Disclaimer: Don't own anything. Except maybe the plot. Please don't sue me I'm a broke college student I don't really have anything you would want.
Extra Disclaimer: I sort of let the language get away from me a bit in this one. Sorry.
AN: I may let Anna's accent drop when there are big sections. I have to make a conscious effort to write with it and sometimes forget.
Review Response:
bored247 – I'm glad you loved it. I'm trying to be better about updating.
FluidDegree – You are going to get answers as to what she is going to say to him. You'll have to wait and see about what is going to happen after that. I'm glad you like it.
Elle457 – Part of my point is to make it fit with her present or at least not contradict it too much. I'm sorry it hurts your heart I suspect there will be a happy ending (which means there will be since I am the author after all). So it wont all be for nothing.
sakura5tar – I'm glad you like it. You're going to have to read this chapter to find out what Anna has to say and how she is feeling. I don't know how well I'm going to do with the length. I just sort of write until I feel like I've gone to where I wanted to be with that chapter ya know? I try to make it to at least the 5th page in my word processor that is about my only length guide. Hopefully updating more quickly will make up for it. I can at least guarantee that it will not be dark.
Chica De Los Ojos Café – Well he did try subtle. It didn't go so well. You'll get answers to at least some of your questions. Her dad's reaction isn't in this at least I don't think it will be. You never know what will happen until its actually written.
Spicy Sweet – I'm sorry I disrupted your sleep. That totally sucks. Talking you will definitely get, I will not reveal anymore then that at this time. Their conversation is the focus of this chapter.
Pussykat 8 – I am so glad you like my story. Hopefully this chapter won't let you down.
All Readers – THANK YOU for giving my little story a chance.
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Recap (Seemed like it might help with continuity):
"About what?" she asks trying to pull her wrist away from him.
"'bout this," he says as he pulls back her sleeve revealing dark purple bruises.
"It's nothing. Ah just walked into the door this mornin' ya know how clumsy Ah am."
"Anna, Ah was at your house last night…"
Her eyes go wide with shock. The only sound that escapes her mouth is a whispered "no."
After a minute of silence he takes her hand and speaks to her gently "Anna we need to talk about this. Please?"
She simply nods yes and leads the way up to her house.
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They stand in the hallway looking at each other.
Remy looks down at her concerned, this is not the response he expected. "Anna?...da ya want ta sit down and talk 'bout dis?"
"Ah dunno what ya want meh ta say. But we might as well go sit in the livin' room. Just beh careful. We can't make a mess."
"Ok, chere. Remy be careful."
They go down the hallway and turn into a small room. There is a big blue couch on one wall and a matching recliner sits in the corner. A glass top coffee table sits in front of the couch. The entire room is centered on a large entertainment center containing a big screen television. She takes a seat on the end of the couch. In reality she is perched barely placing any of her weight on the actual cushions. Remy moves to sit next to her but rethinks and decides to give her a little space. Thus he takes a seat on the floor next to the couch facing her.
They sit in silence for a minute.
"Cher, how long has it been goin' on?"
She hesitates looking at her hands which are folded in her lap. When she responds her voice is shaking "which part?"
"Everything."
She sits silently for a minute thinking about what to say.
"Befo' Ah say anythin' Ah want ta know.why ya were here last night."
"Remy guess that be fair. Remy wanted ta see ya last night. He came ova' and climbed onta the porch. When he was lookin' for ya room he saw ya and ya pere," he pauses looking at her. Seeing her face remain emotionless he continues. "Remy sorry cher. He wanted to come in and help. But he was paralyzed. He's never seen anything like it."
He waits for her to respond. But he is utterly unprepared when she stands up and speaks with venom in her voice. "And now ya want a turn is that it? Ya want mah body for your own? Well ya can fuckin' have it but don't expect to beh mah friend afta'." She is standing above shaking as tears stream down her face. Her hands have moved to her blouse slowly undoing the buttons. "So where do ya want meh? If its gonna beh messy Ah'ld rathe' not do it here." She has finished undoing her blouse and is starting to walk towards the door. Remy goes to grab her wrist his face twisted in horror at her misunderstanding of his intent. "Cher that is not what Ah meant." She doesn't seem to hear him and simply rips her wrist away from him. In the process she knocks his sunglasses off flinging them across the room. However, she does not notice his eyes as she continues her tirade, "Ah thought ya were different somehow. Ah thought ya actual gave a damn 'bout meh. Ah thought…" She stops as she catches sight of his eyes she is instantly mesmerized. "Ya eyes they're so… beautiful."
Taking advantage of her calmed demeanor Remy stands and wraps his arms around her in a hug. "Chere, Ah didn't mean what ya think ah did. Ah don't want ya body. Ah just wanted ta know what was happenin' ta find a way ta help ya. No one deserves what Ah saw last night. Come on lets sit back down ok?" Carefully he guides her back to the couch in the living room. This time taking a seat on the end of the couch and pulling her into his lap. He wraps his arms around her trembling shoulders. They sit in silence for a moment.
"Ah guess it started when ah was six. Ya have ta understand they aren't my real parents. Ah'm an orphan as far as Ah know. Ah was placed in foster care when Ah was two or three. Ah don't remember anythin' 'bout mah parents." She pauses taking a deep breath.
"Remy understands not remembering ya parents he be an orphan too."
"Really? Somehow Ah don't think your adoptive parents are quite the same. It started when not long after mah first mother died. She was killed when our house burned down. Ah had nightmares about the night it happen afterwards. So Ah started sleepin' in the same bed as him. Ah don't really remember what happened next. But one naght Ah woke up and he was raping meh. He told meh if Ah told anyone Ah would loose him too. What is a little girl ta do? Ah had just lost mah mother and he was the only person Ah had left." She looks at him with questioning eyes looking for some sort of reassurance that he understood.
He returns her gaze "Remy don't know what he would a dun but he don't think ya did wrong cher." She nods slightly and looks down at her hands. After another moment she begins again, "afta' a while it just became normal. All Ah had ta da was be there every night. Give him mah body and he would hold meh after and tell meh what a good girl Ah was. How ah was his darlin' baby girl. Ah was loved and that was all that mattere' ta meh. The funny thing is ah wouldn't care if that had gone on foreve'. Hell Ah wish it was just sex. Ah learne' ta sorta detach from mahself until he was dun. It didn't hurt anymore. But then everythin' changed. He starte' datin' again. Ah pretty much figured this was a good thin'. Until he starte' havein' the girls move in for stints. Ah was about 9 and had been sharing a bed with him for three years. He got off and Ah got comfort from mah nightmares. But once the girls starte' comein' ta stay Ah was out of the room and back in mah own room. Ah had rarely slept in there previously only when he was too drunk ta get it up at which point he would throw meh out of his room cause Ah was a reminder a what he couldn't do."
She pauses again taking a few deep breaths and closes her eyes. Remy holds her tighter to his chest stroking her hair with one hand while making sure the other one stays securely around her.
"So anyways, afta' a string of girls he finally settles on one. Ah was excited he was tellin' meh about how she was gonna be mah new momma and all. Ah figured we were gonna be a happy family again. Sure Ah was still havein' nightmares but they weren't anywhere near as bad so Ah was able to cope with them on mah own. Everythin' was goin' fine through the weddin' and even a month afta it. But then one night he came inta mah room. And he just screame' at meh about how Ah was a bad girl for makein' him want meh. So then he forced himself on meh. Not that Ah really fought back that much but Ah must of enough because he started punchin' meh and stuff. Ever since that night its gradually gotten worse."
Her trembling has gotten worse and the only things keeping her up are Remy's arms wrapped tightly around. Tears are silently making their way down both of their cheeks. "Oh Anna, Ah'm so sorry. Ya dun't deserve this. No one does. It's just not fair. Ah wish Ah could make it so ya never had ta go through this." He continues on slipping into French as he tries to express the pain he is feeling having learned what his friend has gone through. They sit for a while crying into each other's shoulders.
She begins to speak again but as she tries to tell him more she begins to sob causing her words to be broken by pauses and sobs. "Ah dun even sleep in mah bed anymore… Ah just can't face it. Ah'm terrified of mah bed...Hell Ah dun even sleep at night anymore… That's why Ah sleep during lunch so much…If he isn't keepin' me up Ah just sit in mah room doin' homework…Ah'm scare' ta sleep alone not that Ah can even fall asleep anymore. Not bah choice anyway…" as she dissolves into more tears he attempts to process these new revelations. "Cher? Ya sayin' that ya only sleep in school? That can't be enough. Why don't you tell one of the teachers? They could help Remy sure of it." She looks at him with fear in her eyes, "Tell a teacher? Are ya serious? They would take me away from here. Ah dun't care what he does ta me Ah'm not leavin' he's the only family Ah have. If ya gonna tell meh that Ah should go get mah self involved with social services ya gotta 'nother think comein'. Ah'll just end up with somethin' worse Ah'm sure. And Ah dun't only sleep in school. Ah also sleep in the afta'noon before my momma gets home. Down here in the livin' room cause Ah dun't have as many memories of here."
"Oh chere, Ah'm sorry. Ah didn't mean ta upset ya. Ah just thought that maybe someone could help ya. Ah'ld do anythin' ta save ya from this pain. Anythin'"
"It's ok suga' ya didn't know. Ah've done a good job a hidin' it ever since Ah found out that the teachers have ta report it if they see a lot of bruises. Ah really dun care about all of this ya just have ta promise meh ya wont tell anyone. Please promise meh."
"Ah promise. Ah wont tell anyone. Ah'm sorry Ah've kept ya from sleepin' this afta'noon. Ya probably need it since ya didn't sleep at lunch or last night. Please tell meh what Ah can do ta help ya chere. Ah can't stand seeing you in this pain. Ah just wish Ah could do somethin' for ya…"
He looks down at her face as he finishes this and realizes that she has drifted off to sleep. Seeing this he stops talking. He continues to stroke her hair gently as they sit in the living room.
Remy never dreamed that she could be going through this for so long. It was weird when she was talking I was so overwhelmed with guilt and despair. I've never felt that horrible before. Even when she was first talking it was different. I guess its just such an overwhelming amount of information. Not ever sleeping at night when he leaves her alone. No wonder she always has her homework done and is so tired at school. Everything makes so much more sense now…Shit she's shaking again. It looks like she is still asleep. Why am I so scared? This doesn't make sense. But that doesn't matter right now. I have to get her to calm down.
In Remy's arms the sleeping Anna is shaking as tears run down her face. She murmurs in her sleep. "Please stop. Ah'll be a good girl Ah promise… Please daddy Ah'll do anything ya want just don't hit meh. Daddy please… Momma why won't he stop? Ah just wanna be a good girl…it hurts daddy what can Ah do ta make ya happy?" Remy's attention is back on her now. He whispers to her switching in and out of French without so much as a thought. "Chere its gonna be ok. Ah wont let them hurt you any more. Remy is here to protect ya. Don't worry chere its gonna be ok." This has some effect and her murmuring stops but she is still crying and trembling slightly. Unsure of what else to do he begins singing to her in French. Stroking her hair and singing to her softly he pours out all of his affection and energy into making her feel safe. As if by magic she actually becomes calm. Slipping back into a calm deep sleep her body becomes peaceful allowing him to dry her tears.
Time goes by and Remy never stops offering her comfort. Not sparing a thought for anything else he simply caresses her hair and alternates speaking and singing to her in French. Amazingly she stays calm and asleep for the next couple of hours. Then as the clock reads 6:45 Remy hears an alarm go off. Attempting to locate the offending sound he shifts slightly and gives up his mantra of comfort. All of these combine to rouse her from her sleep.
She is startled to find herself in his lap and jumps slightly until the earlier conversation comes to her. Realizing that the alarm is going off she disentangles herself and goes to her back. Pulling out a small travel alarm clock she shuts off the alarm. She turns back to face him fear once again in her eyes, "Ya have ta go now. My momma's gonna be home in a few minutes. Ya can't beh here. Ah'm not supposed ta have people ova'. Please it will only make things worse." The imploring tone in her voice is all Remy has to hear. He gets up and gathers his stuff. He heads for the front door but she grabs his wrist. "Ya can't leave that way she might see ya. Ya gotta go out the back door and climb the fence. Ok?"
"Ok chere. Remy do that. Don't worry. But can Remy come back later. After he leaves tonight?"
"If ya will just go now, Ah'll turn a light on afta' he leaves. Now please Remy just leave."
"Ok. Ah'll be back later cher. Be strong."
They have reached the back door and she pushes him out quickly. But he is faster even then her and plants a kiss on her forehead before she can get the door closed. He stands for a minute looking at the closed door.
From the front of the house the sounds of a car pulling into the driveway can be heard. Taking one last look at the now closed door he slings his bag up onto his shoulder and sprints toward the back fence of her house. He climbs it easily dropping into the back yard of an unknown neighbor. He sprints across this yard and out on to the street. He slows to a walk and makes his way to his house.
This is definitely not how I expected today to go. Man I'm tired. Not really surprising considering I've been up all night. And it's not as if that wasn't a draining experience. I would do it again in a heart beat just to comfort her. But still draining over all, I don't know how she gets up everyday. She really is amazing. Remy be so tired, maybe he will just go home and sleep for a while. That would be nice. I'll just tell them that I ate out to get out of dinner. After that I can go lay down. Set and alarm for maybe one this morning. That should be late enough for him to have left. Probably make the midnight. Don't want her to be waiting too long.
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AN: Ok so hopefully people will be satisfied with this installment of their conversation. There will be more talking next chapter. If you haven't guessed Remy's empathy developed in this chapter. I was trying to keep him from figuring it out because I sort of thought that it would make sense if he was confused and didn't know what was going on but was able to calm her with it.
I guess its sort of a cliff hanger but I just felt like it was where the chapter should end. So you will have to put up with it I guess. I'm going to try to keep up with updating quickly but I can't make any promises.
This chapter seems a little off in parts but it does get the information I wanted across so I'm just going to hope for the best. Hope you enjoyed it.
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