Chapter 8: Tension
At the labo
Matsu saw the energy was awakening, 'okay, it's a start…'
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In the forest
Takeuchi – "Look!! The light just here!! Let's go and see…"
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At Momiji's
The kiss has become very passionate, and Kusanagi was now on the top of Momiji. He looked her in the eyes. He kissed her forehead, her cheeks, her lips, her neck…
She heard herself moaning, it was just so good to have his lips on her skin, she doesn't matter where she was anymore, if they have the right to do this, the creature problem…. She just wanted him to continue. Somehow, she had put her legs around him. She tightened the grip she had on his back and began playing with his hair.
Kusanagi was very excited; every movement his "innocent" girl was doing was making him crazy. He whispered in her ear: "You are mine tonight".
And these words… by saying these words, he came back to reality. 'What am I doing now?'
Momiji felt him stopping his kisses and opened her eyes. He was really really serious. She didn't know what to think. His look was very dark. 'Maybe I did something wrong?'
Momiji – "Kusanagi? What's wrong? It's me? You…". Then she noticed that almost all the buttons of her shirt were opened, revealing her bra. She blushed 'When did that just happen?'
She didn't know what to do, she wanted to hide her chest but she couldn't, her arms were blocked by Kusanagi body.
Kusanagi noticed her blush and looked to where she was looking. 'Okay man, you just unbuttoned her shirt, great!'. He didn't want to move, it just felt so right to feel her body, so he decided not to move. He just wanted to talk and lied down on her.
Their heads were at the same level and he talked in her ear: "Momiji, I'm sorry for what I was doing to you…"
Momiji: "No hmm… you know I didn't dislike and I want it as much as you. What's the problem? Is it because of the "maybe" creation of a creature??"
Kusanagi was really lost in his thoughts, he couldn't think, words were passing through his mind 'Momiji… couch…. Kisses… creature… love… fear… hurting… fear…'. A single tear escaped from him: "I'm afraid, I'm just so scared… I'm so sorry… I'm afraid of hurting you, I'm afraid of this energy which tries to separate us, I'm afraid of myself, of my body, I don't know what could happen to me if we… I don't deserve you; you deserve a real man who is able to love you correctly…"
Momiji was now crying too on his shoulder. They were still lying on the couch. It was so hard for her to see him feeling so miserable.
Kusanagi: "I'm sorry for making you cry. I don't know, Kaede said the solution was inside me, I try to understand, to make links, I think she wanted to say that I can control the energy but how??? Momiji, I'm just so scared, I'm so scared, so scared..."
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In the forest of Izumo
Kunikida and Takeuchi couldn't believe their eyes; they had had just the time to reach the energy to see another creature flying…
Kunikida – "Shiiiiiiiiiit, what the hell, it was so sudden…. Kusanagi I will kiiiilll you if the creature didn't do it before me!!"
Takeuchi – "There is no time for that! I must phone to Takeuchi immediately…"
At the labo
Matsu saw the peak of energy on the computer, and when the phone rang she knew it was Takeuchi: "shiiit, Kusanagi you are a dead man!"
Takeuchi: "Matsu!! The creature is flying to Tokyo; we will drive back as quickly as possible."
Matsu: "Okay, I contact Momiji, thanks!"
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At Momiji's
Kusanagi was now trembling, Momiji was desperately trying to comfort him: "Kusanagi please calm down … I love you, I love you, I love you…"
"Why are you scared Kusanagi?"… "Every time it's the same thing, you are afraid of what might happen, you are almost paralyzed, you are so tensed…." Momiji was trying to comfort him.
Kusanagi: "Yes, you are right, you are totally right… and you are brilliant!!!!" Kusanagi sat down on the couch.
Momiji looked at him, he wasn't the same, he was calmer. "Hmm Kusanagi can you explain to me…."
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At the labo, Matsu didn't understand a thing, the energy was awakening, she even wondered if the creature hadn't disappeared.
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On the couch
Kusanagi kissed hard Momiji and that kiss made her blushed, but she didn't know why, she had kissed him before, but this time Kusanagi felt confident…
"Momiji, you know Kaede said the solution was inside me… I have wondered what could make the difference, what could inside me create something which tries to separate us when we are intimate. I didn't know because I have strong feelings for you…."
"But I understand now, you are totally right… Every time I'm alone with you I panicked, I'm afraid of a lot of things, but the thing I'm afraid the most is not controlling myself, and do something you don't want me to…" Momiji blushed
"Kusanagi, you know, I have always trusted you and I know that…"
"No, you don't know if… because I'm half human, and you and I don't know how my other half could act. But I understand something fundamental, something that, I hope, will change our relationship…"
Momiji looked at him very concerned "hmm you mean in a good way I presume…"
Kusanagi laughed, "Of course… you are too natural, so innocent… so beautiful" and he kissed her, just a small kiss on her lips. "Ohhh you are blushing… but I have already kissed you before?"
"Yeah… it's just, I don't know, you seem to have changed and your kisses are more confident, I feel something new…" Momiji found at this moment her carpet very interesting 'Why do I feel so sensitive suddenly?'
"As I was saying to you, I think I found the solution… I think I was creating a creature because I wasn't confident enough in me… and my fear must have been felt by my other half, and as I am linked to the plant…."
Momiji was looking at him very intensively 'As he gone completely crazy?'
"Hmm, Kusanagi, you tell me your unconsciousness creates some weird creature to separate us because you are scared when you are with me." Momiji didn't know if she wanted to laugh or to cry.
Kusanagi was, on the contrary, very proud of this explanation: "I think we could phone Matsu, I think she saw a peak of energy and then nothing! And maybe Kunikida and Takeuchi saw a creature that doesn't exist anymore! Yes I'm sure, let's calling them!"
Momiji couldn't believe her ears: "Whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttt????"
Kusanagi stayed paralyzed: "oups…"
Momiji was now shouting: "What the hell are you talking about Kusanagi!!! You know we don't have the right to be together and you just want to call everybody…. Except if… they already know we are together!!! Kusanagi looked at me, and don't tell me I'm right because you are dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Kusanagi didn't know what to tell her 'Shiiit, sometimes I'm such hopeless' "Hmm well, hmm you know… in fact…." 'Oh no, she is crying' "Please Momiji… baby…"
Momiji was crying and laughing at the same time: "Now you call me 'Baby'!! Ah ah ah, are you really kidding me??? I want to know everything Kusanagi, tell me, I'm waiting…"
She left the couch and sat on a chair to face him. He tried to take her hands, "No! The truth first!"
Kusanagi knew he didn't have any choice: "Well the truth is that I saw Matsu today and she told me that Kunikida and her wanted me to see you because they had found nothing and they thought that if we were together we could rise the energy… but not too much to create a vegetal creature… so I came to see you tonight but I want you to know that…"
Momiji was very upset, very very angry: "and when were you going to tell me this????? After we make love??? It was just a TEST!!!" She got up and slapped him hard.
Kusanagi had his head down, 'okay, after all it was not a good idea, I knew it but I wanted to see her…' "Listen Momiji, I was missing you so much that I accepted, but it was also because I wanted to find a solution, we can't stay with this threat, our relationship can't evolve if we are disturbed by some vegetal creature… Momiji, please…"
She was now standing, looking outside her window, 'Why? I just wanted to be happy with him…'
Kusanagi approached her "Momiji, I understand you are angry, but I want you to know that when I kiss you, when I hold you in my arms… it's not because I want to make a test! It's because I want to be with you, because I love being with you."
Momiji didn't know she could be that upset: "Okay Kusanagi, you want to be with me, and it's easy for you to be with me and to use me for your test… because you know I love you but, first, you can't say you love me and, second, you tell me you are so scared of being with me that a creature has to separate us!!!!! Kusanagi, I just think that you don't love me enough… you are just not ready to be with me… I accept it… so just leave"
He tried to take her in his arms but she pushed him away.
'Why can't I say I love her? I love her, I know it…' "Momiji, okay, for tonight I'll leave… I will go and see Matsu to see if I was right… Before I leave, you must know that I don't use you, I really want to be with you and you know it… but I've always wondered if I was the right man for you, you are such a great, cute and lovable girl, and you deserve the best… and I sometimes think I don't deserve you… Look at you, you are beautiful, you are full of life, you are young, and I'm the contrary of you…"
Momiji was still looking outside the window: "You know Kusanagi, I said to you a million times that it doesn't matter for me if you are older, if you are half human, if… I just love you, that's all, and I'm not a little girl anymore… maybe you just can't accept my love…"
Kusanagi didn't know what to answer…
Momiji: "Do you remember when I asked you if we were meant to be together? At that time you answered that you didn't know but you knew you wanted to be with me… and since that time, we kissed, our relationship evolved, you even said you could get used to me cooking for you and you still don't know if you love me…"
Kusanagi knew he had to say something: "That's not it, Momiji, I know, but I just can't say it… I'm sorry… I will go but before I want one thing from you."
This time he was really serious, he turned her with a firm grip on her arms. He lifted her face, "look at me Momiji". She slowly looked him in the eyes. His face was dark and she could have sworn he was about to cry: "Listen carefully… I – will – never – leave – you, never, never… we will go through this together, okay?"
And he kissed her, hard, passionately, as if he wanted to make her feel she was his. The kiss was salted because of the tears they were sharing. When the kiss ended, she didn't know anymore where she was, she needed to breathe and she whispered an "okay".
And he left, she didn't know what to think, this man was an enigma… but she loved him and she will make sure the tension is only a bad moment to go through.
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To be continued!
Sorry it took so long to finish this chapter,
Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoy and see you next chapter
Célia