So next chapter hopefully wont take as long as last time but oh well. So yeah sometimes writing can be a little difficult but thats what comes with it. That is pretty much it with this A/N.

TRIGGER WARNING: This chapter contains references of ED and Drug abuse and references Abuse Self Harm Sexual assault.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own the Mortal Instruments and sadly I will most probably never own it. I own the plot hopefully.

Quick thing for people confused Jace lost his parents when he was 3 and he left Clary when he and her were 8. Clarys mother (Jocelyn Garroway) left with Jon when Sebastian, Jon were 6 and Clary had just turned 3. (Jace and Clary have the same birthday)

Previously

We stayed until I stopped crying and gave into the never ending fight with darkness.

Clary's pov

When I woke up, I took in my surroundings after rubbing the sleep from my eyes. Some reason I was boiling hot and when I looked down it was blankets, I looked to the bedside table where a clock was and it had read 4:30pm. Shit I need to get home, Valentine and Seb are going to be pissed. I bolted up and practically ran out the door, messily scribbling on a piece of paper so that Magnus would know where I was.

When I got to the house you could already smell the weed, luckily Valentine's car was gone but Sebastian's was there. I reached to door and nervously opened the door only to see Seb sitting on the tatty couch with half an empty bottle of vodka.

"Where the fuck have you been you worthless piece of shit!" He roared, I moved to go past him when a bottle went flying into my head and he yanked me to him. "I said where the fuck have you been whore." He roared again. I did something I should never have done and I yelled back slapping him whilst I spoke.

"You actually said 'where the fuck have you been you worthless piece of shit not whore." My eyes widened when I realised what I had just done so did he and he smirked, before he slapped me and threw me into the table causing me to fall and land in an awkward way. I yelped out in pain but started crying when he delivered blow after blow to my rib cage causing a few to break.

He saw me crying and I always knew that meant the punishment would get worse and I was correct. He dragged me to his room and pinned me down on the bed before putting restraints on my arms and legs. He started to trail kisses down my body before taking my clothes of and undoing his. Once he was finished he thought chucking me into my room was the best idea, where I sobbed for the next few minutes before finally going into the bathroom and scrubbed till my body was raw.

Every time this happened it took most of my energy to get rid of the feeling but, it never goes away and I don't think it ever will. When I finished and got out it was 6:15, I was supposed to be at Alec's at 6.

We always did this on Halloween night because one night when I was 13 after, Sebastian and Valentine were done beating me up I confessed almost everything to Magnus, Alec and Simon and then we just watched Friday the 13th series and it just became tradition. I quickly grabbed the box that was under one of the nicer tiles and cut really deep, maybe a little to deep.

The crimson blood had started to fall off of my arm and into the sink as I put a bandage on. The mirror that once hung on the wall was covered up because I couldn't see myself that way without feeling awful. I got changed and grabbed my phone only to see 15 missed calls from Alec 3 missed calls from a random number and 12 texts from Simon, Alec and Magnus. I opened Simon's and it read 'I'm over Alec's where are you?' Another said 'Clary has something happened? Where are you?' I quickly sent a response to him before stuffing my phone into my bag. I went to the fridge and saw a note from Sebastian.

Dear Clarissa

I hope you are reading this Dad and I are going to be gone on a 'business trip' sadly you haven't finished school yet so we can't bring along our toy. But when we get back if the house or you are not there we will find you and we will make the punishments a lot worse. We will be gone for a week roughly. If you gain anymore weight or anything we will make your life even worse.

Sebastian and Valentine.

The feeling of dizziness washed over me and I fell but I caught my self before I could, choosing to ignore the dizziness -because I was so used to it- I grabbed my door key and locked the door behind me before heading towards Alec's apartment. (A/N so Magnus and Alec are 18 Jace and Izzy are 17 Clary and Simon are 16. Idris high I dont know if this is actually a thing but the grades or years as im going to call it are within these age gaps everyone is in the same year/ grade 15-18 is the age gap this is why Magnus and Clary share a form room)

When I finally finished going up the stairs I almost collapsed again but I knocked on Alec's door and was immediately hugged by him, Magnus and Simon, they let me go and the dizziness came back and black spots clouded my vision. The next thing I remember was strong arms wrapping around my waist before I collapsed and when I met his eyes they were golden, I looked down to his lips and I could see them moving but no sound came out. It was only when I realised who it was I whispered.

"Giallo?" I finally succumbed to the darkness.

Jace's pov

After 9 years I finally had her back in my arms safe. I took in her face before her eyes closed and there were marks all over and her arm was bandaged. When I finally noticed her eyes, the emerald that was once there had vanished and now was no longer noticeable because her eyes were so much duller.

"Clary your ok. Clary can you hear me?" I said, and when I saw her eyes started to close I continued. "Clary stay with me don't you dare close your eyes when I just got you back. Please." Her eyes soon started to close but before they did she whispered something.

"Giallo?" Her eyes finally closed and I whispered,

"Rossa?" Everyone around us were frozen in place until Alec ripped Clary from my arms and took her into what I think was his bedroom. I saw one look on their faces and it was pity. After my parents died the only person who was able to get me up and out of my room was Clary. She never told me the problems with her family or anything and yet she acted so strong. Clary was the girl who I have been in love with since I was 3, but then life made our lives more difficult.

Hope you all enjoyed that chapter yes it is most probably shorter than some but still.