Chapter 40:

The following morning Hermione tried to do everything to forget about the events and only face them when they needed to be faced; this coming up Friday. She dreaded that day but knew it must come. Till then she swore to act as normal as she could and enjoy her week as best as she could.

Draco was been very sweet. He didn't question her and went along with her pretence. Though deep inside he knew something was wrong, he ignored his curiosity and did all he could to ease his girl's rainy days.

The week passed by with a blink of an eye. Before Hermione realized it was Thursday night. The night before the procedure. The last night she would be pregnant.

She was lying in bed when Draco walked in. He curled up next to her, and brought her into a warm hug. Hermione looked up at him and could feel the hot tears forming in her eyes. She steadied her breath and looked deeply into his eyes. They were so kind and so warm that it overwhelmed her.

"Draco do you love me?" she asked, with nothing more than a whisper.

"Off course I do." he replied kissing her temple.

"Do you promise to love me no matter what?" she asked, her voice croaking.

"Yes. I promise to love you no matter what." said Draco bringing her even closer.

Yeah Just think Just Think
What if you could Just
Just blink your self away..

Hermione breathed in deeply, his musky smell hitting her nostrils. She sighed into his shoulder as tears started rolling down her cheeks. Hermione couldn't help it, she tried to be strong this whole entire week but today she finally broke down.

Just Just wait just pause for a second
Let me plead my case
It's the late 70's Huh
You Seventeen huh

And having me that will ruin everything huh

Hermione cried out of guilt, and out of confusion. She cried because it was hard, and she desperately needed someone by her side. Hermione cried because she didn't know if she was making the right decision, but she knew she had to stick with it. But most of all Hermione cried, because she knew that the fact that she will kill her own baby would hunt her down for the rest of her life.

It's alot of angels waiting on their wings
You see me in your sleep so you cant kill your dreams

Draco noticed Hermione's tears. He was hurting because he knew that his girl was in some sort of pain, and he had no idea how to help her, or console her. She wouldn't talk to him, and she insisted on everything being ok. He patted her back and shushed her. Stroking her hair gently and saying that everything will be ok.

300 Dollars thats the price of living what?
Mommy I dont like this clinic
Hopefully you'll make the right decision
And dont go through with the Knife incision

In his arms, being comforted by his kind wards, was the only place Hermione had found rest and had finally fell asleep. As much as she hoped for a sound sleep it was the opposite of what she got.

But it's hard to make the right move
When you in high school
How you have to work all day and take night school
Hopping off da bus when the rain is pouring
What you want morning sickness or the sickness of mourning

Her dreams were haunted by cries. Baby cries. It was crying for life. For survival. Hermione had a baby in her arms, huddled inside a lot of sheets. She looked down at it and shook her head for no. She threw it in the trash bin and ran away. She tried to ignore the cries that were coming from the bin, but she couldn't. She ran faster and faster yet the further she ran, the louder the cries got.

I'll Always Be a part of you
Trust Your Soul Know it's always true
If I Could Talk I'd Say To You
CAN I LIVE
CAN I LIVE

"Nooooooooooooooooooooooo." Hermione yelled as she sat up waking up from her dream, covered in sweat.

Draco quickly got up and sat next to her, bringing her head down to his shoulders.

"Noooo." she cried into his shoulders.

I am a child of the king
Ain't no need to go fear me
And I see the flowing tears so know that you hear me

"Nooooooooooooo."

When I move in your womb that's me being scary
Cause who knows what my future holds
Yo the truth be told you ain't told a soul
Yo you ain't even showing I'm just 2 months old

"Shh love, don't worry. It was just a dream baby, just a dream." said Draco stroking her hair.

Through your clothes try to hide me deny me
Went up 3 sizes
Your pride got you lying saying ain't nothing but a migraine
It ain't surprising you not trying to be in Wic food lines

Hermione laid back down on the pillow and crawled into Draco's embrace, crying into her knees that were now folded into her body.

Your friends will look at you funny but look at you mommy
That's a life inside you look at your tummy

She sobbed harder and harder, the dream was still vivid in her mind. She wanted it to leave, to stop hunting her down, but it wouldn't.

What is becoming ma I am Oprah bound
You can tell he's a star from the Ultrasound
Our Sprits Connected Doors Open Now
Nothing But Love And Respect Thanks For Holding Me Down She Let Me Live...

She felt her eyes drying out of tears, but yet by some miracle they kept on streaming. Her eyes stung with pain, but she cried harder and stronger, cried for all of her misery, until her energy left her and she fell asleep.

I'll Always Be a part of you
Trust Your Soul Know it's always true
If I Could Talk I'd Say To You
CAN I LIVE
CAN I LIVE

The next morning Hermione woke up bright and early. She looked at her reflection in the mirror and all that looked back at her was a dull face with tear strained eyes. 'It will all be over soon.' she encouraged herself and walked out of the house into the cab that would take her to the clinic.

Hermione was there along with two other women. One was a red head that looked as young as 15, and the other was a women that looked to be in her 30's. Hermione sat at the uncomfortable chair and stared at the blank wall. She was now emptied of all thoughts and emotions. Every bit of life that was in her drained away with her tears last night.

The sound of her name being called was the only thing that brought her back to reality. She got up and looked at the nurse.

"It's time." the nurse said.