Chapter Two Showers and Confessions

I open the door slowly to make sure no one is there. I glance down the hallway. They are all watching the movie Beast Boy begged me to watch earlier Terra is sitting next to him. I hope he's happy. I know I could never make him feel the same way that I do about him. We had a moment last month and now I can't stop thinking about him and I find myself falling in love with him more and more each day. I hate myself for feeling this way I've become one of those love struck teenagers I used to despise but I can't help it that's why I push him away I know he just wants to be friends and I can't be just his friend so it's better if I'm nothing to him. I creep to the shower room before any of them notice me (yeah dream on Raven you could walk out in a pink tutu and none of them would care)

I turn on the shower and let it heat up. I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror which depresses me even more I'm nothing compared to Terra. Why would Beast Boy even give me a second look? Pale Ghostly skin weird purple eyes and even stranger purple hair giant hips and boobs that don't fit in anything. Look at Terra long blond hair, bright blue eyes, beautiful tanned skin, and skinny as anything. I get in the shower before I start crying I really hate my image. The hot water runs over every inch of my body and how I wish it was him my thoughts go back to that night when he wrapped his arms around me and told me to live life to it's fullest. I remember everything about that night the how the air tasted, how beautiful the sunset was, how unbelievably sexy beast boy smelled and how firm his muscles felt.

I shake myself out of these thoughts if I think about him too long I become a bit depressed. I again creep down to my room as not to be noticed (Like it makes a difference) as I enter my room my cell phone goes.

"Hello"

"Hey Raven how are you"

Jinx one of my best friends she used to be a villain but then she turned good due to her long-term boyfriend Kid Flash.

The day after Terra's return

"So will you be back tonight?"

"Yeah I told them not to make me work to hard so I could spend some time with you"

Kid Flash had gotten himself a job at the post office delivering mail he was quite good at his job seeing as he was the fastest boy on earth but he also had to sort the mail and as he wasn't the most academic boy on the planet he had some trouble.

"Look I get paid today so I'm going to take you out because I love you so much okay"

"That sounds good and I love you too"

Jinx had been living with her boyfriend for about two months now she missed him when he went to work but he didn't work that many hours and she always found ways to amuse herself.

"see ya"

"See ya"

She watched Flash walk out the door then zoom off to his work destination. What should she do today she could go see her friends who lived in the massive house across the road the Harlequin girls lived there. The Harlequin girls where girls who merely trophy wives who happened to be involved with the military they were the top undercover girls and were basically like Charlie's angels with an edge. They liked Jinx and said she had potential to become a Harlequin girl she just needed to pass the training which is where she spent most of her days. Training. She was about to go over when she saw some rocks by the beach moving about and exploding being the curious cat she was she went to investigate.

Raven sat there in tears it had been ages since she let herself go like this but this was an extreme situation not only had terra come back the love of her life's biggest crush. But she had heard her on the phone with Slade speaking about their relationship she wasn't planning anything that would break the law she just planned to go out with beast boy and cheat on him with Slade, and the worst thing was that she knew no one would believe her. This made her cry even harder.

"Raven?"

A voice made her jump this was her place she came to cry because only the rocks would be destroyed she looked up and saw the familiar blue platforms.

"Jinx? What are you doing here?"

"I live just over there and I saw rocks moving so I came to investigate what's wrong?"

"Nothing"

"yeah that's why you're sitting here in tears, look Raven I know we've never been all that close but out of all the titans I feel like you're the only one I can relate to you're dark like me and you're powers are like mine fuelled by your emotions-"

"so are Starfire's"

"yeah but Starfire has to think of a happy thought to fly you have to dig up emotion now tell me what's wrong"

Beast Boy's words echoed in her 'head people will love you … start living life now that you can'

Raven took a deep breath and told Jinx everything