Disclaimer- As always story is all mine, unfourtantley the characters aren't.
Authors note- So I'm sorry it took me so long to post, I've just been so busy as usual if that's an excuse. So i'm glad all of you like the story so much and I promise I'll thank you all individually soon, just don't have the time right now, but your reviews are what keeps me writing. So this picks up right after the whole akward introduction but Spencer has a bit of a flashback at the beginning just wanted to let you know to clear up any possible confusion, so if you actually read this whole boring authors note, hope you enjoy the chapter and sorry I don't have spell check right now and I am a horrible speller for some reason.
Standing in that airport watching the two of them embrace, I couldn't help but flashback to that month or two in highschool. Ashley and I had broke up over some trivial fight we had, and the two of us were both to stubborn to apolgize to the other, so we had a whole month of akward, glances in the hallway and classes, frustration and a whole lot of communcation problems.
During that time Ashley decided it would be a good idea to start dating other people and I played it cool, I was totally fine with it, it had been a month afterall. Fine with it, that was until I actually saw her with another girl one night at grey, I pride myself in being a rational level-headed person, but I lost it.
The thought of some other girl, touching her, kissing her, worse even making love to Ashley, my Ashley made me physically ill. I drove over to her house later that night, not caring that it was past two in the morning,and way past my curfew. Sleep wasn't even an option, and if god forbid something was happening with her and that girl I had to stop it, reclaim what was rightfully mine.
I remember knocking on her front door, finding it unlocked, I just let myself in and headed straight for her bedroom. When I opened that door though, she was standing right in the doorway, her face a mix of bewilderment, suprise and a hint of amusement, I was to angry to notice. I could only imagine what I must of looked like, face flushed from anger and this foriegn surge of jealousy pumping through my veins. I remember the conversation as if it was yesterday...
" Where is she?" I asked.
" Who?" she replied innocently.
" You know who! That girl you were with at grey, the one that you were practically having sex with on the dance floor, the one that was draped all over you. That girl!" I shot back my voice rising in volume.
" Whoa... Spence who do you care who is draped all over me we're not together remember and she's not here...", She trailed off.
Her breath was labored, her hair had fallen into her face, her eyes had turned almost black in color and I decided that angry Ashley was the sexiest Ashley yet. All feeling of anger dissapated and I pulled her in for a hot Passionate kiss, it was the only way I could convey to her how I felt, how she was the only one I wanted, and how I wanted to be the only one she ever needed.
I remember after the mindblowing makeup sex, she told me she was with that girl just to make me jealous and cause that exact reaction in me, becuase she couldn't bear to be apart from me any longer and she didn't know another way to get me back. I should of been mad but I wasn't, I was to happy to be back in her arms.
Now fast forward about five years, and here I am again watching her with some other girl, and I can't help but hope that this Julie girl, is exactly like that girl from so many years ago. Just a ploy to make me insanley jealous and come running back into her arms. Yet I can't shake the feeling that she is so much more to the woman I still love, and I can't help but wonder why I care so much.
When they finally break their hello kiss, that Ashley and I almost shared before we were interuppted by her, we all head over to baggage claim. Ashley and I sharing akward glances all the way there, and the silence that had fallen among the three of us was driving me crazy so I decided to break it with the first thing that popped into my head
" So Julie, How long have you known Ashley?" As much as seeing them together hurt, I had to know more it was like I was possesed or something.
" How long has it been baby?" she asked her eyes drifting over to the brunette for an answer, even though she seemed like she already knew it.
" Its been a while babe" Ashley returned, and their endearments were starting to make my stomach turn.
" Around a year or two I guess...but we've only been dating for three months next week" Her answer cut me like a razor sharp knive, If Ashley keeps someone around for more than a night, she must really care about them, and I didn't want her to care about Julie I wanted to be the only woman she cared about.
" Thats just wonderful" I shot back a little to cheery I guess, becuase I could tell Ashley heard the ridgeness in my tone.
She even came up behind me and whispered breath tickling my ear " but I've know you longer" and I couldn't help but smile at that one thing I would always have over anyone that Ashley so chose to date.
Stirring my coffee languidly with my straw, I couldn't help but notice the brown of the coffee and milk mixture was the exact color of Ashley's chesnut eyes, except I couldn't get lost in that brown, I couldn't drown in it like I could in her gaze. We had both decided to go get coffee after the airport, Julie had left over an hour ago in a huff after Ashley said she wanted to spend some time with me instead of her, and despite the fact that I was slightly peeved at her for Julie even being at the airport I couldn't deny the fact that I wanted to spend some time with her too.
So here we are drinking coffee, neither of us have said a word since we sat down in this small cafe, just enjoying eachothers company without the complications of words, and explantions. But as in all things good they must come to an end and I break the silence
" So Julie seemed pissed..." .I offer up lamley and Ashley looks almost depressed that I brought her own girlfriend's name up.
" Yeah, O well she'll get over it I don't care... lets not talk about her. I haven't seen you in three months, I want the Spencer Carlin lowdown, tell me everything I missed. Except if you could,just leave Morgan out of this all together" She finished with a laugh her eyes pleading mockingly, and I thought about pressing her for more info about Julie ,for instance why did she come to the airport in the first place, but I let it go.
"Oh so now we're just going to entirley ignore both of our girlfriends all together?" I ask the slightest hint of amusement lacing my words.
" Don't we always." she says, her eyes dancing, dark and michievously. I know that look, its the look she's given me a thousand times, the one that always leads us to nowhere good and fast. Well something thats earth shatteringly amazing at the time,but never complicated in the end.
I just shake my head at her, leaving that statement hanging between us in the air. Our eyes meet, and the silence over takes us again, except this time the tension is starting to mount and the temptation of what we both know we could be doing is almost tangible.
My heart is racing, and I'm losing control of the blood flow in my body, and everything seems to be settling in all the wrong places, the wrong places when your trying to contain yourself.
How did such and innocent conversation, turn so quickly. Thats the problem, the thing that always happens with us, one minute were just two friends and the next we're so much more.
She reaches out to stroke my hand, that is resting inbetween us on the wooden table and the contrast from the hard wood and her soft, warm fingers do nothing to cool the heat that's suddenly overtook me.
" I have something to ask you Spence." I just nod my head willing her to continue " Can I stay with you tonight?"
I almost laugh at the absurdity of her question, I know she knows whats transpiring between us,she feels it too, and she knows what will inevitably happen, if I bring her home with me. And I knowing that Morgan is out of town, know I will be powerless to stop it.
" Do you really think that's a good Idea?" I ask.
" No." She answers flat out.
" Either do I" her face falls before I continue" But yes you... can stay." I finish
And with that we both get up and head through the cafe doors.
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