Disclaimer: No own DNAngel or Heaven's a Lie by Lacuna Coil
Warning: Shounen-ai, cruelty, etc
A/N: Sorry for not updating this sooner. I was hit with a new inspiration to write another fic. It's called Poetic. Check it out if you want. The chapters are longer a bit and instead of songs (I do not own), they're poems (that I do own). It's going to be short, because I already planned out what to write, something I didn't do with this.
Dark was angry. No, he was infuriated. And yet, he was sad as well. Did Daisuke just forget about him? Was it because Satoshi was there? Since when was Daisuke gay anyways? Questions rang through his head, but he couldn't find any answers to them. All these feelings were just like those he had felt when Akira had married. But it was also more.
Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
when I will fall in decay
Dark had planned to come back to search for the voice and he had found it, he realized. It was Daisuke's voice, but filled with more tragedy than ever before. But why would Daisuke be sad if Satoshi was there for him? Unless it was an abusive relationship. But that couldn't be it, Emiko would oppose the relationship at first chance, so what was it? Dark shook his head; ignoring all the stares he got from passersby outside the alley he was in.
Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn't really notice that you've been here
If it was an abusive relationship, Daisuke would probably keep quiet, so as to not raise any worry. This is worse than Dark thought. He knew he loved Daisuke and would do anything for him. But he was currently with Satoshi. Lusting after someone that was already taken was like a sin to Dark. He knew it was hard to find real happiness (after all, one learns things after centuries).
Maybe the God had sent him back to watch Daisuke from afar and help him throughout his life? Then God is just making a lie out of his life. What a cruel world and a cruel God. You can't survive out here without luck and it seems like Dark's luck had long run out. Lies. So many petty lie and now Dark has realized it. What's the purpose of his life? He knew he would never willingly help Daisuke with a relationship with someone else.
'Maybe I should break them up and keep Daisuke to myself, ne? Heh. That's a plan.' Dark thought, unconsciously putting on a malicious smirk. His jealousy ran through his veins and that fueled his dark intentions for the near future. 'Watch out Satoshi-boyfriend-stealer. I'm coming to get you.'
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Satoshi sneezed as he slowly walked towards Daisuke's house with said boy on his back. Daisuke wouldn't awaken, so he took it upon himself to bring him home. There wasn't a wind and yet Satoshi sneezed. Someone was talking about him. If it were his fan girls, he would've gained goose bumps, but since he didn't, he suppose some random male is trying to plot his demise. Whatever. There are more important things to think about. Things relating to Daisuke Niwa. The topic of recent troubles. How bothersome. At least Krad won't hurt him, for a while anyways.
What should Satoshi tell Emiko? What happened to Daisuke? Is Daisuke going to fall into depression again? Will Emiko believe him? 'Damn. If this were someone else besides Daisuke, I wouldn't have cared. Damn it all.' While Satoshi was cursing at his luck and more, Daisuke was reliving the nightmares of Dark's disappearance and his fears.
"Daisuke. You're such a weakling, a coward. You'll never receive love, much less from me. You're just going to be a slut, always letting people take advantage of you." Dark said cruelly. Others laughed at Dark's statement. Emiko shook her head in disappointment and turned away. Kosuke followed her, never looking back at him. Daikii just glared at him.
"You're no grandson of mine. I don't have a prostitute as a grandson. Emiko never had a child as bad as you." He said as he walked away, following the crowds. Sticks, stones, food, and trash were thrown at Daisuke and he wept. Everybody laughed at his weakness, but Daisuke couldn't bring himself to hate any one of them.
Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free
Suddenly, Daisuke was in a different area. He found himself in a skimpy rag with cum leaking out of his entrance. Looking around, the same group of people was there. All of them were glaring at Daisuke hatefully. Cum didn't dry yet so it was obvious that Daisuke just had sex. With who though?
"You're mine. You little slut. Why did you have sex with Satoshi if you were already mine? Huh? Answer me, you bitch!" Dark shouted. Daisuke looked confusedly at Dark. He had sex with Satoshi? Why wasn't Satoshi with the crowd? Daisuke was scared. He had never seen that murderous intent in Dark's eyes, or that terrifying, commanding tone. This was so painful for Daisuke.
"I wouldn't have sex with Satoshi. I love you. I would never betray you." Daisuke said for the first time since he entered this horrifying dream. Dark shook his head in anger and pointed an accusing finger at him. Out of nowhere, Satoshi appeared in a poof of smoke. He protectively embraced Daisuke and Daisuke was shocked at how his body just went along with whatever Satoshi did. What happened to his body? Why was it betraying him?
Oh no,
Here it is again
I need to know
Why did I choose to betray you?
Why was it that whatever Daisuke did, it would result in his and others' pain? Why is he so useless? All Daisuke could think about was what a weakling he was. He didn't notice the figures blur away to the darkness that surrounded him. Daisuke fell into blackness and was unconscious. (Which means he has no more nightmares for the time being.)
Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here
When Daisuke awoke, he found himself in on something soft and warm, something flesh-like. His half-lidded, sleepy eyes opened and he saw soft-blue hair. Then, the memory of his nightmare came rushing back and he pushed Satoshi away from him and landed on the hard cement floor of the sidewalk. Satoshi didn't know that Daisuke was awake so he just held him in a lax grip, but he instantly regretted it when his back felt light and a thud was heard behind him.
"Daisuke, are you okay? Let's go to your house, ne?" Satoshi asked. Daisuke just stared at him fearfully. Slowly nodding, he edged away from Satoshi before standing up and walking. Satoshi was about to grab his arm to steady him, but Daisuke flinched when Satoshi was just several inches away. Daisuke quickly walked ahead and avoided any conversation Satoshi tried to make. 'Something's definitely wrong. It's obvious now that Daisuke does remember.' Satoshi thought.
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
They reached the front door and Daisuke was about to say goodbye and close the door, but Satoshi just put a hand to the door and pushed enough room to let him pass through. Daisuke was surprised but he let it go and closed the door. He wanted to see what Satoshi would do in his house since Satoshi usually avoid going near his family. Daisuke knew that Satoshi thought that it would be uncomfortable to meet Emiko again.
Daisuke didn't seem depressed right now, but it's just that he didn't want to worry anyone. They still think he has amnesia and he doesn't exactly want them to pity him once they knew that he remembered.
Set me free
Your heaven's a lie
Set me free with your love
Set me free
"Ah. Welcome home, Daisuke. Dinner is just…" Emiko said as she entered the hallway from the kitchen. To say that she was surprised to see Satoshi would be an understatement. She didn't trust the Hikari, but it would be impolite and a mean thing to do if she denied Daisuke of having another friend. "Ahem. Dinner is ready and you can stay if you want, Satoshi." Emiko said emotionlessly.
Daisuke winced. It was the best she can do and Daisuke knew it. He didn't try to make things better, because he already knew it would just have the opposite results. He pushed Satoshi to nod and he complied. Daisuke led Satoshi into the dining room and settled down his book bag besides the chair. Satoshi did the same.
"Mrs. Niwa. I'm here to tell you that Daisuke remembers everything." Daisuke tried to cut Satoshi off, but Satoshi spoke too soon and Emiko stared at Daisuke. "I know he wouldn't do so himself so I came to help him." Satoshi said. Daisuke glared at Satoshi scornfully, allowing his pain to come back full force to hurt Satoshi. He succeeded and Satoshi bowed towards Daisuke in apology.
"I can't believe you did that, Satoshi. I thought you were my friend. I don't want to talk about it. I won't stop loving Dark." Daisuke said. He stood up and ran to his room childishly, though with reason. Satoshi and Emiko just looked at his retreating back sadly.
Set me free
Your heaven's a lie
Set me free with your love
Set me free
'Is it so wrong for me to continue loving Dark and hurting myself in the process? Why can't they see that Dark is the only thing that will keep me going?' Daisuke thought as he collapsed on his bed. He stuffed his face into his pillow and sniffed. He succumbed to the need of crying and wept his soul out. He never noticed a dark shadow passing by his window or the shadow making a longing look. He only heard the soft pit-pat of the rain that began to fall outside, fitting his exact emotions.
Dolefully desired
Set me free
Your heaven's a lie
Set me free with your love
Set me free
Dark watched as Daisuke slammed his bedroom door and ran straight to his bed. He watched as tears slid down the delicate pale skin. He growled and thought, 'Whoever is making my Daisuke sad like this will pay.'
A/N: I think it will be a long time till I made any action between anybody. I'm being distracted by competitions, exams, and dare I say it, Tarot cards.
Reviews:
D.N.Angel Lover: Thank you. I feel lonely sometimes and that's the easiest time for me to add emotion to my fics. XD Thanks for sticking by! And darkness is cool, ne?
BlackDecember: Thank you and thank tenshi for the song, okay? I agree with your love for Dark/Daisuke.
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takuya: Thanks and feel free to do so.