough. A woman who used to be so full of life when he was little was now lifeless and cold. He remembered when she would get drunk and let her boyfriends beat up on him he wished she would die, but now he regretted thinking about it. He wished that he could have told her that he forgave her and how much he loved her just one last time. He started thinking about his life with her the good and the bad times. He closed his eyes and let the memories overtake him. His whole life with her flashed before his eyes and he broke down.

Ryan: Mom how could you leave me? You know how much I needed you and you just left. Kicked me out in the time I needed you the most. Then you just up and left and all you left me was a note. A NOTE! I know you were doing the thing that you thought was best for me when you left me with Kirsten and Sandy. It was for the best because if you wouldn't have done that I wouldn't be who I am today and I thank you for that. It would have been nice for you to come and see me every once in a while though. You didn't have to just stay out of my life forever. I love you mom.
Ryan kissed her on the cheek and went to sit down. He wiped all his tears away and they just kept coming. He sat there for about fifteen minutes just trying to make them stop but they wouldn't. He just decided to give up and let them go. Marissa walked in and sat down beside him.
Marissa: Hey. You okay?
Ryan: No, not really.
Marissa: You want me to wait outside for you?
Ryan: No, you can stay.
Marissa: Okay.
Marissa grabbed Ryan's hand and for once she was the strong one. Ryan layed his head on her shoulder and started crying.
Marissa: You want to talk about it?
Ryan: No, not really. I just want to get out of here.
Marissa: You want to go pick up Parker and go to the Cohen's and go to sleep?
Ryan: Yeah, I think so. I just can't sit here any longer.
Marissa: Okay I'll go talk to Sandy and Kirsten.
Ryan: Thanks.
Ryan stood up and walked back over to the casket and kissed her cheek and left with a single bye mom.