A/N- Hello, here's the next chapter I hope you enjoy it!
3 Kristen
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Disclaimer-
Robynne- Kristen why do you have a fork?
Kristen- I'm making ramen sets fork down and turns to get a book
Robynne- takes fork and holds it
Kristen- walks to the kitchen then turns around Oh NO! I forgot my fork. walks to get it
Robynne- holds it closer
Kristen- Give me my fork...
Robynne- NO! I'm holding it hostage you can't have it ;p
Kristen- Give me my FORK!
Robynne- NO! Fix the computer!
Kristen- grrrr... tackles robynne out of the computer chair Theres nothing wrong with the computer!
Robynne- wrestles I don't care FIX IT!!!!
Kristen- wrestels more the fork flies out of the window
Kristen- See what you've done!!!!
Robynne: ;p I'm taking the leprechans job, they're on vacation
Kristen-...WHY?!
So... in other words, I disclaim!
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I was up way to early for a Friday. I couldn't sleep and thought I was stating to suffer from insomnia. Can you suffer from insomnia? Aw, it was to early to think about these things. I went to my trunk and put on some black pants, a black shirt, and my cloak. Deciding to take a walk around the grounds I stepped out on the grounds and felt the cool winds brush againt my face. I looked out towards the foggy grounds and smiled at the setting. Hogwarts always looked so much more mysterious when fog surrounded it.
Even though what happened in the chamber and all, I still felt a strong feeling with Hogwarts. Like the chamber just made me feel even more comfortable here. I walked out near the lake where if you go near the castle you can get to a secret passageway. It took you to a balcony that I always sat at. On one side it gave you a perfect view of the lake and the Forbidden Forest, and on the other you could watch the Hogwarts entrance and gates. I looked to the Entrance Gates to see a, some what sad, Dakota Malfoy walking. So it was true, she was leaving. I felt a wave of guilt pass over myself as if it were all my fault she was leaving.
'Well it's not your fault, it's her's so you shouldn't feel guilty' voice number 2, Dasha said to me. Yes I was surrounded by voices in my head who always talked to me whenever they could. There were millions of them and they all represented me in some odd way. Dasha was evil me and Heavan, well, was nice me.
'You have all the right to feel guilty, snapping at the poor girl the way you did. No wonder she's leaving, for shame Ginny' Heavan said in her I'm-so-right-and-you-know-it voice. I frowned and thought about what they were saying and decided to try and ignore them because they were just confusing me.
'You can't ignore us so don't try' Dasha said to me as I pretended they weren't there. The voices died out soon and I enjoyed the silence of my own mind. People would think I was crazy if I told them about my voices. This thought brought a smile to my face, becuase people already did think I was crazy. I felt the guilt get heavier, when I watched her take one last glance at Hogwarts. Okay I admit it I would miss her, but only becuase without her, Malfoy would become a royal pain again. And I was sorry for yelling at her. It was uncalled for and i shouldn't have done it but... the past is past.
The war was getting worse. I felt as though it was happening so fast and all I was dong was sitting there watching it pass me. As though everyone was dying and I did nothing but watch. But what could I do? I was stuck in Hogwarts, protected and safe. If I keep thinking like this people are going to think I want to die. But so many have died before me, then why am I alive? The anser ket repeating itself in my head. Because your scared, because you can't die, your too afraid. And for some reason...it was right. if someone were about to die and they were next to me would I save them? Would I jump in front of them to keep them alive by sacrifices myself? No, I wouldn't. I was selfish that way. I have always been selfish. That's why I feel trapped here, because maybe if I were fighting and out in the danger I would feel better knowing that I am being brave. I use Hogwarts as my excuse, but I can't keep using it as an excuse. The truth is, i'm happy being safe. I'm happy knowing that I can't die while I'm here. I'm glad that I'm safe. Some people say there is nothing wrong with that, but I say everything's wrong with it. I'm just like much of the human population, so selfish not to notice what is happening to everyone and everything around me, just so I can be happy. But I notice, and that's what makes me different, I notice and I care. But I'm too scared to do anything about it.
I am so selfish that I deserve to die.
I was running, running so fast that everything surrounding me was a blur. I was trying to get away. Away from the pain, sadness, and dark. I kept running until I couldn't run anymore. I couldn't get anywhere, it all seemed so impossible. It was frustrating and made me want to cry. I kept trying but would always reach the same place, never getting farther, never getting closer. My knees let out and I fell. I closed my eyes wanting to cry. I couldnt cry, and I was so frustrated I just wanted to scream. I opened my eyes and saw something walking towards me. Everything was a blur. The thing reached for me and I...
...Woke up. I yawned and stretched, that frustrating feeling still going through my body. I hated that dream. I've had it before. Almost every night. And every morning it would stop right there. I looked around for a clock and noticed I had 30 minutes to get ready for class. I didn't care, I took my time. I was in a right foul mood, so I'd like to see a teacher bitch at me for being late. I got dressed nic and slow and walked down to the great hall. When I reached it, it was completely empty but I could still get breakfast. I got a few pieces of toast and walked slowly down to the dungeons where I had potions with the Slytherins as my first class. Oh joy! I thought as I turned a corner to enter a stairway to the dungeons. I turned into the class to see Snape taking attendance.
"Ah, Miss Weasley, so nice of you to join us today," he said in his usual sarcastic voice.
"But, my you are late, that will be 5 points from Gryffindor," I listened as some Gryffindors dared to groan. Well hey better do more than that because I wasn't done with him.
"Oh, aren't we in a great mood professor, only 5 points?" I said taking a seat. "Someone must of had a nice night last night," I said raising my eyebrows. I always thought the old git needed to get laid. Some of the Slytherin's snickered and the Gryffindor's rolled their eyes in annoyance. They knew as long as I was here we wouldn't be winning anything this year. Snape's eyebrows shot up and his face went even more pale if it could.
"15 points from Gryffindor," he said unaffected staring directly at me as if daring me to say more. I took the challenge.
"Ouch, Professor! 15?! That's kind of nice. I think your going kinda soft. But it's okay, they all wear out someday," I said, looking at my nails.
"20 points from Gryffindor. Do you want a detention Miss Weasley?" he said, sounding as if he was trying to keep his voice calm.
"And What-If-I-DO?" I said word by word, calmly. He looked at me outraged, mostly because I didn't shutup in fear.
"One detention, tomorrow night," he said. "Anything else you would like to add, Miss Weasley?" he said in his evil -i-have-control- voice.
"Yes there is, GET LAID!!!" I said the last bit loudly and stormed out of the classroom. I could hear some of the Slytherin's laughter echoing down the halls. I was halfway down the hall when I heard him yell: "Detentions for the whole next week!!".
"Screw you!" I chuckled a little and continued walking. I didn't know where I was going, but I needed to get out of here.
Terribly bored because my chapters are pointless until Ginny is given something important to do... so until then...echoe!!!!