The New Girl Chapter 6: Break down, a law and order: svu fanfic

A/N: Seems like you want to get rid of Brian. OK. I can do that. I will be working on a way to do so in the next few chappies. Sorry it took so long to update. I went to my grandparents and stayed until today. THE RESULTS!

ELLIOT- 0

OLIVIA- 0

JOHN- 0

MONIQUE- 2

BRIAN- 6

OOOOO Burn Brian! Ha-ha.

On to the story!

Kimberly's POV

July 14th 2006. 2:46 p.m.

I walked out of the squad room and when I got to the roof I went over to the ledge, sat down, and cried. I couldn't stop the tears. They just kept coming. They knew too much. Now the entire squad knows I was attacked, that my dad walked out on us, and they just know too much.

"DAMN THEM!" I screamed as loud as I could.

After about 5 minutes my sobs subsided. And, I don't know why, but I started singing.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

(chorus)
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with

(chorus)

I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, for the same damn thing

(chorus, but slightly different)
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you?
Because of you?

I needed to sing. It's my outlet. Well, that and shopping. I heard a click coming from the door and my instincts kicked in. I pulled out my gun and held it at the door.

"Jesus, Kimberly, don't blow my head off!" Olivia said with a laugh.

I gave her a faint smile and felt tears come to my eyes. I turned my back and looked over the ledge. "Oh, Kimmy, come on hun, you'll be fine." I turned around and slid down the wall. Olivia came over next to me and wrapped me in a hug. That was it. I completely broke down. I had met this woman 6 days ago and I was sobbing on her shoulder. Now that's love! Yeah, right. (A/N: THIS IS NOT A FEMSLASH STORY!)

After a while we made our way back down to the squad room. All the guys looked at me, but that was okay. I was used to being stared at. I sat at my desk and asked them what was going on.

"Um, Kimmy, they uh, they found a body." Elliot said not meeting my eyes.

"Whose?" I said in a barely audible voice.

He mumbled something I couldn't hear.

"Speak up El, I can't here you." I said.

"Your mom's" He said so quiet, that if someone were to move their chair, I wouldn't be able to hear him.

"No, no no no no no. Oh god. Oh my god. Shit. Was it them?" I asked, for now, completely in control of my emotions.

"Yeah." He said.

'Oh god. Oh god. What am I gonna do? No. No no no no no! She was my rock. Damn them. Damn them to hell. Okay Kimmy, breathe. I have to call the family, my friends and, and, oh god. Why is this happening?'! Why me? Why now? I have one fucking moment of happiness and THEY take it away. I'll kill 'em. I swear to god I will. Wait, I can't do that. I'll lose my job and go to jail. That's bad. I'll just send 'em to jail. Or better yet, the death penalty. That'll work. I have to call mom and- shit. I can't. Because she's dead. Oh god! I'm gonna throw up.

And with that I raced out of the bullpen and into the restrooms and emptied the contents of my lunch. I felt someone come in and hold my hair. When I was done I turned around to find it was Elliot.

"Thanks El." I said weakly.

"Anytime Kimmy, anytime. If you feel the need to vomit just call me." He said with a chuckle.

"All right. I'll keep that in mind." She said with a light laugh.

Olivia's POV

"I'll go." I said.

As I walked up to the roof I heard singing, at first I thought someone was playing the radio, but then I realized it was Kimberly. Damn. That girl had some voice!

"Guys, get up here!" I whispered.

When they came up, they looked around as if they were going to see some superstar singing. I pointed my finger at the door and they seemed to get the message because they had shocked looks on their faces.

"Damn. That girl can SING!" Monique said as quietly as she could.

(chorus)

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you?
Because of you?

After about 3 minutes it stopped and I heard sobs. The guys, who obviously didn't want to deal with an emotional girl immediately retreated back to Cragen's office. I told Jeffries I'd go and she went to Don's office too.

I went on the roof and found Kimmy with her Glock, pointed at my head, finger on the trigger, and pain in her eyes.

"Jesus, Kimberly, don't blow my head off!" I said with a laugh.

She gave me a faint smile and I saw tears welling up in her eyes. She turned her back and started quietly sobbing.

"Oh, Kimmy, come on hun, you'll be fine." I said reassuringly.

She turned around and slid down the wall. I came over and gave her a hug. I just sat there, comforting my new friend and letting her sob on my shoulder. After about 5 minutes of that and 15 of calming her down, we made our way back downstairs. The guys looked grim and they all stared at Kimmy.

"Um, Kimmy, they, uh, they found a body." Elliot said not meeting anyone's eyes.

"Whose?" She said curiosity getting the best of her.

Elliot mumbled something that so wasn't audible.

"Speak up El, I can't hear you." She said.

"Your mom's." he said his voice barely above a whisper.

"NO, no no no no no. Oh god. Oh my god. Shit. Was it them?" She asked, face completely blank.

"Yeah." He said.

For the next few seconds she didn't say anything. Just sat and stared at the picture on her desk. After about a minute, she raced out of the bullpen and into the restroom. Elliot followed.

Yay! Longest chapter ever!100 somewords! Brian will be gone in a few days. And, for how long this frickin' chapter is, 4 PAGES, I better get some serious review numbers!

-Brittni