Disclaimer: I'm not Evanescence, though my real name does begin with an E. And Yukiru doesn't start with an E.
Warnings: See previous chapters.
Dark was in agony. Each time Dark and his tamers would separate, it felt like their hearts were ripped apart and no matter what you do, it'll never heal. Dark was afraid that his tamers were angry that Dark caused such pain. Each time his fear comes, it accumulates with the rest. Dark couldn't stand the guilt, the sadness, or the separation that he has to go through after getting used to the new Niwa. Each Niwa was unique and fun to be around with and the worse part of disappearing was seeing tears in the male Niwa's eyes. Each and every time, Dark had become the Niwa's most trusted friend. And each and every time, he had to be the reason why tears are in their eyes. He just hoped he would be the only one to have the pain. Maybe the female that would be told of the Niwa curse would ease the others' suffering.
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
When Dark left Daisuke, Dark saw more tears falling than any other Niwa. Dark knew that Daisuke would have to endure lots of misery because they were closer than any other partner. But when Dark came back, he was surprised that Daisuke appeared to never know about Dark. Even though Dark never really confronted Daisuke about the Phantom Thief, Dark had hoped that Daisuke would drop hints to Yami that he knew Dark Mousy. But Daisuke never did. Dark wondered if he wasn't vital to Daisuke. That wasn't fair. Since Dark had come back to the mortal world, Dark had thought of Daisuke each and every second he was awake or asleep. But even though Dark hates the fact that Daisuke seemed to have forgotten about Dark, he didn't hate Daisuke Niwa. He couldn't help but like –no, love- the Niwa. Daisuke sometimes had this sad puppy-dog look that made people think he was lost. Dark couldn't hate Daisuke. Never Daisuke.
Was Daisuke trying to move on, but he's still suffering? But that couldn't be. When Daisuke was with Yami, his smile was never forced, never strained. That meant that Daisuke had moved on already, didn't it? All these questions and no answer can be revealed. How long can Daisuke last until he breaks down if he's holding in his real emotions?
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Dark knew that Daisuke was in pain, though not the reason. Dark hates it when he sees Daisuke try to hide the pain. Daisuke's eyes tell all, but only to those who even bother to look. However, no one looks. Nobody seems to care. But Dark does. He knows he does. He'd be willing to sacrifice himself for Daisuke's happiness and joy. Anything would be worth it to see an eternal shine in Daisuke's eyes, to see that wide, happy grin on his face.
Dark would willingly disappear like he had done each time for his tamers. He wouldn't intrude the Niwa and their Sacred Maidens. He can't interrupt their lives as he had done on each male Niwa's fourteenth birthday. But he had interrupted this time, for Daisuke. He had come back to hear that wonderful voice that brought him back to the human world. Though Dark had seen people still wondering where Dark Mousy the great Phantom Thief had gone, he wondered if any of them missed Dark Mousy. No, Dark. It was hard to say, the woman sees him because of his looks and the guys see him because of his reputation as the world's best thief.
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Dark knows that Daisuke hates to be deceived. That makes things harder for Dark when he tries to be Yami Kaitou. But it hurt Dark more that he had to act like Yami. Daisuke seemed to sincerely like Yami when they first met; they had become fast friends. But when Daisuke met Dark that was another thing. Daisuke had treated Dark like he was some kind of nuisance and tried to rid himself of Dark.
This was why Dark asked Daisuke out on a date. Or at least he thinks it is. Dark doesn't want to intrude on Daisuke's life, but he wants Daisuke to know that Yami Kaitou was Dark Mousy and Dark Mousy was Yami Kaitou. This date will let Yami go on a date with Daisuke and Yami could just act like how Dark really feels, not a mask put on public when he's with fan girls or something. Only Daisuke experienced the real Dark. That was when they still shared one body and wished for co-existence. Dark wasn't so sure anymore.
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
The movie they were watching was really confusing. Its genre was horror, but it was more of a dramatic film. It was about some girl that was drowned by her mother (1). The girl was all alone; she wanted to come back to life and live. But her wish was denied. Dark didn't really get human's plots for movies, but it was sort of interesting. It somehow reminds him of his own situation. He wants to come clean with Daisuke and get together with him, but there were complications. Daisuke had once said he didn't like liars and he never seemed to be gay. In fact, he only has shown interest in females. Dark was soon thinking about his predicament and forgot all about the movie. Time slowly passed by and yet Dark still didn't wake up from his daze.
'If I had been born human, like Daisuke is, how much different could it be? Would it be the same as me being Yami? Would Daisuke like me any more? Or less?' Dark wondered. Maybe it was because he wasn't exactly human that Daisuke didn't love him. But Daisuke must still miss him to some degree, right? Should Yami ask Daisuke about Dark? How would Daisuke react? Dark decided to ask Daisuke about it after the movie.
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
you won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all-alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
The movie ended and they both exited. Daisuke walked ahead shaking. For a boy, he sure was easily scared. Daisuke gave him a questioning look and Dark wasn't sure if he was asking whether Yami was okay, where they should go next, or how the movie was. Deciding to ignore the look, Dark grabbed Daisuke's arm and pulled him to a corner. The action kind of creep Daisuke out because of the movie they just saw, but Daisuke brushed off the thought.
"Daisuke. I wanted to know if you know anything about Dark Mousy, the famous art thief." Yami said seriously. He knew Daisuke felt trapped, anxious, and scared. Trapped because he never liked anyone asking him about Dark. Anxious because Yami was acting serious, something Yami never did and scared because Dark was long gone when Yami arrived. Where did Yami get the thought that Daisuke knew Dark and where did he learn the fact that Dark even existed?
"I don't know what you're talking about. I don't know any art thief or a Dark Mousy." Daisuke said, trying to sound casual. Dark's heart slowly cracked, but he continued.
"You should know him. He was the talk of Azumano months ago. Takeshi says you were here since a long time ago. You should know the Phantom Thief." Dark pushed on. He knew he could get hurt even more, but he needed to know if Daisuke would tell anyone about Dark. 'Please say yes. Please say yes. Please say yes.' Dark thought pleadingly.
"Maybe I wasn't here at the time. I could've been visiting my grandparents in Osaka for a year." It hurt Daisuke to deny Dark's existence in his life, but he had to. He can't let anyone figure out the Niwa's secret. He doesn't want anyone trying to kidnap his future son and test experiments on him. He doesn't want to share Dark. Period.
Dark's heart stopped for a second and everything seemed to fade away. His blood was pounding in his ears and he absentmindedly wondered why he even hears his blood moving if he felt so dead. Was he even alive to begin with?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
"O-okay, Daisuke. I understand. Where do you want to go next?" His words were hollow, sounding empty. Dark knew Daisuke heard it, if the flinch was any indication. Daisuke shook his head to say he wanted to go home. Dark was okay with that. He distantly heard himself mutter a quiet 'Okay. Then bye.' He quickly turned around and headed towards the direction of his apartment. He needed a drink. Desperately. And the only way to get some is to steal some and drink his ass off in his apartment.
Daisuke watched as Yami stumbled away. For some reason, Yami's eyes' gleam had disappeared and Daisuke wondered if Yami knew Dark. Yami's name was strange, Daisuke admit, but did that have anything to do with his other half? He just has to ask him on school on Monday. He wants some answers quickly. And Yami seems to be the only one who can answer them. Daisuke wondered if he should first worry about Yami's health before asking some questions as he watched Yami almost get run over. Daisuke decided to help Yami get out of his detached state before finding some solutions. You have to lose something to gain something. Time will be lost but answers will be gain.
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Satoshi watched all the events happen from the roof. He had followed Daisuke and Dark to the movie theatres and he sat somewhere farther than them. He watched as their little date seem to have gotten a problem and they each left. What was wrong? They're not already having love problems, right? Friends are so troublesome. But for Daisuke's smile and happiness, Satoshi would willingly be the matchmaker. Now, how to convince Krad to let Satoshi be the matchmaker. Hm… This needs a lot of thought.
1. I don't know why, but when I think of movies, the picture of Samara appears. The Ring isn't really scary. Or at least I don't think so. My friend thinks if I cover my face with my hair, I kind of look like Samara. –shudders-
A/N: A fast update, ne? This is shorter compared to the previous one. Thank you, tenshi, for your gracious review that held recommendations. I finished this chapter the same day I finished My Paper Heart, but I wanted at least one review for each chapter. Sorry for my selfish acts, readers. This has certainly turned bad… Oh, Daisuke. Look what you've done. And the last part seems weird. Krad is somehow implied as nice to me right there. It's supposed to mean how Satoshi can get Krad to let them get together without killing Dark first.
Review, please?