Author:
Gah! It took me long enough to post this chapter because of my novel. I'm not done with that yet (dareka tasukete kure…!). I'm so sorry to those who confused after reading chapter 1. On this chapter, Roxas' identity has been revealed. When he's in girl form, sometimes I still pointing him as 'she/her' so… please don't be confused again :3
(Editor: RIN)
Disclaimer:
Yuna and Tidus on this story are taken from FFX, not from KH2 (bcos they became chibi :p). I don't own any of KH2 or FFX charas, they all belong to Square-Enix (and Disney).
Hint:
Kwantartz (White Mage) Roxas
Edwartz (Black Mage) Axel
Klight (Knight) & Parador (Hunter) please guess which is who between Sora & Riku (you'll be rewarded if your guess is correct - JK)
PART II – ROXAS
I don't know why but I missed him so much. I want to hug him, feel his warmth and smell his scent. What did he see? Gazing to the open sea…
"H-hi." I managed to called him
"Oh, it is you, Princess." he looked surprised
huh? Is that Axel? Why on earth did he call me 'princess' anyway? Wait a minute, now that I could se his face. I dont think this guy is really Axel, though he does looks a lot like him. What's going on!
"What are you doing here?"
"I was…" he paused, hesitates for a while. "…thinking. Just searching for someplace quiet to cool down my head."
"Is something bothering you?" I asked him, perhaps it's not my concern but I do worry for him
He keeps silent for a moment, look hesitate and…
"Well, a lot… actually" at last he answer me and gave me a weak smile
I swear I wasn't my own, when I embrace him so suddenly (more like I've jumped to him). I hugged him so tight, I could hear his heart pounding fast.
"P-Princess?" he startled and sounds a little confused, but didn't push me away... "Milady…" he sighed
I felt his hand on my waist and the other one stroke my long hair gently. Huh? I have a long hair? That means I'm… this girl can't be me!
"There will be a great battle tomorrow. It will decide the freedom of our kind. You really should rest." I feel my face getting hot as I broke the embrace
"I know I have no right to ask anything of you, milady but…"
"Don't be silly." I chuckled lightly. "What can I do for you?"
"Promise me, that no matter what happened," he looks deeply to my eyes, "please don't use 'that' magic!"
I nod as my answer...
This is the only way! I have no choice. I'd rather die than watch them lose their lives with my own eyes. After all, as a leader of this squad I have to be a good example for the others. Forgive me everyone… Forgive me my love… Forgive me… my dear fiancé… I've never meant to hurt you like that…
"If not in this life, I will meet you again in the next life…" as I said those words, I feel my body as hurts so bad.
I feel like my bone were crushed and my soul has been ripped from my body. Seconds later, I woke up in my room. Full of sweat and my chest's hurts.
"Damn…" I curse the nightmare I just had.
I saw Axel in my dream. Not only him, but there're two other people as well. They were… Damn! I can't remember! But why the hell did I dreamt about Axel anyway? Because what happened at that storage yesterday? Wait, a minute! What about Namine? Didn't I love her? Does that mean I had become a bisex in one day? Gosh, I'm so damn confused!
01010
Flashback to two days ago…
"Mom, I'm so sick and tired about this! I've been wearing skirt since I was a baby. Could I be a boy just this one time when I'm dating with Namine? Please?" Roxas plea to his mother.
"I'm sorry, sweetie. But I couldn't let you do that. That would be against the rules." his mother, Yuna, wouldn't grant his wish.
"Fuck the damn rules!" Curse Roxas.
"Watch your tongue, son!" Tidus warn his son for his vocab choosing.
"Come on, don't you know you look gorgeous on skirt, Roxie." Sora added, chewing his food.
Roxas shot an icy glare to Sora, his twin brother.
"Call me Roxas when we at home! You're so damn lucky Mom didn't choose you as her heir." Roxas pouted, still complaining about why do their parents being so unfair about him and Sora.
"Yep, thanks God for that. Besides, I really want to have a sister than a brother, you know." Sora's says that happily while enjoying his food and his 'freedom'.
"Sweetie, you have more spiritual talent than your brother. That's why I chose you." Yuna always give this excuse to calm Roxas down.
"But I never asked to be a high priestess in the first place, Mom!" Roxas almost yelled.
"Can you stop complaining while we're eating, son?" Tidus looked annoyed with Roxas complaint.
Roxas wouldn't dare to argue any further.
"I'm full…" Sora put down his chopsticks and pat his tummy. "I'll be in my room." He's gone upstairs
"Hey, I'll go to school early with Namine tomorrow." Roxas says it on Sora's back, doesn't really care whether he heard it or not
Yuna is a high priestess whose often being called to do a fortune telling, blessings or some other ritual occasions. According to the rule, she must pass down her power and knowledge to her daughter, but unfortunately she has twin sons. She's look deeply at Roxas, who have same eyes with her husband, feel guilty, that she had to force his son to become a good daughter for a long time.
"Only one year and half more and you'll be free to be who wanted to be." Tidus count Roxas' remaining time till his eighteenth birthday
"Be patient, sweetie." Yuna cheer up his son. "Just remember that your secret has to be safe. If anyone found out about this, your spiritual power will decrease."
Namine finds out his secret when he accidentally came out from changing room without wearing a sarashi. Luckily Namine promised to keep his secret and had helped Roxas in many ways. Not long after that, they get closer to each other and became more than just friends. Sora feels his job to protect Roxas became easier with Namine's help. No matter what, Roxas' secret has to remain safe until the time comes.
"And you must keep your virginity until you turn eighteen." Yuna added.
Usually they need a maiden to perform a ritual. If the maiden is underage, which means under 18 years old, she must be a virgin to keep her spiritual power stable.
"I know…" Roxas answered lazily
"I'm sorry, sweetie, to make you to do these things."
"It's okay, Mom. It's not like I'm forced to do this, I just… want to be normal. That's all."
The next day, Roxas went to school with Namine. He seemed so happy that Namine asked him to be model for her drawings. She'll participate in some art competition next month.
"Looks like I'll have to go to a movie with you in girl form again." Roxas sighed.
"Don't so glum about that. Besides you looks cute in dress, Roxie." Namine giggled.
"Argh, not you too, why did you guys keep saying that I'm cute!"
"Because, you ARE super cute, Roxie." Namine smiled.
Roxas just love to see Namine's smile. Whenever he's with her, everything seems so bright and warm. He hopes everything never changes, and stay like this forever.
01010
But, Roxas was the one who washed away that angelic smile. He didn't know what had gotten into him that made him kissing with Axel passionately in that storage. Even to ignore her who came to help him with his sarashi.
"Sora asked me to h…" Namine opened the door, her eyes widened with shock.
Then she burst in tears and ran away. At first, Roxas didn't even notice her for a while.
"Axel, what the fuck is wrong with you!" Riku snapped out.
Finally, Roxas and Axel broke their kiss, both panting trying to catch their breaths.
"I dunno…" Axel shook his head
"What the…" Roxas don't believe what he just did. "No, it can't be…" Roxas shook his head in frighten.
Riku grabbed Roxas' collar and threaten him. "You gotta keep this secret to your grave, understand? Or I'll hurt that girl! Looks like she's your only friend. Or, maybe I'll…toy with your lovely brother?" he smirked
"Riku, what're you doing?" Axel feel weird that riku take this thing to serious. Why does Riku took Roxie as a threat anyway? His cover isn't that big deal.
"Shuddup!" Riku shouted.
"O, okay. I promise. I won't tell anyone!" swore Roxas, he knew Riku is really mean it.
"Good girl." Riku release Roxas's collar, whose now feel lucky that he's wearing sarashi rite now. If not, Riku could see right through his bra n saw several pads just like what he wears now.
"Are you okay, babe?" Axel checks on Roxas
Roxas didn't know what to say. Every time he looks at Axel's emerald green eyes, he so mesmerized by it. Riku seem's mad, he just didn't know what to do with this instant lovesick couple!
"Roxie!" Sora rush in while panting heavily
Sora feels his blood rush to his head when he saw how close Axel and Roxas are.
"Stay away from her!" he ran to separate them, didn't notice that Riku also there
"Sora, it's not like…"
"Quiet! I'll deal with you later, Roxie." Sora silence his brother, his eyes is filled with anger
"Chill out man. I'm didn't do anything to her." Axel tried to pat Sora's shoulder to calm him down
Sora slapped Axel's hand off roughly. For seconds, they glare at each other angrily.
"Axel, I'm leaving." Riku didn't wanna stay any longer
"Oh, hi there, Riku!" Sora who just noticed Riku's presence, smiles widely at her.
But Riku is already left, ignoring Sora completely. Sora felt his heart scatter into pieces again.
"See ya, Roxie." Axel blew a goodbye kiss to Roxas as he follow Riku outside.
After Riku and Axel left, Sora began his interrogation towards Roxas.
"Namine is crying when she left. What's happened, Roxie? Did you do something bad to her?"
"That's none of your business." Roxas said in sarcastic tone
"Of course this is my business!" Sora yelled. "You're still my responsiblility. And Namine is your secret keeper and your…"
"She's not my girlfriend." Roxas cut him off quickly
Sora frowned, wonder what had happened to Roxas.
"If you say so, then fine. But you still got to apologize and explain what was really happened to her. We still need her on our side, Roxie." he suggested
"You say that as if I've been using her for my advantage."
"Aren't you?" Sora answers in cynical tone.
"Alright, I'll apologize to her later."
"Good."
'This is not the time to worry about the others love problem. What I gotta do now is to figure out how to get Riku's attention and win her heart!' That's was Sora's thought when he left that storage with his brother. But why does his head hurts when he thinks about Riku?
A week has passed since then. Roxas still haven't got a chance to apologize to Namine because Riku and Axel always supervising him where ever he go. He even didn't have a chance to talk to his brother at school. Every time he managed to talking with them, Namine always run away from him.
"What are you waiting for? Go after her!" Sora commanded.
"But…" Roxas seems unsure…
"No buts! Explain everything to her, especially about your new relationship with Axel. I don't want you to be a two timer!"
"I don't have any 'relationship' with him. Do you think I'm gay? My dear brother… I am straight!" Roxas proclaim himself as innocent, while thinks his brother is the one whose gay, for falling in love with Riku
"Puh-lease. You guys make out in this school every time and everywhere you met each other and you said you're not in any relationship?" Sora remind his brother of what he's been doing lately
"What a conservative thought..." Roxas snorted
"My Roxie has become a whore!" Sora is almost screaming to his little brother, fear is written on his sapphire eyes
Decide to ignoring his brother last sentence, Roxas went to chase Namine. He wanted to explain everything to her, including what he feels right now. On the other hand, Sora who has been abandoned by Roxas, felt sad and a bit lonely. His Roxie has changed to someone he doesn't know anymore.
"Hey babe, wanna play with us?" Sora heard a male student voice not too far from him.
"Fuck off." Sora heard Riku's voice, she seems to be pissed off
"At last we can caught you off guard from your redhead bodyguards." another male student's voice
Somehow Sora knew that his Riku (when did Riku was his?) is in trouble.
"Hey, stop it right there!" Sora acts like a hero who come to rescue a princess that gonna be bullied by two thugs
"Well well well, playing hero eh, Sora?" Seifer laughing.
Riku was cornered by another male student, Saix. He looked a little happy when Sora came to rescue him, though he doesn't really need it actually.
"Don't you dare lay any finger on her!" Sora warned them, didn't know why he is so upset. Jealous maybe?
"Shorty, is your Roxie not enough for you? Don't be so selfish, keeping all the babes for yourself!" Saix mocked.
"What did you call me?" Sora was burned in anger, Saix have said his banned word. "Roxie is mine, and so does that pretty babe next to you!"
Riku feel a little disappointed, he always dislike Roxie. And so, the fight begins. Saix and Seifer from different class against Sora alone. But don't judge a book by its cover. Even though Sora's scrawny and a little short, he's actually a good fighter. It didn't take too long to kick their asses away, despite the bruises he got on his cheek.
After those rascals finally runs for their lives, Sora returns to Riku and offering his hand.
"Are you okay?"
"I don't need your help, shorty." Riku shook away his hand
Sora feels like his heart had been stabbed, again. He didn't have a clue why does Riku hates him so much.
"Not even a 'thank you'?" Sora sighed. However, he wondered why didn't he angry at all when Riku called him short. In usual case, he'll kick whoever's butt dares to call him that way. Sora's eyes caught Riku's see green eyes. Those were beautiful eyes he's ever seen in his life (probably because of lovesick, he couldn't think straight). "I can see ocean through your eyes."
Riku's eyes slightly widen. What Sora was said was made him a little…
"As far as I remember, I didn't call for your help." Riku said it with an extra coldness in his voice, trying to control his emotion. "Besides, what did you expect? A kiss from the princess? Hmph, bite me! I'm different from your slut sister."
"Don't talk about her like that." Sora don't like Riku insults his Roxie
"Why is it always about her and her!" suddenly Riku snapped. She grabbed Sora's collar and pinned him on the wall. "You never give a damn for me. Never care for me like in the past."
"Huh?" Sora is startled and a little confused, he didn't know Riku was this strong. "What are you talking about?"
Riku let go of his hand, refuses to tell Sora why he did that. Sora pouted, he doesn't like if someone keeps secret from him.
"Nevermind." then Riku walked away, left Sora alone on his confusion
"Will you stop bothering Roxie?" Sora shouted to the leaving Riku, and starts complaining about how Riku keeping Roxie away from him at school for a whole week
"It's you whose bothering them." Riku answered calmly before he left.
"Huh?"
Namine was about to go home when she meets Roxie and Sora on their way to the school gate. She has been avoiding Roxie for the whole week. No matter what Sora said to comfort her, she will never forgive him especially for what he and Axel have been doing around the school lately. She don't wanna listen to anything Roxie say, so she decided to ran away from them. She knew Roxie will outrun her after a while so she had no choice but to hide. Girls bathroom seems to be a perfect spot…
Apparently she chose the wrong place to hide. There are two girls in the bathroom and they definitely not in good terms with her.
"What a coincidence seeing you without your girlfriend, Namine?" says Larxene while fetching Namine's orange sketch book.
Namine tries to take it back from her. But she easily dodged her hand while her friend pull her hair and make her hissed in pain
"Did she cheat on you? Or has she finally dumped you because you keep diggin her past, witch?"
Usually Roxie is always protect her from those fancies who just love to bully her, but she's not here now… by her side… Thinking about this is making her sad even more.
"Give it back." Namine pleaded with tears filled her beautiful cerulean eyes
"This?" Larxene swings it in front of her and changing glance with her friend. "I bet you draw your girlfriend's past you've foreseen inside this thing eh?"
"Yeah! Everyone knows that you're a witch who peeks into people's past without permission." Larxene's friend pushed Namine till she bumped on the wall
Larxene opened Namine's sketchbook and she's furious when she found out that all the pages are blank. She ripped the pages from the book then dumped it to the floor. They're laughing madly as they left Namine alone in the bathroom. She's crying in silence as she gathering the pieces of paper from her drawing book. A moment later she heard some strange voices from the boy's bathroom, right next to the girl's.
Roxas was lost sight of Namine. He wondered since when she became this good on fleeing.
"Sorry Namine… I didn't know what've gotten into me. I've never meant to hurt you like this…" Roxas said to himself.
Those dreams that he had lately ever since the day he kissed Axel drove him crazy even more. Is he really Axel's girlfriend in past life? How did he just couldn't resist him every time they're together? How come he became so attached to him? And why?
"There you are honey, I was looking everywhere for you." suddenly Axel hug Roxas from behind
"A-Axel, let go off me." Roxas tried to free himself from the red read when Axel is starting to kiss his neck
His body is starting to react against his will. Why cant he pushed him away?
"N-not here." Roxas moaning as his hand trying to touch Axel's body
Axel just realized that they're in school hallway. It's too risky to be seen by other student or worse, by the teacher. He scooped Roxas' feet and carry him in bridal style to the nearest bathroom, boy's bathroom (well, sometimes girl can enter boy's bathroom but boy cannot enter girl's). And then, they start their making out session eagerly. Just make out, nothing else. Roxas would never let Axel undress him. If he did, he'll find out his secret. Axel seemed don't mind about that though.
"Roxie…" Axel moaned
"A-Axel, I…" Roxie kissed him lustfully
Namine is peeking inside from the boy's bathroom entrance because those suspicious voice were sounds familiar to her. Seconds later, she was in shocked and couldn't believe what she's watching. A kissing domination contest between those two perhaps?
"Axel, w-wait." Roxas realized there's someone watching them, then he saw her. "Namine?" he pushed Axel away and run after her
This time Roxas runs faster.
"Namine, listen to me." he tried to calm her down
"No! I'm not listening whatever you say." Namine's close her ears with her palms, her tears are falling
"Namine, I…" seeing her like this made Roxas heart hurt like it has been sliced into pieces. "We…"
"It's enough, Roxie." Namine let go of her hands, try to face Roxas as tough as she could. "I promise I'll never step in between you two again."
"What are you talking about?" Roxas shook Namine's shoulder. "You can't just broke up with me!"
Namine wipe away her tears, holding back her pain.
"How can I break up with you since we didn't have ANY relationship to begin with?" it took all of her courage to say this sentence
It true that they have no relationship other than friends, they're closeness are definitely more than friends, but less than lovers. Roxas stunned as Namine left him, crying. Feeling of guilt came down and crushed him.
"Honey, you okay?" Axel came after him, trying to continue the interrupted session.
"Just… leave me alone." Roxas push himself to leave him. If Axel didn't come to his life, everything wouldn't turn out to be like this. Everything would have been just fine. Those dreams would have never appeared. He asked his mother once about this. She said that dreams could lead to a person to their past or future, but only those who have a strong will or possess spiritual power like him can see through. But Axel said that he got those weird dreams too. What the meaning of this? Did they really have some unfinished business in the past life that continues until this life?
"Roxie!" Axel grabbed Roxas' wrist. "Don't you leave me again." he pleaded
"We never meant to be together, Axel." Roxas shake off his hand, avoiding Axel's eyes
"No!" Axel hugs Roxas tightly, seems like never wanna let him go. "I won't let those damned dreams come true!"
"You can't deny them. It's fate!" Roxas push Axel away and run to after Namine
Axel stunned because Roxas chose Namine over him. How come Roxie prefer to be lesbian than straight? He wouldn't mind even if she is a bi though.
Roxas' choice is fixed. He have swore to himself, no matter what happen he will never leave Namine again, never make her cry again. But it was already too late. By the time he arrived at the school gate, there are a lot of people gather in front of school, some are panicking. Say to each other that there has been a car accident, apparently hit and run. His heart is beating fast, there are fear and uneasy feeling crawling on his skin. He broke the crowd until he could see what happened, and his heart stop when he saw Namine lying there, bleeding badly...
"N-no, it c-cant be…" Roxas rush to her side immediately.
"Ro..xie…" thanks goodness Namine still conscious
"Don't talk, Namine. Save your breath." his tears started to fall, the feeling of guilt crushing his heart even more. "Call an ambulance, please!" he shouted
"My… dra…wings…" Namine whispered and then she lost her conscious
"NAMINE…!" Roxas screamed in horror and regret
Roxas and Sora are waited for Namine in hospital. She was in coma because of several serious injuries especially on her head. Roxas just couldn't stop put blaming himself and Sora does his best to calm his brother.
"It's not your fault, Roxie. Dont put all the blame on yourself." Sora stroking Roxas' hair
"If I explained to her earlier, this would never be happened." Roxas said weakly, he lay his head on his brother's shoulder, hoping to find comfort there.
"Every action has its consequence." Sora sighed. "You have chosen to be with him than Namine. You've been damned."
Roxas can't said anything to defend himself. What Sora said were true. He was damned. Tears start falling from his eyes.
"Let's go home, Roxie. Namine's parents are already here, they'll take care of her." Sora caresses Roxas' cheek.
Roxas nodded in silence. It's already dark outside. Both of them are already halfway home when suddenly Roxas stopped.
"What's wrong?" Sora frowned, his brother has been acted strange lately.
"Drawings…" Roxas mumbled.
"Huh? What drawings?"
"Namine told me something about her drawings when she about to lost her consciousness."
"Ah, I get it! Maybe she wanted you to finish the drawing for the competition."
"I don't think so…" Roxas looked unsure.
They're end up breaking into school at night even though it's risky. Sora had tried over and over several times to persuade Roxas to go home instead.
"I won't asked you to come along if you scared." Roxas said, he wouldn't mind if Sora didn't want to do it with him.
"It's not that!" Sora pouted. "I'm just… Well I should be by your side to protect you."
"Yeah right…"
The Art Room is now messier than before. Both of them had no idea where's Namine keep her drawings.
"Are you sure she keep it here?" Sora began doubted. "You always with her when she draws, how come you didn't know where she store them?"
Roxas didn't answer him, he continues searching for the drawings. All he knew is Namine always left her sketchbook on her locker or something.
"Gotta pee." Sora said and run to reach the door knob. "Be careful, and don't get caught. I'll be right back."
Roxas was almost given up on searching when his eyes scanning the mess they have made. He sighed in defeated, have no idea where to search anymore. He sat down on the chair that Namine used to sit when she draws; feeling guilty, miserable and screwed. His eyes caught something below the closet, he reached whatever it is with his hand. Amazingly, that's Namine's sketch book they are looking for.
"Thanks God." Roxas hugged the sketchbook tightly, fell relief. "I should deliver it to hospital then."
But then he realized that Sora hasn't come back yet. Is he get caught by security? Or did he lie about taking a pee? Either way, Roxas decided to look for his brother. When he about to reach the bathroom, he saw someone came out from there and went for another direction. A silver-haired guy. Riku? What was he doing here at time like this?
"Sora, are you there?" Roxas asked, taking a peep into dimly lit boy's bathroom.
Some bad feelings filled his chest. When he looked down to the floor, he saw Sora lying unconscious and bleeding. There's bloodstain on the wall too. Someone must have slammed his brother head against the wall.
"So-sora, are you alright? Talk to me!" Roxas panicked and shake Sora's body.
Sora gave no response and Roxas has been filled by horror.
"Goddamn shit, Riku! You're gonna pay!" Roxas gritted his teeth, his eyes filled with anger.
Riku had promised him that he wouldn't lay any finger on Namine or Sora. But since the day he met them on that storage, they already started to ruin his life.
End's note:
Well, tell me what you think. I almost got lost the main idea I wanna write about because of too many things on my head. Hope you (whoever read this) will still enjoy :)