In their eyes..
and there she lays..
Upon the sharp nails that pierces her back..
She told herself not to look back...
As she faces the road...
Undecided where to go...
To the coffin were she would cry herself to death...
Or to the road of life filled of paint and anger that break her heart...

She cries the tears that burns her cheeks...
The tear that everyone weeps...
She had a love once in her life...
But he is gone...
Death took him...
She falls now to her knees and weeps..
Weeps and screams at the world...
To just leave her be...

But she sits by you now...
With her hair down...
To cover the tears that she cries...
She pulls the black sleeves over her hands...
Her face emotionless..
Her vivid blue eyes beg for love...
But you told her that you loved her ...
But you lied!...
Her hearts breaks...
She sit there crying the invisible tears...

But you don't see them..
Behind the smile is pain..
But you saw the tears would you care..
Maybe you won't...
Maybe you want to see her tears...
Just to see her cry...
Chapter 20- Hidden Tears

He slid me carefully over the back of the seat and down on the back seat. I held my breath as he

eased his body down on top of mine. "You are so beautiful Sango." His hand brushed gently over my face into my hair. Tangling his fingers in to my raven locks. "I never want to let you go". Leaning down he kissed me, it was a soft quite kiss.

We laid there for a good hour or two as we kissed and touch each other like young children discovering our self's. Staring we laid there in the back of his car. And I loved every wonderful minute of it. The green numbers on his car radio clock read 12:04 am, my eyes widen as I turned my eye back to his. "We should get back to the apartment" I said nothing but my heart was crying bloody tears as he got off of me and climbed in to the front seat. I straightened my shirt and climbed over the armrest to the front passager seat. The engine roared furiously to life as he took a sharp turn off the pull off and on to the main road.

He had no emotion on his face, hard like solid block of ice. I did love him but I had no idea how to show it. My parents took it with them when they died. Just like I took someone from my mother's jewelry box. Her favorite black cameo choker. It was laying perfectly on my dresser top in the black box. Well I hope it is still there and it better. I scrunched my eyebrows together as I thought of the jewelry not being there.

"Hey what are you thinking of?" I felt a hand on my thigh and give a small shake, I looked at the owner of the hand and smiled.

"Nothing big Sessh" I placed my hand on top of his as he drove toward the building where which the people in the basement cooked their gym socks for food. Well that is what I thought.

Sessh sped up and did a power slid, making me pray for my life. Laughing he turned off the car and climbed out. "You can breath Sango."

I put on a fake smile and got out of the car. I had to make sure that jewelry was still there. I just had to.

I ran though the doors and up the stairs to my floor. The door was there right in front of me. The tv was running, and Kag was sitting on the couch folding some clean clothes. It must have been her day to do laundry.

She was sitting there with Inuyasha's MP3 player and had it blaring. I shut the door, trying my damnest to not make a show about me coming in late. I swear she is my mother or something. But to my stupidity, I accidently stepped on my dogs tail. He let out a loud yelp. Kagome ripped off the headphone and almost jumped over the back of the couch.

I was caught in action. I had my shoes in one hand and my coat over my arm. I was dead. She shook her head and shot this glare at me at would make a tough guy melt in to a little kid. I rose my hands as if I was in a shooting line and I was in front of a cop ready to shoot me.

"DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS SANGO!". I looked over at the clock on the stove,12:34 am.

"Yea I know what time it is, so what" Kagome clutched her fist like if she was ready to hit me.

"So what So what, Sango you had me worried sick. I don't care if I am not your mother but I care about you."

I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms at my chest,"Kagome, I don't care I don't have parents anymore. I don't need people worrying about me."

Kagome snored in anger and narrowed her eyes at me, "Sango, I do care about you. Now go to bed, you have school tomorrow."

Stomping my foot on the floor almost making the room shake in fear."GOD DAMN IT KAGOME STOP ACTING SO MOTHERLY TO ME. I DON'T WANT IT!" I stormed off down the hallway and in to my room.

Lestat was already there on his giant pillow, curled up sleeping. His tail draped over his nose, he slept.

I stripped off my clothes and laid on my bed. The choker was glittering in the moonlight of the outside world. Crawling to the end of my bed and reaching for the choker. It fell right in to my hands.

The moon hit it again and reflected on the wall, an dull rainbow danced on the wall as I moved the choker around in my hands.

Sitting up I placed the jewelry on the side table and got up. My body was completely covered in goose bumps grow on my bare arms. I stood there hugging myself, my radio was on low, Missing, Evanescence. I really don't know why I listen to that band but she speaks with no other soul can ever speak out.

I pulled on a black tank top and a pair of black lounge pants, pulling my hair up in a messy bun and I stood in front of my mirror over my dresser.

The dim light of the lamp on my night stand glowed against my face as I stood there staring at the girl in the mirror. She stood there in the same tank up and pants as I was and she had a large grin on her face. Her index finger made a pointer as she laughed at me. I watched her closely knowing that is how I felt inside everyday. Everyday I wake up, I have to stare at the girl in the mirror. I could not stand it anymore.

I wanted to punch the mirror and watch the small pieces of glass fall to the ground. But I had to control myself tonight. I opened my door up a crack and peered out the crack of the door. The living room light was still on. Kagome was out there, I could not get out and get a knife from the kitchen. I had to cut, get my hate and anger out of myself.

I bit down on my lip and closed the door quietly. Hot salty tears were streaming down my face as I stood there with my back against the door. Wiping the tears off of my cheeks, I went to bed and cried myself to sleep.

Xx The next morning xX

The light from my binds hit the floor, my clock said 6:25am. I had an half an hour to get out of here and get to school. I pushed the covers back off of my body and climbed groggy out of bed.

I dressed in my blackest clothes today like always. I was emitionly depressed in the head. I put on a dark blue corset and a pair of fake leather pants, like I have that much money. Pulling on my knee high boots over the pants and zipping the sides up. I stood in front of the mirror ingroning the laughing girl that was staring straight me in the face. I finished my makeup and pulled my hair back in to a loose bun.

I was late for school, I would not if my truck would start this morning. It was raining, the windshield wipers were full duty today as I mumbled to myself in an odd language that had the little girl inside my head thinking "What the hell is she talking about?" Pulling my hood up on my black sweatshirt. I got of the truck and headed towards the doors. There were no one in sight, not even the police that would stand at the front door to do back pack check. This was very weird. They are always there, must be something going on that is more important than this crap.

I pulled out my id tag and swipe it like a credit card but you don't get money you get the doors to open. There was a rain drop that ran down my forehead and it smelled like my cheap hairspary that I used this morning.

The halls were quite and empty as I could hear the air fill then leave my lungs. My heart stopped; I felt the air in my lungs stick in there like if I had an hand over my mouth. My body froze in it spot of traveling.

"Where were you last night." I dropped my bag and turned around slowly to see...

OK my readers please don't hurt me for not posting in a long time. I am working on a new story and I have four regents coming up but this summer, I promise to you all. I will start updating more better than I was. Got to go. Read the new story that will be out soon, A Knife called Lust it will be good. Well stay in the dark and remember to REVIEW!

Gothica