Disclaimer: DNAngel and Headstrong is not mine. I am neither Yukiru Sugisaki nor Trapt.
Warning: Um… I forgot it all, so just check back previous chapters. And… yeah.
Daisuke walked around in his room, thinking on how he should act during school. Yami had lied to him and Daisuke always hated liars. Especially now, since Dark was gone. Yami had deceived him. Tricked him.
What do you do if your crush did that to you? Daisuke couldn't hate Yami. Yami had taken Daisuke out of the depression that threatened Daisuke's sanity after Dark had left. But what does Daisuke have now? Yami lied to him. Just like everyone else. Everyone had left him. They had said they'd always be with Daisuke. Where were they when Daisuke needed them most?
Yami… Daisuke couldn't bear to think on ignoring him forever. Forever is a long time. And Yami had seemed pained. His expression was just like Dark's when he… left. The look of trying to hide pain. For someone. More specifically, for Daisuke.
Was Daisuke such a burden that everybody doesn't bother to tell the truth to anymore? It was rather obvious that Yami wanted to say something. There always was a look in Yami's eyes that pleaded Daisuke to understand. Daisuke never understood. He never knew what Yami had wanted. And Yami didn't know what Daisuke wanted. All Daisuke needed was someone who would love him. That sounds so corny and sappy and girly, yet Daisuke doesn't mind. The pain of losing Dark was already too much for him to handle. And Risa even handled it better than him.
But back to the topic of Yami. Yami had tried to say something the day before. But Daisuke was pushed away by the stampede of students that were exiting the school building. Yami had said that his name wasn't really Yami… Who was he, then?
Circling your, circling your, circling your head
Contemplating everything you ever said
Now I see the truth I got a doubt
A different motive in your eyes and now I'm out
I'll see you later
I see your fantasy you want to make a reality paved in gold
Dark groaned. His head was pounding and he was pretty sure that being in the real world didn't have the feeling of floating. In air. (Not water.) And he was sure that he wouldn't let any other guy lay on him besides Daisuke. He didn't drink so therefore he couldn't have picked up a male whore off the street. Movement from above him made him open his eyes.
As they landed upon Yami, they narrowed and the memories come swarming back. Daisuke pulling him aside. Daisuke's hurt expression when Dark said his name wasn't Yami. Daisuke being pushed away, never hearing Dark's explanation. And last but certainly not least, the image of the demon trying to wreak havoc.
Seeing Dark under him wasn't exactly unpleasant. But Yami didn't like that either. So he pushed himself off and rolled beside Dark. Yami groaned a few minutes later. His muscles had stiffened and were protesting loudly against his attempts of moving. According to the angry look on his face, Dark assumed that Yami remembered the demon as well.
By its words earlier, it was clear that the creature had tried to turn them against each other. At least that vile beast seemed to have disappeared. Which was good since Dark knew that if it were still there, both of them wouldn't be able to fight back. Dark and Yami had exhausted all their powers to banishing the demon and his filling-minds-with-dark-thoughts-power away from Dark and Yami's shared mind.
It's over. Now, Dark and Yami have to come to a compromise.
And win Daisuke's good side too.
See inside, inside of our heads yeah, well now that's over
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
Daisuke's resolve was made. He would still hang out with Yami. But he would put up barriers (not actual ones) and if Yami breaks through, Daisuke will think about that later. Daisuke will not let anyone hurt him anymore. He would make sure that he keeps this vow. No one will be able to hurt him and Daisuke's heart will never have to break and heal again.
To distract his mind from wandering around, Daisuke steeled himself to his closet to paint again. To shove all the feelings into a board again. Passing the canvas from months ago, Daisuke examined the painting of him and Dark being together. That painting was useless and pointless. Dark wasn't going to come back. It'll just hurt Daisuke more. With this thought in mind, Daisuke grasp the painting and threw it into the back of his closet before taking another blank canvas and paints out.
Without caring what he was drawing or what colors he used, he let fate decide what will end up on the canvas. Stroke followed stroke. Feeling after feeling. All are being washed out and Daisuke suddenly felt heavy. That doesn't matter. Continuing, Daisuke closed his eye and let his hand have its own will.
Slowly, the canvas gained colors. An image appeared and Daisuke with his closed eyes, painted dark shadows swirling and framing it. When Daisuke had finally thought he finished (even though he didn't know what he had painted), he opened his eyes and saw another painting of Dark. Scowling, Daisuke turned around and placed back his materials into his closet. It doesn't matter if Dark was on the canvas. It just meant that Daisuke is getting rid of Dark from his mind and into somewhere else.
Back off, I'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong, we're headstrong
back off, I'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
and this is not where you belong
Dark and Yami didn't know what happened. They knew they were extremely tired and that they kept on drifting from consciousness to unconsciousness. They both didn't know how that's possible since they're already in a mind. But they succumbed to the sleep regardless. Their energies slowly regenerated and soon, they could stay awake for an hour or two before they blacked out. They knew they would never sleep like this forever and sometimes if they could, Dark and Yami would try to stay awake by talking. But never about Daisuke. At least not yet. It wasn't the time anyways. There just wasn't anything to talk about.
They wouldn't give each other ammo to get Daisuke either.
I can't give everything away
I won't give everything away
…
Isn't that how the demon wanted them to think? What's happening? Isn't he already gone? Dark suddenly had a bad thought. What if the demon was in his mind long enough that the magic had stemmed itself into Dark's brain? Dark couldn't stand to retaliate at Yami for the rest of his life. And neither could Yami.
Yami knew what Dark was thinking about. He already thought about it earlier and came up with a result. Yami would not interfere with Dark's actions. This was Dark's body and Yami shouldn't take control. Yami just knew that he would take matters into his own hands if they got too out of control. But what of Daisuke?
Daisuke surely dislikes Dark now. Or at least Yami. Daisuke still doesn't know the true identity. Not that Yami could blame him. He'd be confused about that as well. Perhaps even more so. This wouldn't be an easy job for Dark to win back Daisuke's trust. And who knows how Daisuke'll react. This event has something to do with Dark. Whether Daisuke knew it or not, Daisuke's emotions are strong enough to take his actions for him. Like Freedert had said, Daisuke's emotions have powers. Daisuke could very well make himself into a demon.
Daisuke walked down the street, heading for school. His face was expressionless and it was eerie how he looked kind of like Satoshi.
Conclusions manifest
Your first impressions got to be your very best
I see you're full of shit and that's alright
That's how you play I guess you get through every night
Now that's over
I see your fantasy you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads, yeah
Well now that's over
I see your motives inside and your decision to hide
"It's okay, Yami. I don't need your pity. You don't have to hang out with me. You should make some other friends besides me, anyways." Daisuke said coldly, his eyes were biting and snarling at Dark and he didn't quite know what to do. Dark wondered what brought the sudden change. Lying to Daisuke didn't warrant this kind of attitude. At least, back when Dark shared his body. Who knows what happened when Dark was still lost. And the voice that Dark had heard. It doesn't seem like Daisuke's voice anymore. Daisuke's voice wasn't as emotion-filled and… grabbing like that other voice was.
But what is that supposed to mean? That Dark has to let Daisuke go? That someone else needs Dark? The words that other voice had spoken still seemed so fresh in his mind. Though it was only a verse from a song, Dark knew that the person who sang it was fitting exactly into the story behind the song. The person knows that something is wrong with their life and feels empty.
Dark strives to fill that empty void.
But what about Daisuke?
Back off, I'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong, we're headstrong
back off, I'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
and this is not where you belong (where you belong)
Daisuke didn't know what brought on the urge to tell Yami to stay away. Maybe he was too hurt and too angry? Daisuke didn't care for the reason. What's done is done and nothing can change the fact that after Daisuke had said that mean statement, Yami had just turned around and walked away without a comment.
'I guess he wanted to get rid of me but didn't want to hurt me.' Daisuke thought. His heart chipped, but he held his reserve. It hurt, but Daisuke had to take care of it.
Giving his heart away again was a mistake Daisuke wished didn't happen. Though the pain will be there for a long time (if not forever), Daisuke was sure he felt this type of pain before. Heartbreak. But it shouldn't feel the same. He remembered some girls saying something like each relationship is different. Each love is different. That guaranteed more pain, but the happiness from the love was worth it. Daisuke wasn't sure about the second part, but he believed in the part that the pain was different for each person that he loved.
He had loved Risa and Riku. The feelings were different. Risa's was just a puppy crush whereas Riku's was a first love.
He had also loved Dark. And it was probably an unrequited love if the pang in his heart was anything to go by.
And Daisuke loves Yami. Daisuke's love and pain feels exactly like the way he had felt for his alter ego. This isn't right, is it?
But nevermind that. Giving his heart. Having it thrust back at him. That was just too much.
I can't give everything away (This is not where you belong)
I won't give everything away
"Dark, are you sure about this? You're giving up on Daisuke for someone you don't even know about. For all you know, it might just be a singer at a concert." Yami said concerned. They were at Dark's house, packing. For some reason, Dark was convinced that his special someone didn't live in Azumano. Yami just thinks that Dark is trying to escape from reality, running away from the fact that Daisuke pushed Dark away, even as a friend.
"It doesn't matter, Yami. I know what I'm doing. And I am not running from reality." Dark said. Yami's corporeal form faded away after he gave one last shake of the head. 'No matter what you say, Dark. I know exactly what you're thinking. You shouldn't always think about yourself. You don't know what's happening to Daisuke.' Yami thought.
I know, I know all about, I know, I know all about,
I know, I know all about, I know, I know all about,
your motives inside, and your decision to hide
Dark stood at the gate entrance/exit to Azumano. Taking one last glance at the town, Dark walked away. Yami stood by silently, watching as tragedies take root and he would not interfere. His heart pained like Dark did, but Dark has to win Daisuke fair and square. Yami was only a watcher.
"Yami, let's go. You don't belong here. Heck, I don't belong here. I was only sent here for a reason and I'm going to find that reason." Dark explained. Despite this, Yami was sure Dark's eyes were wet. But Yami didn't figure out whether or not Dark cried, because the rain began to fall, matching three boys' moods.
The tragedy of Yami/Dark and Daisuke's story is beginning and they will come out of it alive. But not happily.
Back off, I'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong, we're headstrong
Back off, I'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
And this is not where you belong (where you belong)
This is not where you belong
"'The opposite of love is not hate, but indifference.' If Yami didn't love me, I guess he's indifferent towards me." Daisuke said to himself as he locked himself in his room. The quote came from somewhere, but Daisuke didn't know where. And he didn't want to know either. Ignorance would've been bliss, but not when you were sure something was wrong. And knowing that he liked (and maybe loved) Yami was too much.
"I want to lock my heart and throw away the key. So no one would ever have my heart." Daisuke muttered quietly, watching the rain softly patter against the glass.
I can't give everything away (This is not where you belong)
I won't give everything away (This is not where you belong)
This is not where you belong
A/N: I'm too lazy to write any more review replies except to those who don't sign in. This chapter keeps on having time skips. I'm sorry if you were annoyed by it. For some reason, this chapter seems corrupted. When I uploaded it, it looked too different. So if it's in bold, I didn't put it like that.