The warnings for this chapter have changed a little. There is some language and mention of rape not graphic rating is the same. If you are offended that is not my intention. Rape is a very serious crime and anyone who has been victimized this way should seek help. Ok sorry for the soap box but I don't want flames coming my way.
I own nothing but my characters.
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah
Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
Stand by Me Ben E King
Chapter 6
Lily stood to meet him when he sprang at her his gun for gotten in his rage. She spun and kicked out knocking him back into the wall he leapt at her again and she met his attack arms out in front of her hands facing out as he grabbed for her waist. She brought her knee up sharply into his groin and as he folded the door slammed open and there was Spencer and Morgan guns drawn but the shouts of FBI drop you weapon died on their lips as they watched Lily lace her hands together and bring them down hard on the back of his neck. He dropped to his knees and then to his side unconscious. She stood up breathing hard and she grinned at Spencer
"Hey babe what took you so long?"
He was in front of her in two long strides stepping unceremoniously over Mark and pulled her into his arms. Morgan dropped down next to Mark and yanked his arms behind him to hand cuff him. Mark moaned as he came around and Morgan hauled him roughly to his feet. He pushed him into the waiting arms of the cops. He turned and said "Lily are you- "He stopped when he realized she didn't hear him as Reid was doing his best to give her a tonsillectomy with his tongue. Morgan grinned, he turned saw other cops staring at the pair and he said "Hey nothing to see her let's leave them alone."
Spencer broke off the kiss he took her face in his hand and rested his forehead on hers. His heart was racing in time with hers.
"I guess you missed me." she quipped
"You have no idea Mrs. Reid; don't ever scare my like that again."
"I missed you too babe she said wrapping her arms around his neck.
"As much as I would like to stay this way forever, I don't want to be in this house another minute. Reid said kissing the tip of her nose.
Come on she said taking his hand and leading him out of the room.
They walked into the small outer room and Gideon hugged her tightly.
"Hey Dad, thanks for coming after me." She said.
"Yeah well do you think that you could stay out of trouble for awhile I don't think my old heart can stand this again" Gideon said
"Ok Dad I'll do my best."
"Well I guess your hand to hand lessons finally paid off Elle." Lily said turning to and hugging her friend.
"Yeah you laid him out good and proper, nice going."
She turned to Reid and said "Honey I don't want to be here anymore and I want to see my Gia please take me home."
"Yes, Gideon said take her home we'll talk tomorrow."
Morgan drove them back to DC They sat in the back not speaking just holding each other. Lily didn't care if they ever moved again. She was okay and back where she belonged in the arms of the man she loved with her whole being.
They arrived 2 hours later at Hotch's house.
Haley opened the door and gaped at the sight of Lily standing there. She squealed and hugged her friend tears running down her face.
"Oh, Lily I am so glad to see you we were so worried."
Lily was looking around the room anxiously. "Haley I don't want to be rude but where is Gianna?"
"Of course you want to see her, wait here."
She left the room for a minute and then returned with a sleepy little girl in her arms
Gianna eyes lit up at the sight of her mother.
"Mama" she cried and Lily swept her into her arms kissing her cheek and murmuring to her.
"Thank you Haley I don't know how to repay you "Spencer said.
"This is payment enough for me." She said tears falling as she watches Lily with Gianna.
"Thank you Haley for taking care of my little girl, if there is anything we can do for you, name it and it's done" Lily said.
"You home safe that is all I ever wanted" Haley said.
"Aaron will be home in awhile, the team sent us home and they are tying up loose ends. When they get done with Mark Porter, he will never see the light of day again." Spencer told her.
"Ok, I won't begrudge him the hours if it means that horrible man is behind bars where he belongs."
The Reid's said their goodbye's and drove home.
When they walked through the door Lily stopped just in side the door looking around at the entryway and living room hungrily. Their had been times in the last two days that she had never thought to see her beloved home and family again and she was overwhelmed and finally beginning to come down of the adrenaline high she had been on since Mark entered that room the last time.
"Hey, babe you ok" Spencer asked anxiously.
"Yeah, I think I am just on overload."
Spencer did know and he was worried what would happen when she finally let down her guard and felt the emotions she was obviously suppressing.
He took Ginna from her and took the sleeping girl to the nursery.
Lily went into her bedroom and began to pull off the clothes she wore. She ripped the tee shirt as she pulled it over her head. She didn't want to wear the clothes he touched any longer she pulled off the jeans and yanked of her panties ripping them down one side. She unhooked the bra and threw it from her.
She ran into the bathroom and turned on the shower full force gasping when she stepped into the cold water. She poured bath gel on to her loofa and began to scrub every part of her body she could reach. The water grew hotter and steamed filled the room and she scrubbed harder and harder the pain washing away every thing from her brain. All the shame and humiliation. Finally she stuck her head under the water resting her forehead on the wall and cried. She slid down to the tile floor and sobbed until the water turned cold again and then she just sat and rocked.
Spencer walked into the bedroom and stopped short when he saw the torn clothing on the floor. He heard the shower running and Lily's sobs over the running water. He went to the bathroom door, and then hesitated wondering if he should go in or leave her alone. He decided to give her time alone and went to the closet to change. He stayed in the bedroom lying on the bed reading a novel, which was rare for him. After about 30 minutes he became concerned Lily never stayed so long in the shower. She hated it when the hot water ran out so she was always quick and surely the hot water was long gone.
He tapped on the door "Lily, sweetheart you ok in there?" There was no answer. He knocked louder. Lily, are you alright babe, come on answer me."
When she didn't answer he opened the door and saw through the glass shower door that she was huddled in a corner of the shower rocking back and forth and staring unseeing at the tile floor of the shower. He crossed to the shower opened the door and turned off the frigid water.
"Jesus, Lily the water is freezing you'll catch pneumonia."
There was no response she continued to rock back and forth, back and forth. He got a better look at her and saw she had scrubbed the skin nearly raw on most of her body.
He picked her up in his arms and carried her to their bed. He grabbed some towels and began to dry her off the best he could and not hurt her. He wrapped a blanket around her and sat on the bed holding her on his lap as if she were a child. He began to speak to her and rock her in his arms. He told her all the things he had never told anyone especially the people at work. All of the terrible things his mother had done to him as a child. Everything that had happened to him in school, all of the names the kids called him. He spoke in an even, passionless tone of voice his coworkers would have recognized from work. He sounded as if he were reciting a case file.
"You never told me all the details, just generalities why not?" She said finally responding to his voice.
"For the same reason you never told me about Mark, it was too humiliating and I didn't want to give my tormentors power over me by giving voice to all the hurts and violations. I have never told anyone, but I was raped."
"What, Spencer my god what happened?"
"It happened when I was fifteen and working on my first PHD. The cretins I went to school with thought that my intellect and my looks which they called "pretty boy" when they were "nice" and other names I won't repeat when they were "mean" meant that I was gay. One of the guys, ironically a football player as it turns out jumped me one night and dragged me into his car. He drove out into the dessert beat on me for a while and then forced himself on me. I had no physical chance against him to defend my self and I thought he would kill me but he didn't he just drove us back to campus and pushed me out of the car but not before telling me to keep my mouth shut. He said no one would believe me if I told, but if I did he would kill me. I know that what happened to you Lily was not rape, but you are acting like it was. And I will tell you right now you did the right thing to try to escape because he would've raped you it was just a matter of time. He wouldn't have been able to help himself."
"What are we going to do Spencer?"
"We are going to get through this, just as we have before. But Lily I want you to see someone, talk to someone. You didn't do that after the first kidnapping and the back situation, but I want you to do it now. Please for my peace of mind I promise you it will help."
"Did you go to a therapist, after-?"
I have been to a therapist, but I never told her about the rape, but I promise you if you will go see someone I'll go back and see her again and tell her everything."
"Ok I will go. I would like to talk to Jason; as well do you think he would mind?"
No, I don't think he will mind he is a great sounding board and he can get you a number for Rape crisis if you want."
"No Spencer, I don't want to call that place, I wasn't raped and I don't want to talk to women who have. It seems like I would be saying hey this didn't happen to me but will you listen to me blather on about it any way."
"Lily there are lots of women that use that hotline even if there was no actual rape." They are not going to think less of you if you call especially if you explain what happened to you."
"I'll think about it Spencer. Right now I am so tired, I just want to sleep. Is Gianna okay?"
"She is sound asleep." Spencer said as she climbed out of his lap and he stood up.
They pulled of the bedspread and Lily put on her pajamas and they climbed into bed. Lily snuggled up close to him her head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around her.
"Thank you for understanding and for telling me about what happened to you. I know that was very hard." she whispered.
"I can't stand to see you in pain. I was good for me though those memories have been lurking around in my mind for so long it is good to talk about it with you."
He kissed the top of her head and they lay their for a long time neither of them sleeping.
TBC
A/N Please tell me what you think as I am very nervous about this chapter.