Dear Julia,

It's been 7 years now, since I have become Mrs. Murdoch…but I am still being called Julia Ogden, though. Being married to William has been the best years of my life.

When we celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary, but all we did was stay in bed and make passionate love. Did I mention, William is the best lover I ever had.

On our wedding night, was the first time I had an orgasm, and medical books are right, there indescribable and sometimes bring women to tears and boy were they right.

A month after, William mentioned about maybe trying for a baby or adopting. I never told him, but ever since being married, my menstrual cycle was 2-3 weeks late about 6 or 7 times and I knew then I was pregnant, but then ended up having my period. I never told him this, because it made me feel like a failure, that I couldn't give him a baby.

Then a miracle happened during a case, I was taken by a baby boy named Roland, whose parents died during a shoot-out and we adopted him. But the happiness only lasted a few weeks, when we found out his parents who died, weren't his parents. I went behind William's back and found his biological father and it was the hardest thing to do, but we had to give Roland back to his father.

It put a strain on us for a couple of weeks, and I felt like it was my fault, and went away to a conference. I thought it would help, but it didn't and William and I pushed through it and decided we would try to adopt again.

But something happened…I was shot by someone from our past, but if it wasn't for William suggested for a blood transfusion or his electrical current machine, I wouldn't be alive.

But again, we were strained and I suffered what was called "soldier's syndrome," but William push me through it and I am glad he did.

A few months went by and I went behind William's back again and went to Chicago to see a fertility doctor to see if he could help me become pregnant. But with my age, he told me no, but I should conceive.

William and I tried for months and nothing happened, but then I meant a woman who was developing a drug, which and including a schedule of on the clock sex, even during work hours, and it worked. A month later I found out I was pregnant…but tragedy happened again and we lost the baby…I believe it was going to be a girl. We did chose the name Mary, but after the miscarriage, we decided if she was born, we would have named her Madeline. But to help us through the tragedy, we took a trip to South America, built our house and I went to school to become a surgeon. But on the trip, we made a pact we would stop trying for a baby again or to adopt, since many adoption agencies have rejected us.

Years went by and I was hardly working alongside William, due to being a surgeon, which I loved doing. But a strain on our marriage began and I started to develop feelings for a younger male doctor, Dr. Dixon.

I still can't believe the things I did with him, such as lied to William and went drinking with him. Then we were asked to go away to London to give lectures, at the University of London. While there, Dixon asked me if I wanted to have an affair, and came to my room, and we kissed, but thank goodness, William called and I left for home. I was so confused on what I was doing, but thanks to the inspector, who told me, William was going to resign, since Mrs. Hart was blackmailing us. This made me realize, William would give up everything for me, and how much he loves me and I him. I found the evidence against us and gave it to William. I returned to London tell Dr. Dixon, nothing was going to happen with us. But when I arrived, I saw he had a girl in his room and I told him bye and left laughing knowing I dodged a bullet and realized he wasn't the man I thought I knew.

I arrived back home, William and I had a great dinner and he was setting up a fire and I had to tell him what had happened…I feared he would run out the door…but he didn't, he said he understood and he asked me to make love to him and I didn't give it a second thought. We made passionate love, all night long and renewed our vows to each other.

A few months later, I began helping William with his cases again and it felt like old times…but then came an unexpected guest, a 9-year-old boy named Harry, came into our lives. He was William and Anna Fulford, a former lover from his past, who had been killed, but they had a son together. But William promised me, it was when I was married to Darcy and it was one night and he didn't know about him. When I looked at Harry, I knew he was William's son, the forehead, eyes and nose, it was all William, but also the mannerisms too. I was at a breaking point, not only was Harry now here, but pregnant Ruth Newsome-Higgins arrived at our house, because she had a fight with Henry and was about to give birth, which happened the next day, she went into labor and I delivered the baby, a girl, they named Jordan.

William then found out Anna may been still alive and plus Harry took off, he followed them, before I poured out my soul to him, saying I wanted to be the mother of his child, and felt like a failure, but he told me Harry was our son. But he wasn't, I couldn't bond with him, but William assured me that he loves me and always will.

It was 3 days, while William was away and I was on the verge on leaving and going to my lawyers to get an annulment. When I got a call and William told me, he loved me, but I was still unsure, but after saving a man, even though after he died and talking to a woman who was obsessed with George, it made me realize, no matter what lifetime we were in, William and I were, meant to be, even if that meant no children.

William, came back after finding Harry and sending him back to London, to join Anna, and I was so happy to see him and he proved how much he loved me that night, after making love not once, but twice.

A few months later, we were back to ourselves, but after getting fired from the hospital for embarrassing another doctor for a misdiagnosis. I helped William with cases again, which was so fun. But I had to find a job and did at a woman's clinic, which I enjoy.

A few months later, William and I were invited to a Halloween party, and I chose being a seductive witch and William a seductive detective. But we didn't get to attend, due to a case, but I put my witch costume on again and seduce William, which worked and boy did it work. I couldn't remember the last time we had such an amazing, powerful lovemaking, because 6 weeks later, I noticed something odd, my cycle was late and I was constantly nauseous and throwing up in the mornings. But it was at the clinic when I saw the sight of blood and threw up. Nurse Kate Sullivan asked me if I was pregnant, but I told her not possible, but she insist I take some tests and the results were inclusive…I was indeed pregnant, 7 weeks to be exact. I couldn't believe it and needed to tell William, but it was close to Christmas and decided I would tell him, on Christmas morning, when we went to the mansion, we were going to with our friends.

What a Christmas we had, almost got killed by the staff on numerous times, to me guessing what William got me for Christmas, which was a noise maker, that sounded like rain on tin roof, very relaxing.

It was time to tell him, and I said "I have special gift to give you in the bedroom" and by his face, he thought we were going to have sex, but I told him that wasn't that and he was disappointed. But I told him I was pregnant, he looked at me if I was joking, then he was absolutely shocked and looked at my belly, I nodded and reassured him, we were going to have a baby. We were both so happy, not only is it a Christmas miracle, but we weren't trying for a baby and it was conceived naturally. I am still shocked and keep wondering what we did differently this time for me to get pregnant, but then I just let it go, knowing my dream is coming true and going to give him a baby.

Now I am 6 months pregnant and constantly craving for pickles and haven't waited told anyone, not even Ruby just in case, something happened, but I took extra precautions this time and didn't over work. But we just told the inspector, and he was so happy for us. I told Louise as well, but she thought I was hiding something from her. But when I told her, she was so happy for me. I am surprised, we have gone from enemies to friends and she has become like a sister to me.

The next day we told the rest of the station house, and they were so happy for us. I wrote to Ruby, and got a letter today from her today and all it said was, "I always knew you and William would have a baby. I guess William is truly quite the lover you say he is. Congratulations, Jules." I sometimes wish Ruby was here in Toronto, and not away in a different country, but she is not a home body.

Today, we were suppose to see a lecture that Dr. Freud was suppose to give, but he got a death threat and a rumble happened, and the station house ended up having all these brilliant psychiatrists, and so began an unexpected case, which I got to be involved in. But, one thing I got to mention to William, when I worked with Dr. Freud back years ago in Vienna, is that I was a test subject in his "Talking Cure" and ended up talking all about William. The results made it that he was a "stick in the mud," and hearing this, William kept acting non rigid and loose, and it annoyed me. But at the end of the case, and we said our byes to Freud, I reassured William, that yes he was sometimes a "stick in the mud," but I love him for him. But when we got home, he proved to me what a "stick in the mud" wouldn't do…like perform oral…which he did on me, and he was right.

Oh boy, look at the time, I should get back to bed, but remember Julia, you have a bright future ahead of you. In a couple of months, you'll become a mother and always remember, William loves you and you love him.

Sincerely,

Julia Ogden-Murdoch

As William, finished reading the letter, he had tears in his eyes from overcoming all emotions he endured, while reading. As he placed the letter back on her desk, he went back to bed, as she turned in her sleep and cuddled him and looked at him,

"I read the letter and I am so sorry of some things I put you through. But I want you to remember, like the last line says…"

"You will always love me and I will always love you" she finished his sentence

"and we do have a bright future ahead of us," he said as he placed a hand on her baby bump and gave her a kiss on the lips and fell asleep in each other's arms