Chapter 12 - What I Need

"Well, Cid." Tifa started. "What are you gonna do?"

Those five words stuck in my head like a needle stuck in a fuckin' pin cushion! I didn't know what to do, honestly. I hated Shera, but she sounded so real in her apology. Vin obviously loved me in some sense. I had something goin' with Vin and I really wanted to know more about it, mainly because I think I might be..uh..ya know. I hate to admit it, but I kinda like being a bitch every now an' then. I can't explain why it hurts so bad that it feels...so good. I would've never imagined being on the bottom, but I digress. This woulda been like a crossroad in my life if I didn't keep thinkin' about what me an' Vin did that night and how he could improve. I had to choose between something I desired and something I could give a flying fuck about. The only difference was that thing I gave a flying fuck about had something I cherished deeply. Something I would actually die for. Try an' guess who the the hell it is I could care less about! I had to make a choice. Then it hit me. I needed my airship back, but I didn't want to leave Vin behind. I needed both of them. So had to do what I had to do.

"You're leaving! Aren't you?" Tifa blurted out. I guess she figured it out after a while of me standin' there all quiet in nothing but a towel. Before I could say anything, she started screamin' at me like I was some evil puppy dog or somethin'!

"How can you leave Vincent behind like this after everything he did for you? You used him just so you can get that...fucking airship back! It's not right that you did him like you did! He opened his home to you. Something I wish I could say he would do for me! I could just---"

"So you're leaving." Vin's voice seemed to come from outta nowhere 'cause I was kinda busy ignorin' Tifa and I didn't expect to hear him. Tifa looked at the doorway and I turned around to do the same.

"Then go." He sounded like he didn't even care about it. That got me heated.

"Don't you even care about how fuckin' hard this is for me to do?"

"If you don't want to leave, then stay." Vin said. I sighed, but what I wanted to do was cry. He said it like none of this meant a damn thing to him, and that really hurt me 'cause this was a hard decision to make. I decided I was gonna get some sleep 'cause I was a little tired and I wanted to sleep on it to make sure it was what I really wanted, but Tifa wasn't hearin' that shit! I headed out the doorway when she grabbed my arm tryin' to stop me.

"Cid! Stop running!" she said, soundin' all serious an' shit. "You gotta make a choice, Cid. It's now or never! If you walk out that door, then you can't come back!"

"Okay, chick. One...this is my room." Tifa looked around like she was fuckin' suprised. "Two. Vin should be sayin' this to me. Not you!" I pulled away from her. "I don't need my clothes right now. I just want to go to sleep! Is that so much to fuckin' ask?"

I almost ran down the stairs and flopped on the couch. I didn't even pull the covers over myself! I just closed my eyes and tried to go back to sleep. After maybe a minute, I felt some hands rubbin' on my chest. I thought it was Vin, but I looked up an' saw nothin' but chest, so I knew it was Tifa. I sat up and she came around to sit beside me. She looked like she about to cry her eyes out. I guess she really cared about Vin, too.

"You're really going to leave him behind?" She looked at me with the face that I knew I couldn't lie to.

"Ya know, Tifa." I explained. "When you played me that message, I said to myself. I said 'Cid, this could be your chance to get your baby back from that bitch ass broad who put you through all this. When I said that, something made me think. If I had never broken up with Shera, then none of this would have happened. That part is pretty much given away. But what if I really didn't break up with her? Would I a been happy with her? I never knew how much I cared about Vin until now. If Shera didn't mess shit up like she always does, then I woulda never found out about Vin..or myself for that matter." Tifa looked at me with concerned eyes.

"What are you saying, Cid?" Tifa asked me. "Are you saying...you...?"

"No use running from it anymore." I sighed. "So yeah."

"Wow! That is soo cool!"

Ya know, I expected Tifa to be accepting, but her thinkin' it was 'cool' just fuckin' scared me.

"Uh, just so we're tracking..you're not leaving, right?" I smiled.

"Naaah. I'ma be a little broken up without my baby girl, but hey, I'll just build another one. Besides, I can't leave Vin behind again."

"I didn't think so. Forgive me my overactive emotions."

"No problem." She gave me this wierd look I've never seen on her face. Then, outta thin air, Tifa starts makin' out with me, tryin' to stick her tongue down my throat. I didn't break it though, 'cause I knew I wouldn't have too many chances like that! She broke the hold.

"This is why it's cool that you're gay, Cid." she started. "I can make out with you and I won't have to worry about you getting hard or anything."

"Don't be so damn confident, Tifa. You are a pretty damn hot girl, you know."

"What are you saying? Are you saying you like me?" She reached betwen my legs an' grabbed my shit! She made jump if nothin' else because her hands were cold as ice! "No. You're still soft, but damn! Rude would be jealous! Too bad I can't have that for myself, huh?" I thought to myself, yeeeeaaaahhh!

"I dunno, Tifa. Keep that up an' you might get a chance!"

"Oh! You're nasty!" She punched my arm lightly an' we both busted out laughin' our asses off! We heard someone clear their throat and we knew who it was.

"Did I interrupt something?" Vin asked us.

"Naw, Vin. Not at all." I said after readjustin' my towel after Tifa slipped her hands up there. Tifa shifted her hair outta her eyes. I'm sure he saw what we did, though. He came to sit beside us, makin' it real fuckin' tight in that little love seat!

"Why didn't you ask me if I wanted to join in?" Tifa smiled.

"I didn't think you'd like it as much as Cid would, so..."

"You never asked, so I never told you." Vin looked at me. "Cid, however, is someone who becomes a completely different person when having sex. Be sure to stay on defense if we're ever to get together as the three of us."

Me and Tifa looked at him like zebra stare at lions when they're gonna die. I didn't get it at first, but when Tifa blurted it out I understood right away.

"Vincent. You wanna have a threesome?"

I thought, damn! I ain't know he liked it like that! ...Hot!

"Just to experiment. To see what the whole thing is about." Tifa starts explaining it to us.

"It's great! You get to have someone to play with while the other person plays with you. You'll never be bored. You also get to take turns with each other. You know, like, switching positions."

While she was talkin', I was thinkin'. I did love Vin. And I knew he loved me. I didn't care anymore. I wanted the whole world to know exactly what it was I wanted. What it was that I needed. I needed to be with Vin. I'd never leave him. Hey, I can replace my airship no problem. I can't replace him and what he felt for me. I stood up, despite the tight squeeze, positioned myself in front of Vin, and knelt down in front of him. Tifa stopped talkin' and looked over at me while Vin was looking down at me.

"Vincent." I said. "I have a confession to make."

"You gave your confession already, Cid." he said tryin' to be funny. I didn't laugh 'cause I was bein' serious.

"I know, and I told the truth. Who the hell said I couldn't give another one?" Vin looked at Tifa. She just hunched her shoulders.

"Not me." she said.

"Well then." I said. "Let me finish. I wanna stay with you, Vin."

"Then stay." he said. I was sure he didn't understand.

"No. You don't understand, Vin. I wanna stay with you. I'm not going back to how I used to be. You changed me. I ain't smoked in god knows how long! I'm wearin' nice clothes. Most of all, I'm feelin' a hell of a lot more positive about myself. I know you wanted to change to make yourself happy, but you made me happy in the process. I love being with you an' I never wanna leave! Fuck, Vin! I love you!"

Vin looked at me an' started cryin'! Tifa was cryin', too, but she's a chick. She's built to cry during scenes like this. I would have never imagined Vin crying, though. It let me know he felt the same way I did. I wasn't just some test dummy like I thought I was before. He pulled me into him an' I could feel his tears rolling down my left shoulder. Tifa joined in on the tears and hugged us both.

"I wanna stay with you, too!" Vin stopped cryin' almost instantly.

"What? Why?"

"Because living with Cloud is pure hell!" Tifa let us go. "He is sooo emo he brings down the homeless! Not to mention he's always crying over Aeris! I mean, I wish that just once someone would cry over me and not Aeris! I hurts me so much! If I stay with you guys, I'll have someone to talk with about stuff, you know! Besides, I feel real close with you two now. I'd feel better staying with you. Pleeeease let me stay, Vincent."

The way he looked at her, I thought he was gonna bite her fuckin' head off.

"I have enough room for you here, Tifa. You may stay with me."

"Ohhh, thank you, Vincent!" Tifa screamed as she squeezed Vin and me as tight as she could. "Oh, I won't break in between you two unless you ask me to."

"No need to worry about that, Tifa." Vin told her. "I've got that under control." She let us go and stood up outta the couch.

"Well, I'll go back to Midgar later on today and get my things." She turned around to us. "I'll come back real fast, so don't do anything too naughty while I'm gone!" She ran upstairs and me and Vin looked at each other.

"It's gonna be interestin' livin' with Tifa." I told Vin.

"It'll be interesting living with you, My Precious." he replied before he kissed me on my lips.

"Hey. Don't get used to callin' me 'Your Precious'! I hate that shit!"

"I wasn't about you directly, Cid." He gave me some evil look then I realized who..uh...what...he was talkin' about.

"Oh! Uh...well, likewise."

"One question."

"Shoot."

"I noticed that you managed to wrap both of your legs around me while on your back. When did you become so flexable?"

"I guess you brought 'the beast' outta me!" Vin started gigglin' then held me close to him.

"I'm glad that you and Tifa are staying with me, Cid."

"Why?"

"Now I don't have to worry about being alone. I feel better with you and Tifa here now that the three of us have confessed to each other something we haven't told anyone else. Like Tifa, I feel a new bond between the three of us. However, it's nothing like the one between us, Cid." He kissed me again then looked back into my eyes. "I love you, too."

"Good." I stood up. "Vin, I'm fuckin' beat! I'm tired from not gettin' no sleep an' you fuckin' the hell outta me! By the way, I'm still sore, so no more 'til I get better. What I'm tryin' ta say is I want to go back to sleep!"

"Alright." Vin said as he stood up off the love seat. "I'll get Tifa to help with breakfast then. You may sleep in my bed if you wish."

"Thanks." I started upstairs then I had this scary ass thought about what happened that last time Vin decided to make something for me.

"Uh, Vin!" I yelled into the kitchen.

"Yes, Cid?" he yelled back.

"I need you to let Tifa make the sausage this time. OK?"

"Why?"

"Because you burnt up the last ones!"

"I won't burn them this time! I promise!" He sounded like he was crossin' his fingers behind his back. "Besides, they were well done! Not burnt!"

"What the hell ever!"

I continued upstairs and stopped at the crossroad between my room and Vin's room. I had one more thing I left to do. I went into my room and picked up my phone. I needed to make a phone call.

"Hello?"

"Uh..Hey, Shera."

"(gasps.) You called me back! I'm sorry for calling so late, but I couldn't sleep."

"Um...Neither..could I."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

"I..uh..I still love you, Cid. You know that, though. Don't you?"

"Yeah, I do. That's why I got three very famous words for you, Shera."

"(gasps again.) Really, Dear? What are they?"

"I...uh...I don't know to tell you this."

"Just...blurt it out, Honey!"

"Alright. (clears throat.) Fuck you, Bitch!"

Fin