A/N: Okay! It's good to be back! I'm not sure what this chapter will be about, probably a bunch of nonsense. Or stupidness, but it's just until chapter 13! Okay? So just be patient, and I will be too. Thanks guys, for all the reviews and all the support, I really appreciate every good word. I love getting reviews!

Abiona Marchand :)

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Kaden was back to normal, and was glad of it. She was able to go outside, even if it was getting colder. Summer was almost over, and a familiar chill blew her hair from her face. Being lonely wasn't all it was made out to be. It was worse.

She saw Eadulf with the girl that he was with that night. They were laughing and he kissed her passionately. For a few minutes, all Kaden could do was stare. Then Eadulf stared right back at her. He didn't smile, or wave, or even grin. He just stared, had a look of sadness, and then looked away and went back to talking to the woman with him.

Kaden started to walk again, trying to forget everything that had happened between them, but it was close to impossible. She just kept on walking, putting her arms around her shoulders, more for comfort than for trying to keep warm. Then it started to mist a bit.

Kaden looked straight into the sky, tears running down her face. She stood in the rain, not scared of catching a cold, listening to the rain, feeling it cover her whole body. She kept on muttering the words "Why me...".

When she was finally back inside, she went to her rooms, had a hot bath and got into a change of clothes. Then she went to the mess hall for the first time in a long time.

She smelled hot soup and bread. Just what she needed.

On her way back, she ran into Ambrose. She smiled and hugged her friend. Then walked to her room with her.

"Wait, Kaden. We need to talk."

"We can go in my room."

"Okay." When they were inside, Ambrose sat on the bed and twiddled her fingers nervously.

"What's up?" Ambrose sat with a painted smile on, one she'd never used and wasn't that good at concealing what her real feelings were.

"There are some things I've been meaning to ask you."

"Go ahead and ask. I'm right here."

"What's been going on with you lately? You've been keeping things from me, lying to me, and not even telling me what's been bothering you. I'm your friend, you're supposed to tell me things! I care about you..." Kaden looked down, not wanting to show her unworthy face to her best friend.

"I can't do that. If I did, who knows what would happen..."

"Come on, please? I only want to help." She lifted Kaden's chin, and Kaden pulled away. "What happened to you trying to find your parents? Have you found them? Did you just give up?" Kaden shyed away from the question. "And what about you and Eadulf? One minute you love him, the next you don't, and then you don't talk to him; you don't even look at him?" She still didn't answer. "And you? You just hide away in your room for days and weeks at a time, not even bothering to tell me what happened, what you were doing." Kaden shook her head at the girl, warning her not to go any further. "Look, I know I may be shallow and silly, but I'm definately not stupid. I know when something bad is happening, and it's now."

"Don't." Kaden said, getting up. "It's bad enough I'm a part of my life, you shouldn't be either." Ambrose got up with the saddest look on her face, and closed her eyes.

"I hoped you would tell me, and everything would be over, but you've used up all my worry, and I'm through." Kaden was confused.

"What...?"

"I can't listen to you babble about nothing just to already know it's not true. I can't sit and wonder what you're going through, what's in your mind. I can't even look at you to see you using that fake smile and that used up expression. I can't anymore, so I'm not." She walked right through the doors, and never even said goodbye.

Kaden watched for the longest time, for what seemed like hours, waiting for her to turn around, come through the doors, laugh and tell her it was all a joke, but that never happened. She stood there, tears streaming down her face, watching, waiting.

When she came back to normal, she ran to the bathroom and all of the days food came up. She felt so disgusting from all that she had done, and she couldn't hold it all in.

After she sat in the privy for a couple of hours, she washed her face and her mouth.

She remembered the part of her room, in her closet, where Eadulf had kept his alcohol, and went rummaging through, trying to find any leftover bottles. There was only one bottle of rum left, and it wasn't even opened. She grabbed it and took a big swig, the taste rolling over her tongue. She sat for the rest of the night in her room on the floor in a big pile of clothing and other things. It wasn't until late in the morning that she woke in the pile of rubbish, rum spilled on the floor and a very bad headache.

'This is going to be some life.'

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A/N: I guess that was something. But don't blame me, I thought this was going to be a nothing chapter. Don't forget to review!