He'd been thinking of what he was going to say all the while he'd been walking, and now that he actually knew where he was going, he was starting to doubt what he'd thought before, but he kept going. He'd made his decision. Ten minutes later he came to a house near the outskirts of town. Without hesitation he walked up to it and rang the doorbell. He heard some noise on the other side of the door, like someone fumbling with their keys and then it opened...
Chapter 15.
"Kai?" Kai took one step towards Jiraya and caught her lips in one swift motion. His hands wove around her body and he tore his lips from hers to embrace her tightly. Jiraya was shocked at first but soon melted into Kai's arms...
Ever since that first kiss when Jiraya had taken Kai by surprise
he'd been thinking, he'd had so many questions in his head that
were unanswered, and that dream had answered them.
You only get a
few chances in life to be truly happy, to be truly cared for and
truly loved and that was what Kai had realised, when the man in his
dream had tried to take Jiraya away, Kai had felt like part of him
was being torn away. He'd felt incomplete and it had scared him
more than anything in the world. He'd known at that moment that he
couldn't lose Jiraya. Her kiss had been the only gesture of love he
had ever received and it had destroyed any other feelings he may have
had about love being wrong. How could it be wrong when it made him
feel like this; when for the first time in his life he felt like he
was soaring high above everything, like he actually had something in
his life worth living for? He felt like he was loved. And it was then
that he'd realised what it was he felt every time he was near
Jiraya, even that very first time when he'd seen her behind the
bar. He'd felt something he'd never felt before and it had scared
him. It had made him retreat behind his walls again. He'd felt love
for another. He'd had it drilled into him for so many years that
love was a waste of time; that it was weak, and he couldn't escapes
from those beliefs, but he didn't believe them any more. He loved
Jiraya, and while the feeling was still very new to him and he didn't
really know how to deal with it just yet, he knew that it wasn't
wrong to feel this way. In fact it couldn't have felt more
right.
"Does this mean..." Jiraya whispered, barely able to
believe that Kai was here in her arms. Kai looked into her face and
wanted so much to tell her just what he had learned, what he now
understood, but...
"I...I.." Kai still couldn't get the
words out. His conditioning was still too strong. Jiraya put a finger
up to his lips.
"Shh.. You don't need to say it. We can do
everything at your pace. I don't want to lose you." Jiraya smiled
at Kai and for the first time in a very long time Kai smiled, not one
of his trademark smirks, but a genuine smile that made Jiraya smile
even wider because she knew what a privilege it was to be allowed to
see it. She tenderly took Kai's hand in hers and led him into the
house. Kai felt that familiar jolt and smiled again. It no longer
felt like weakness to him to be near her, and he no longer felt weak
to want to be near her. He felt strong and whenever Jiraya looked at
him, he felt even stronger.
He felt strong. He felt happy. He felt he could fly...
Ok. That's it. I hope you liked my first fanfic. I tried hard and I'm really in two minds about this ending, I may end up rewriting it, so some feedback would be great. Please r&r. I try to reply to all reviews and if I haven't already I always read the stories of people who review me because I think it's only polite.